Chapter 1: Lies

Anya's point of view

Hi, My name is Anya Macpherson. I go to Degrassi Community School. I originally went to Lakehurst High School but it burnt down so now I'm here. I'm Seventeen years old and a senior here at Degrassi. I wouldn't really call myself ugly but I'm not one of those drop dead gorgeous girls all the guys are falling for. Someday i want to become a photographer. If I were to give any advice to new students at Degrassi it would be DO NOT DATE! It is not worth it. The reason i say this is because i dated from grade ten till now and it wasn't worth it at all. It was honestly just a waste of my time. My resolution for this year will be to focus more on school work then on a guy. This Year things WILL be different!

Day 1/Senior Year/2010

I put down my pencil when I am finished with my English 12 assignment. It was nothing to horrible. Just a small "Journal Entry" about my plans for this year. I meant all of it. Yeah sure i missed his smile, his laugh, and even the frustrated looks he would give me when we fought. But I lied and so did he. Hell i should have been the one breaking up with him, but i guess there is a difference between us. That not even i noticed last year before the break up.
The bell rang making me jump. I stumbled out of the classroom door in shock. I guess i was lost in my own thoughts for longer then i expected. Suddenly as i was stumbling through the door i ram face first into someone. Sending my books flying out of my hands and dropping all over the hallway floor with a thud. I glance up to see who i was dealing with. Oh god it was him. Sav Bhandari my ex-boyfriend and the guy i was hopelessly in love with.

His dark eyes bore into mine leaving me breathless. His hair usually long and scene was now cropped short with a small spike in the front. I couldn't deny it he looked amazing. Yet again summer worked its magic making his skin darker then it already was. I couldn't help but examine his whole body top to bottom. With my still lobster skin from my day at the beach i couldn't help but feel beneath him. He looked gorgeous from being in the sun all summer. I just looked freshly baked.

"Anya", he stated "Oh I'm so sorry i didn't mean to um yeah bump into you. I'll be su.."
He began to laugh interrupting me. "Typically you. Always talking WAY to much when you are nervous" He said in front of everyone. Now i was embarrassed.
Beyond embarrassed i was pissed off. When did he become such a ass. I questioned in my head. I pulled a Holly J. I rolled my eyes, brushed past him and walked to my next class. Unfortunately for me he was in my next class so he caught up with me quickly.
"Anya, wait up are you mad at me?" he questioned "What do you think." I shot back. If words could kill Sav Bhandari would be dead right about now.
"Why, what did I do this time. At least I'm talking to you", He said appalled as though he had no idea why i was mad at him.
"At least you're talking to me" I screamed back my voice echoed through the hallway and people around were starting to stare so i lowered my voice to a soft hiss. "Sav Bhandari you embarrassed the crap out of me and made me look stupid."
`"Hold on just a second." he began. "you did that all by yourself. Staring at me like a lost puppy. So don't go blaming other people for your mistakes"
And with that he walked into the classroom. I followed suit and sat in a seat closest to the window and as far away from him as possible. I could feel his eyes watching me as I took a seat. Sure things had become pretty messed up that year but he's never been that cruel to me.
Halfway through Mr. Blakemores lecture about the importance of Calculus and how we used it in everyday life Leia past me a note. I looked at her and asked her if it was from her. She shook her head no and gestured towards Sav.
I turned my gaze towards him. He looked at me with pleading eyes. I turned my attention toward s the note. I wondered weather or not I should rip it up. I chose not to. Hey I'm not as cruel as him what could I say. I began to open it looking around making sure Mr. Blakemore wasn't paying any attention. He wasn't he was still going on about calculus. I actually caught a couple people sleeping. I caught my chance and open the note. Inside it read:

Anya,

If your reading this i guess you decided to show mercy. I'm so sorry for what I said before we came in. I was just angry that you actually thought i would embarrass you on purpose. Trust me it was nothing like that. I want to talk to you about everything that happened last spring. I know that you have the same lunch hour as me because this is the split class that has B lunch. If you are willing to talk meet in the Botanical Gardens for lunch. Remember Seniors are allowed to leave for lunch. That is so awesome!
Sav

I folded the note up and couldn't help but smile. What can I say the guy had a way of working his magic. I looked over at him with a stern face and nodded yes. I wanted to believe him but i couldn't get my hopes up. He said he wanted to talk not that he wanted to get back together. Mr. Blakemore dismissed us for lunch. And despite the pleads from Holly J. and Leia I went to the Botanical Gardens to meet Sav. At first glance I didn't see him but as i stepped into the garden a little further, I saw him seating on one of the benches. He looked up as on cue and smiled. It wasn't one of those happy smiles I liked so much but one filled with relief. He was revealed to see me . "Hey"
He patted the seat beside him. Motioning me to sit down, so I did. I wanted to begin this one.

"Sav, I'm so sorry about everything. I don't ever want to lie to you again. It's just with the whole Fara thing I guess I didn't know what to do." As I spoke tears began to well up in my eyes, making my vision blurry.

I tried to pull myself together sniffling slightly. I looked down, giving up on my explanation.

I felt defeated. The only other words that could come out of my mouth were "I'm sorry"

"Anya." he started; " I forgive you. It's just I don't know if we can really be honest with each other thats all. I mean really all last year was based on nothing but lies."

He was right I thought that last year was amazing; but all we did was lie to on another. And that really weakened our relationship. A relationship without trust is really not a relationship at all. Now we stood at a crossroads. Could we really be together and be honest with one another

Sav's POV

I stare at those big green eyes of hers. Can we really start over?... Again? After all the secrets and lies. Can we really make this work?

All those questions coursed through my brain. I was actually starting to get a headache from the thousands of thoughts. I really wanted to be with her. Believe me I did, but trusting her and her trusting me would be difficult. I hadn't really decided what I wanted, but at that moment I wanted to kiss her. Hoping maybe in some weird way it would help me decide what I wanted.

I leaned in close to her. Her eyes boring into mine, telling me she wanted to kiss me too. I leaned in even closer, now are lips only inches away from one another. Then she made the final lean and our lips met. Moving in sync with one another.

She put her hand on my cheek, telling me not to stop. I placed my hand on the small of her back, bring her closer to me if that were even possible. I could taste the strawberry lip gloss on her lips, smell the perfume that she was wearing. It was "Pink Ice." The only reason I know what it is called because I was the one that got it for her, on her birthday in May.

Finally our lips parted and I moved away from her slightly. I could see it in her eyes, she didn't want it to end. Secretly neither did I. I stood up and she grabbed my hand giving me a small kiss and then smiled. She didn't even realize how much I wanted to be with her. I wanted to hold her and kiss her and touch her no matter the cost. But I knew the cost. I would have to tell my parents. And if told them they would make it impossible for us to be together.

See my Family is Muslim and they believe in arranged marriages. They want me to be with someone who is Indian and Muslim witch Anya is neither. So I'm really not allowed to date. My parents think that there is no point in dating if we have no future. But I wanted a future with Anya. I wanted to marry her. If I did my parents would probably hate me, but I wanted her. But I had a plan.

"Anya." I pleaded. Still standing looking down at her. "I want to be with you you know I do. It's just I want to be completely honest with the ones I love and if I'm with you now then we will have to sneak around. But when I turn eighteen, An, I can do what I want and we can be together. Only a couple of months to go. For now though I can't be with you."

Tears began to well up in her eyes, but she understood. She nodded and smiled wiping her eyes with her hand.

"Sav, I get what you're saying. It's mature and honest. Thanks for the explanation and I hope we can be friends until then. I love you." She said in one breath.

Oh crap she had to use the "L" word on me, seriously! She knew I had to say it back. It wasn't like I would deny I loved her.

" I love you to Anya" and with that I walked away.

It hurt knowing that I couldn't be with her for a couple of months, but I had to do this. When I turned eighteen I'd be able to be with her. And my parents would have no say in it. That was the plan. All I have to do is wait till I'm eighteen and It will all be okay. To bad things never go as expected.