Dear Hermione. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I'm a coward.

Bleed Forever

By silver-nightstorm

Words: 367

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Dear Hermione,

I'm sorry.

I know that's not what you want to hear. I know you'd like it much better if none of this was happening at all. I'm not as far gone as you fear. I haven't deluded myself into thinking that you'll be all right, but in some sick way, I want to hurt you. You hurt me after all. You cut me so deep and now I'll bleed forever.

How's that for the emotional range of a teaspoon?

I suppose it's my fault you could never see me as more. It's difficult to grow to love the boy who made you cry at eleven. It's difficult to care about the young man who could never see you as a girl. I guess the first time that happened was when you showed up at the Yule Ball. Did I ever tell you how I didn't enjoy that day at all? I pissed off Padma because I just stared at you the entire time. At some point you just became the center of my universe. You're so smart and pretty and that rarely comes in one.

It's too late now to tell you that, I suppose. I regret leaving you and Harry that day in the woods so much. I could see it in your eyes that day. Up until then, you felt something for me but it all fizzled out because I'm a coward. I'm sorry.

Seeing you with Snape has been painful. I don't understand what you could possibly see in him that you don't see in me. He's bitter and horrible and greasy. You'll say something like "He understands me, Ron! He cares about me beyond my looks! He actually sees me as a woman!" I see you like that too. You just don't care anymore.

I don't want to blame you. I really don't. It's not your fault. I screwed this up too long ago for anything to become of us but I want you to hurt. I know that my mum is going to be heartbroken, and that Ginny will cry, and that my family doesn't deserve to loose another person but I want you to hurt. Shoulder the burden, Hermione, because this is for you.

Goodbye.

Ron Weasley.

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The 2012 Hogwarts Games – Men's Tennis – The Weasley Family

The Pairing Diversity Boot Camp – Ron/Hermione – If you be the one to cut me, I will bleed forever

The Honeydukes Competition - Sugar Quills: quills are used to write at Hogwarts. So this challenge is do something written- a letter to another character, a diary entry, anything else you can think of.

The Greek Mythology Competition – Coeus: the Titan of intellect and the axis of the heaven around which the stars revolved

Well. Um. Please review. :) (a smiley face to lighten the mood)