Oh My gosh yes it is a Fanfic by Little Rini. No hell hasn't frozen over but looking outside it looks like it's about to. I didn't know a song for this. It's Relena's views on 'God'. os ya it's in Relena's POV
Everyday it's the same. Get up, get ready, go to work, sign papers, listen to old men argue, then sing more papers. Once Im done with that I have to listen to more old men argue over stupid things that can be solved by a monkey. Do I comment? No, for that would be rude, yet still I put up day after day of people's shit and bullshit. I'd like to leave this place but then again, I do this for him.
Yes I do it for the boy, well man now, that tried to kill me several times. I suppose any girl would stay away from him. Of course they would, but Im no girl, Im a women with the weight of the world on my small shoulders. I have had Zechs yelling at me for not eating. I suppose ever since I lost my faith and belief I never eat any more.
Yes, Relena Dorlian Peacecraft has lost faith. I have lost faith in God. Though, I still go to church to please the god damn press. I know I shouldn't use his name in vain but tell me what he has done for me?
He let my biological family all die with the exception of my brother. Let my foster father die infront of me and just recently my foster mother die. I suppose after all of that, I have lost my faith. I still do this for the people. Always will I wake up and do what I do for the people. I'd rather the world be in peace then me be dead. I can rest peacefully when peace will stay.
Though sometimes their words get to me. Yes, peace isn't forever, but if you really want it can't you keep it. I tried my hardest to remember when I lost my faith. I suppose, the last time Heero left me alone. I had thought we could have had something since he fell into my arms, but he must not have known.
Noin keeps Zechs out of my way most of the time, and I have been eating more since Noin was so worried. I suppose it's better if I just eat a little and not alot. I was once happy with faith and all, when I was an arrogant little girl, blinded from the truth. I suppose it was better that way, but it's all a suppose, never a 'yes it should be that way' always. 'suppose.'
I would leave if guilt wouldn't be in my heart. Guilt, always there to hurt you one way or another. I suppose my faith is still here, inside my soul. Though, supposedly I sold my soul for the happiness of my people, for his happiness. I don't even know if he is alive. Wait cancel that thought, no i can't think like that. If he was dead we would know, I would know.
My views on God is what everyone wants to know, my belief. I don't have a belief, you can't change beliefs easily, but I have an idea, which can be changed easily. My 'idea' is that God is there to help us in times of need and when he needs up we should be there. I suppose you could say faith is a funny thing in ways. Everyone wants to have the right religion. It's like it's a competition. Well I just have to go on every day doing what I decided to do. So if anyone asks what my belief is, tell them I have an 'idea.'
Ok, that sucked major ass, but i don't care. SOrry Tomorrow if it's not what you wanted. That's just how i saw it.