Ok, this is a new fic I've started working on, the idea just sprung into my head during revision and I couldn't let it go. Yes, there is no Bella in this story. This first chapter is just an insight into my main character's life. Tell me what you think; this is my second fic so I'm still sort of new to this.

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. Well, that couldn't be more obvious. I do own Loretta, though.

Enjoy!

Chapter One – Ice

I wish I could say that I was relatively normal, but that would be a blatant lie.

When I hear other girls moaning on about boyfriends, or annoying parents, or whiny siblings all I can do is sink deeper into a vat of jealousy.

I hate the way they act so ungrateful, they have families, friends, a normal, carefree life. Everything about them seems to make me envious.

I have nothing. I have no biological family left, and my friends are just as strange as I am. At least they have each other.

All I have is a pretty face.

There is never a normal day at the Cullen household, no matter how repetitive days may seem. Nothing is normal in a house full of vampires.

I am forever eighteen. This is why.

I was turned into this by a vampire I've never met, five years ago. I was in a nasty car accident, and ended up near death. My best friend, Joanne, wasn't going to let me die, so she made this vampire turn me. Joanne was already a vampire not long before this all happened, once she fell in love with Edward Cullen and also ended up near death. I had already found out about the whole vampire thing, seeing as when Joanne came round my house she all off a sudden had red eyes (which had once been green) and deadly pale skin (which had once been sort of olive) and therefore had to tell me everything. I didn't plan on ending up this way.

After this I moved in with Bella, Edward, Alice, Jasper, Rosalie and Emmett. I'm still adapting to the whole 'don't eat humans' thing, but I'm getting there. Very slowly.

Seeing as I was turned after graduation I didn't have to tell anybody. Not having family helped, too, because this meant that I didn't have to go round breaking the news the all my close relatives. Blurting out 'I'm a vampire' at a family gathering didn't seem like a good idea.

I'd always been sensitive to people's deepest desires, and I suppose this 'gift' was awakened when I was turned. I could tell the deepest desire of everybody else on the planet. Even if they didn't know themselves. It was an interesting ability, even though it sometimes felt like an invasion of privacy.

Walking around in a house full of loved-up vampires would sometimes depress me. You see, I hadn't yet got a mate and everybody else had. It felt like there was someone for everyone, accept me. And that got me down, because I was even different in some ways to my own species.

I knew the whole 'true love' thing was going to be complicated, but I didn't understand why it was so vital. Why couldn't we all end up happy, rather than having to find a 'mate'? I guess I just thought these things as a cover up, to how lonely I really was. I could read the desires of others, but my own was still unclear to me. I would soon understand the reason why it had taken me so long to find someone. I was looking in the exact wrong place. I was destined to fall for someone who I could never have. Someone like him.

I know, this first chapter's kind of boring but stick with the story; it'll get a whole lot more interesting soon. Anyway, review for me, cuz' I really love to know what you guys think!