The special day

Today is a special day. Well, it was a special day. For them.

Almost 16 years ago they promised in front of the people they meant the most to them to love each other till eternety.

Back then he would have never thought that something else than death could break them.

But he was wrong. The amazing surgeon Derek Shepherd was wrong. So wrong.

When he was a little boy who used to go fishing every weekend with his dad, he once asked him what true love is. The answer came quickly, like his dad didn't even had to think about it. Like it was the most natural thing in the world for him.

He told Derek that love is the most beautiful feeling in the world. It can make you fly, it can make your heart beeting faster, it can destroy you, it can ripe you apart from inside out. But it's a feeling you never want to miss.

Now Derek knows what his Dad back then. He already felt the most beautiful feeling in the whole world. He had the luck to share it with a gorgeous woman, a spirited readhead who never hesitated to teach him what's right.

She was the one who knew him from inside out, knew his soule and his heart.

Addison.

Her amazing red hair, the great figure and unique personality made heads turn, made other men fall for her, but she still was only interested in him. He made her suffer, made her beg for forgiveness, just for one single mistake she made.

But how could he really blame her? He was absent, he was rude, he wasn't the husband she deserved. But still she tried to make their marriage work, phoned a redicolous marriage counsellor who was supposed to help them in the best way possible and tried to not make Derek recognize the hurt in her eyes everytime he looked at his little intern.

Well, his little intern is rude. Sure, Meredith is a lovely person, she saved him from falling apart after his heart was broken, but he never ever truely loved her. She was the fresh air in his life when he needed it the most. And a part of him will always love her for that.

But only for that.

And Derek Christopher Shepherd realizes it now, at their 16th Anniversary.

And he wonders. He wonders if Addie also thinks of him on this special day. He wonders if she also sits alone at home, a cup of coffee in her hands and thinks about their past.

Well, they are divorced, already 4 years, but his heart still stays still everytime he hears her name.

Oh, how he wished he could turn back time...