Hello! This is my second Maze Runner (TMR) fanfiction, and my second fanfiction altogether!
Darkness, endless darkness…. Newt felt himself surrounded in darkness. He knew he was dead, and the idea comforted him. His friends will be better off without him, he knew that. They will be better without a crazed friend in their team, occasionally going berserk and trying to hurt his friends. And WICKED will never be able to use him again.
But… The memory of Thomas's terrified and hurt face was inserted right in the middle of his heart. I hate you. I always hated you! Newt wished he could take back what he said. Newt knew that he was angry and out of control when he said those words. What would Tommy feel now? Would he be grieving for Newt? Had he told Minho about it?
Minho…. The thought of Minho brought an ache to his heart. He wondered what he would feel if Tommy told him about his death. Would he be grieving for Newt? Would he hate Tommy for fulfilling his wish?
His best friend had nearly cried when Newt told him to go away. Newt didn't even say good bye to him. The last memory of Newt in Minho's mind would be Newt pointing a gun at him, shouting at him to go away. Newt knew he couldn't, but he wanted to see Minho for the last time. To tell him good bye, and give him one last memory of him.
Newt thought about the one thing that he has longed to say to the former runner for ages. The one thing that he promised himself he would tell Minho someday. I love you, Minho. I always did, and I always will. Now, he would need to add one more sentence. I'll always miss you.
Minho sat on the edge of the lake, watching the sunlight reflected from the water's surface. One week had passed since he and the other Immunes settled into paradise. One week since he became leader.
Minho still remembered WICKED's trials, and he knew he would never be free from them. He still remembered the maze and the scorch vividly. He remembered being horrified when Teresa attacked them and kidnapped Thomas. He remembered Harriet and Sonya's expressions when he took the lead.
Of course, they didn't say anything. They just accepted the fact, though Minho wasn't sure why. He wasn't sure if he was fit to be a good leader. He missed the glade and his free life without the pressure about being the leader. He now understood the responsibilities needed for a leader, but he wasn't sure if he had all of them. He finally understood why Alby had been so strict, always keeping the rules.
Thinking about Alby brought back memories of his best friend. Minho bit his lip to stop a wail from escaping him. Newt had screamed to him, told him to go away. Minho remembered Newt's haunted eyes and his screams of hurt and anger that he could not control.
Are you going to shoot me, Slinthead? Minho regretted saying that to Newt. Newt wasn't in control when he said that. And it seemed like he, too, hadn't.
He wondered what Newt would feel now, realizing that his friends were gone without him. Would he be angry at Minho for abandoning him? Or would Newt be relieved that he can never hurt his friends?
But…. Minho wasn't sure if Newt was even alive. Who can last long in a pack full of crazy people? As Minho imagined Newt dead, Cranks slowly ripping his body to shreds to eat, anger and guilt formed a lump in his chest, making it hard to breathe.
Minho pushed the thought away. But he couldn't push away the ache that was placed firmly in the middle of his heart. Newt was the biggest reason that he missed the maze. If only Thomas didn't arrive in the maze….
If he didn't arrive, then Minho would still be a Runner. He would run every day, but that was okay. Newt would be with him. Knowing that he was safe inside the Glade was always a comfort to Minho. He would be safe in there, not going crazy like he did outside the maze.
Minho wished he could see his friend for the last time. At least, to tell him good bye for the last time. Good bye, Newt. Good bye. As the sunlight reflected the new 'Homestead' in the Paradise, Minho added one more line to it. I'll miss you forever.
So… It's the first chapter…. What do you think? Updates will be in about… once in a week or twice in a week, I think. I write this at school, so it'll be a fast update (hopefully)