Don't Wanna Break Your Heart
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Summary: Caspian and Lucy are both torn between two loves. For Lucy it's Caspian and Jacob. For Caspian it's Liliandil and Lucy. Perhaps her being in Narnia can help both of them.
Chapter 1 (Lucy POV)
It's been four years since Edmund and I had last been in Narnia. We had caught wind that Caspian and taken the star Liliandil to be his Queen. At first I was extremely hurt and angry; did he not see how much I cared about him? As time wore on though I began to understand why Susan had said it would have never worked between her and Caspian. For starters we don't even permanently live in Narnia so a relationship would be kind of difficult. While the Narnian girls may not be prettier than her Susan can not deny that they are far more unique and interesting than her. I think she feared that if she left while dating him, he would be unfaithful to her. She's been down that road before and doesn't want to put herself in the same spot, honestly I don't blame her.
That's Susan though, I still couldn't figure out why he didn't like me. She I hadn't been as beautiful as my sister than. If I'm being honest I'm still not but I'm pretty enough. Maybe it was my age, even though technically he's only 5 years older than me. I guess it would be a little odd for an 18 year old to date a 13 year old. Hmmm maybe that's why. Like I said though earlier I don't really care anymore. You see my last year of high school Jacob Circuit moved to my school. He was such a sweetheart and quite the charmer; it didn't take long for him to have me under his thumb. That was a year ago and it's still true today.
My parents don't really like him and forbade him from coming to my house and me to his. So because I was sick of their constant controlling Jacob and I found an apartment just for the two of us. It's close to both Jacobs work in bank telling and close to Cambridge University which is where I will be starting my first year here in a couple of weeks. I looked around the apartment once I walked in and noticed it was a little messier than usual. In fact it looked like it hadn't been cleaned at all the past two days I was visiting Susan and Peter.
"Jacob?" I walked around the living room but saw no sign of him. "Jacob?!" I tried again this time a little more panicked. I ran to our room and looked everywhere. As I was passing the mirror I nearly jumped at what I saw. There standing in front of me was Aslan, still as amazing as the day we left Narnia. "A-Aslan?" I squeaked turning to look at him. He gave a low deep chuckle and nuzzled my side as I bent down and gave him a hug. It had been four years; four years since I last saw the Lion that I missed so dearly.
"You must come back to Narnia with me Lucy, Caspian needs you help."" I looked at Aslan confused; if Caspian had needed my help wouldn't he blow Susan's horn? Or perhaps even come with Aslan when I was told this. "The reason he did not call you is because he does not know he needs help." So Aslan saw something was to happen and wanted me to be there to help Caspian. I nodded and asked if I could run to the bathroom well quick before I arrived in Narnia. Once I was all better I took a hold of his thick mane and felt the familiar wish of wind that always came with it, I heard lots of voices, men's voices. When I looked up I noticed I was in the War Room and Trumpkin, Reepicheep and Caspian all stared at me with wide eyes. Guess Aslan was telling the truth, they had absolutely no idea I was coming.
"Lucy my dear girl how you've grown." I looked to my left and saw Drinian standing and walking over towards me with a giant smile on his face. The sweet Captain had always been like a second father to me and I was all too happy to return the hug. "What are you doing here Sweetling?" I smiled at his nickname for me and I noticed he was the only one that had asked the question that was on all their minds.
"I really don't know, all Aslan said was that Caspian would need my help." Some of the Lords huffed at me being so casual about Caspian but hey I knew him before he was a king. Drinian nodded and led me over to the table practically shoving me on Caspian who had yet to say anything. He blinked when I bumped into him and smiled down at me. He took me in his arms and spun me around like I was a little girl again…which I wasn't surprisingly.
"Lucy, you're here! I missed you so much, how have you been?" I laughed at his questioning and Drinian cleared his throat signaling this was not the time to be catching up. Caspian cleared his throat and pulled a chair out for me before sitting down himself. "Now back to Calormen, as I said earlier several of our men have just so happened to disappear when they visit." I shuddered remembering the Prince that they had almost married me off to, he was a Calormen, enough said. Caspian noticed my shiver and rubbed his hands up and down my arms trying to warm me thinking I was cold. His hands on my arms were causing more shivers than there were originally.
"I'm fine now Caspian, thank you." He just nodded and went back to talking war strategies with several of his Lords and Generals. I didn't miss the little wink that Drinian gave me though and I ducked my head so he wouldn't see my blushing cheeks. He had been the only one I had told about my crush on Caspian the last time we were in Narnia. After seeing Caspian so taken with Liliandil I couldn't bear to watch it so I ran off claiming I wanted to look around. Caspian didn't spare me a second glance, it had been Drinian who found me and made me tell him what was really wrong. Needless to say he thought it was cute and that I would actually make a good wife for Caspian if he would just open his eyes a little more.
Speaking of the star where was she? Did she not sit in on these little meeting like Susan and I had? I mean she is now a Queen of Narnia if the rumors are true. Maybe I could ask Drinian or Reepicheep about it later. I noticed people getting up so I assumed the meeting was over. Caspian stood and offered his arm to me leading me away from the room.
"I'll let you change Lucy, when you're done meet me in my study. We have an awful lot of catching up to do." I nodded and walked to my old room; to my surprise I saw not my old dresses but a bunch of new ones. I heard the door shut behind me quietly and I jumped. There stood a girl about my age smiling at me brightly.
"Aslan appeared to me last night and told me you would need new dresses. I'm your lady Gemma Queen Lucy." I smiled at her and took her by surprise with a hug. It was finally nice to have someone who was a girl and near my age. She started a bath for me and helped me wash my hair. Once I was done I dried off and she helped me into a dress that was a dark blue, the sleeves off the shoulder and fitted nicely, flowing over my hands. The midsection and top were fitted and I noticed that I was a bit more…womanly than the last time I was here. The back had a corset type tying that I couldn't do myself so I had to have Gemma tie it for me. She braided my hair then put it in a knot before putting my crown on. She grabbed a pair of dark blue slippers and slid those on my feet as well before deeming me ready to go see Caspian.
I opened the door and he jumped looking up from the book he was reading. He smiled when he saw me but stopped when he saw me. His eyes raking over me taking in every inch. I shifted a little uncomfortably under his stare but it didn't waver. I didn't like it when boys looked at me like that, not even Jacob. Jacob…was he okay? Did he think something had happened to me?
"What was it you wanted to show me Caspian?" This seemed to knock him out of his little fantasy world. He walked over to me the rest of the way and held his arm out signaling we would be going for a walk somewhere. He led me out the doors of Cair Paravel and into the gardens. I gasped and I could feel his smile, firelillies they were my favorite flower. He had them planted just for me, how sweet. "Thank you Caspian."
"We had more space for flowers and I remembered they were your favorite. Figured you might come back one day and see them." We walked to a bench and sat down just staring at the beautiful scenery all around us. "How old are you now Lucy? You look so much older than when we were sailing to find the Lords."
"I'm about to turn 18, I start my first year of University in just a couple of weeks. How long has it been for you?" I swear I heard him mutter too long but maybe that was just my imagination. I wanted him to say something like that so maybe my mind was playing ticks on me.
"A little over 3 years, I'm 21 now." See if he had just stuck it out with m e it wouldn't have been as awkward like he thought it would be. Butterflies stared coming back in my stomach when his gaze landed on me, no I loved Jacob I should not be acting like a silly little school girl. Besides he had a Queen now, or so I thought was true but had yet to be confirmed.
"And have you…have you taken a Queen in those three years? He laughed and lounged a little against the back of the bench. Why was he laughing I had been completely serious. "I don't see what's so funny that I said." He then realized he had sounded extremely rude and apologized.
"I was married to Liliandil for a few months. After she realized I wouldn't put everything on hold for her every wish she get angry and left." It was starting to get chilly and I shivered a little at the breeze. He noticed and wrapped his arms around me pulling me up and towards the castle. "Let's go inside we can talk more tomorrow," After I was in my room I leaned against the door and thought about earlier. It had been four years and Caspian could still make me feel like this. Away Jacob had never made me feel.
A/N: Okay that is not supposed to be in capitals I hit something and I had no idea how to get caps off, Before you say anything i tried Caps lock and it didn't work.