Once upon a time, I wrote most of this story. I found it today, and it was better than I remembered, so I'm posting it. It's very very dark, and there are triggers throughout. Do not read it if they bother you.
I do not own Twilight.
Chapter 1 – The Blowers Daughter
And so it is,
Just like you said it should be
We'll both forget the breeze
Most of the time
Bella Swan stood outside her house in the April rain, waiting. She could've stood on the porch, or even inside, but standing in the freezing cold rain made her feel alive in a way she hadn't been in a long time, the individual drops trickling down her skin; tiny pin pricks drawing blood to the surface. She was alone. She enjoyed the momentary reprieve from the eyes upon her, staring, waiting to see what she would do next. It was exhausting to keep it all in, to walk the line and make sure that they had nothing to complain about, but she knew the consequences of letting it slip. She wouldn't let them take what she had left. Nothing else had truly mattered since they left, and he had taken everything, all her hopes and dreams, with him.
She didn't want to go, this afternoon or any other time, but knew that there was no way out. Not now. She dreamed of floating away on a lazy river, escaping against all the odds. She turned her face up, let the numbness of the rain take her, soothing and cool, dulling the pain til it was tolerable. Not gone, never gone. Always there to remind her, whatever had been promised. The world ran red outside her door, and the only thing to do was go with the flow, drifting and bumping like a jellyfish in the current. But one day soon, she would find the courage and pull herself from the stream.
She stared at the trees, enjoying the return of the green; the burst buds pushing forward tiny leaves in an endless cycle of renewal. Soon it would be summer again... Pain rose up in her chest, stealing her breath and she let the thought go, a red balloon against a dark sky.
A car pulled up, and she walked grimly down the stairs.
Chapter title and excerpt are from "The Blower's Daughter" by Damian Rice