Sesshoumaru angered from losing who he believed was his first love lashes out in anger towards everyone, being only 17 and depressed, then a part of his life changes when he meets a young girl who becomes part of his life. R/S later chapters
"Never Love, for it is disaster itself."
Sesshoumaru lay on his bed, his shirt unbuttoned and his long silvery hair spewed across his mattress. His hand slowly raised and rested on his head as he grunted and turned to his side, his perfect figure showing as his loose clothing clung to his skin lightly.
Rolling back over, memories flashed through his mind causing his face to change. He held his hand flat out in front of his face and he studied the lines.
Why…Sesshoumaru thought as he heard the faint sound of water dripping from the faucet. HE cringed.
Why…He questioned once more as he raked his slender but muscular hand through the top part of his hair.
Why…He though once more, just to see if his conscious would reply.
What did I do…He felt himself grow angry but sadden all to quickly…
Why did you leave like that?
He heard a knock at the door.
"Sesshoumaru you better hurry we don't want to be late." He heard his father say.
"I'm not going…" He said in a calm sadden voice which was not usual to hear from him.
"Do not be like this… I don't think she would like this." He said while giving one last cough and walking away.
Why…am I being tormented…Sesshoumaru slowly sat up. Buttoning up his shirt and cuffing his sleeve, he then stood up and tied his hair back. Walking towards the door he took a look at his room before walking out and felt a jolt of pain run through his chest as he slowly shut the door.
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"Lord from heaven above, let this soul past through into your kingdom and allow her spirit to be free and not condemned in the depths of hell. Let her innocent soul lye among the many angels you have given freedom…" The pastor said as he waved his hand over the coffin.
"Let… her be free…" Sesshoumaru said quietly while wiping a hand over the top of the coffin.
Sesshoumaru paused as he felt a girl cling to his legs, her dress getting soaked from the rain, and her head leaning against his thigh.
"Oh Rin…" A woman called while grabbing her. "I'm so sorry sometimes she just has a big heart…" The woman said while pulling the sad little girl away.
"It's ok…" He said while looking at the little girl, tears wanting to spill from his eyes, but he could not let his weakness show.
"Her name's Rin… she is very kind. I've recently adopted her in hope of restoring her voice. She doesn't talk. I guess the adoption agency said when they got her at 5 that she was mute. Now she is 12 and she loves people so much." The lady said while standing next to Sesshoumaru. "So I am sorry that she couldn't ask if she could give you a hug.
"Oh…it's ok" He watched as she picked up a flower that had been drowned by the pouring rain, and gently shook the petals to remove the water. He watched as her little feet carried her towards him, her newly presentable gift in hand. Reaching him she smiled and held out the dying flower to him in hopes of bringing his mood back.
Sesshoumaru took the flower and slowly moved aside as he noticed he was blocking everyone else who wanted to set flowers on Satomi's coffin.
"Thank you…" He said to the girl, while grabbing her hand and bending down to eye level. He gently brought his mouth over to her ear and whispered something.
"Remember…" He said while walking away. The little girl stood there nodding her head as if she would obey her lord or master."
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"NO LEAVE ME ALONE! I don't know who you are...Please leave me alone…" The girl screamed as she ran down the ally. "Please…oh my god I'm going to die." The woman said, just then tripping on a crack in the street.
Slowly getting up she continued to scream as she felt a grab at her arm. Already limping from her sprained ankle, she tried to fight off the intruder. She screamed as she felt her self-thrown to the ground and her pants being ripped off.
"NOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!" The woman screamed as loud as she could."Mommy…" A little girl said while hiding behind a near garbage dumpster. "Mommy…" The littler girls voice got louder. "
The little girl crouched there in fear as she watched her mothers screaming and crying continue. She began to cry as she noticed the man hit her followed by the removal of his own pants.
She watched her mother lay there crying, not able to do anything. Tear came out of her eyes as she saw her mother look at her. "Stay there…" She saw her mother mouth.
The little girl hesitated shaking her head, only to stop as she saw the man stand up and pull out a gun.
"Thanks bitch, that was great…" The man said while smirking. The woman looked at her daughter once more before a loud shot was heard along the ally out into the main streets.
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Sesshoumaru jolted up in bed. He began to pant slightly as he remembered the strange dream. "Mommy…" was the only word echoing in his head as he stared at his hands.
"Why do I have sick dreams like that…" He said while standing up. It had been a year since Satomi's death and he continuously dreamed about this little girl whose mother was being raped. Running a hand through his hair he sighed as he grabbed the image of Satomi from his nightstand.
Looking at her picture he smiled, but that smi8led soon turned into hatred as he remembered how she just left him like that.
"How could you leave me…" He said talking to the smiling image of the young woman. "HOW!" He said while slamming his fist into the nightstand.
"Why…." He said once more as he brought the image up to his chest and held it.
"Sesshoumaru?" He heard a voice through his door. "You have a visitor.
"Let him/her in" He said in a dull voice, as if the pain that was there never had been in the first place.
He paused as he watched a young girl walk in. "I…found you." Her voice was soft and sweet.
"You are?"
"Never Love, for it is disaster itself" She said while smiling at him.
"From the funeral…" He said while looking at her. "Rin, right?"
"Mm." She replied.
"So you are finally beginning to talk? He asked while buttoning up his newly found shirt.
"I have been for awhile. Ms. Harada helped me to speak again after my mothers death." She said while smiling.
"Why are you here?"
"You seemed so sad at the funeral and I was sad at my mother's funeral. I thought I'd try to cheer you up, but I was never able to find you till today." She said while wrapping her hands together and bowing respectfully.
"Cheer me up?" He slightly laughed mockingly. "How are you supposed to cheer me up?"
"I don't know but I like to make people happy. I know it may seem weird for you to do something with me as a friend because I am 13 and you're 18, but I want to be your friend. "Rin said sadly while looking to the ground.
"Yes you are too young. I have nothing of you that will interest me." He stated while rubbing the back of his neck.
"Please?" Rin said while looking out his window. "Just try once, it's sunny out and we could get ice cream."
Sesshoumaru stood there with a frustrated look on his face. "Maybe if I go with her once she will leave me alone…" He said to himself as she looked outside. "I guess we can go and get ice cream." He said in a lazy voice while walking out of the room followed by the joyful Rin.
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PARK
"What do you want?" Rin asked while walking up to the man at the ice-cream stand.
"Just get me something simple like one of those drum sticks." He said while walking up behind her.
"What will you have young lady?" The man asked while smiling at her.
"Two drumsticks" Rin said while pulling out her money.
"How much is it?" Sesshoumaru said while walking up to the ice cream stand.
"Three dollars." He said while handing Rin the Ice cream.
"Here keep the change." Sesshoumaru said while handing the man a Ten-dollar bill.
"Come on Rin lets go." He said after receiving his ice cream from Rin.
Rin smiled as she walked next to Sesshoumaru. "Thank you for paying, but I could've paid." Rin said while not watching where she was going, causing her to bump into something and dropped her ice cream.
Sesshoumaru stood there watching to see her reaction. He was surprised when she hadn't begun to complain. "I guess it's a treat for someone else now?" Rin said calmly while smiling and bending down. "I'll pick this up and throw it away." She said picking up the chocolate covering and the cone from the ground.
"Do you want this one?" Sesshoumaru asked, while handing her his unopened ice cream.
"No thank you." She said while smiling and wiping off her finger with a napkin. "Thank you for coming here with me today. I know it was one time but it made me happy to see you doing something, and you see at least a little bit of reaction out of you." Rin said while bowing. "Thanks again for the day."
"Thank you for the day." He said actually having liked the little time spent with her. "We will make a habit of this? He said questioning her.
"If you want." Rin said excitedly.
"The once a week we will get ice cream and do something else." He said, kind of regretting what he had just said.
"Alright big brother?" Rin said in a questioning like voice.
"Big Brother?" He said quietly.
"We can be like brother and sister?" She said while smiling. "Our new relationship, ok?"
"Alright…" He said while having to hold back this uncertain but happy feeling inside of him.
A/N: I had been messing around with this for a while… I don't know if it's any good but, it's a Rin Sesshoumaru that will eventually develope... she won't stay 13 forever. Every chapter she'll probably gain a year or two till she's about 18 –21 sometime.