On some level, he knew it was wrong. Knew it was wrong wrong wrong. He knew, there was no getting around it. There was no defense Tanaka could construct that wiped away the dishonourable actions they'd taken.
(The murder, the outright terrorism)
He tried not to think about it, tried not to let his mind linger on the fact that people were dying.
(There were children)
They deserved it, it was their own fault, they shouldn't have treated ajin the way that they did, they were only asking for violent retaliation. They brought it on themselves.
(There were children)
He couldn't think about it, he couldn't, or he'd spiral into his black hole of self loathing.
(He deserved it, he deserved it, he was killing children)
He didn't have the time to think about unimportant issues, things that just didn't matter.
(He was scum)
There just wasn't time.
(He'd kill himself if he knew he wouldn't just come back)
(He just has to settle for doing it over and over)
He didn't have the freedom to have an opinion about this, he was supposed to follow, not question. If he did, Tanaka might be rejected by the first person in a decade who accepted him. Gave him safety.
(Somewhere deep down he wasn't sure it was worth it)
(He chose not to think about that too much, would let what was deep down stay deep down)
If he challenged that would he lose that acceptance? He didn't want to chance it. Sato had accepted him, his tormented faults and all.
So, the least he could do was accept Sato's faults back, right?
(Even if the cost wasn't really worth paying)
(But he chose not to think about that)
-SiCanFly