Title: Liar's Roulette
Pairing: Yuuichirou X Shinoa X Mikaela
Summary: Who is the liar? Certainly everyone could lie, maybe somebody always telling lies, probably nobody couldn't tell a lie. The story revolves around to a young girl whose existance has been hidden by the higher ups. Every chapters will be in different point of view from the people around her that wants something to change about her as well as for their selve's.
Notes: This will be different from the fics that I've written in here, most of them are one shots and this time I've decided to write more than one shots. So, this will be series and I hope you'll like it and make a review. Don't worry, I'll continue this if everyone like it base on the reader :))
Chapter 1: Hidden Lavender
[ I hope you're not like the moon who is going to leave when the day comes. ]
Everyone is a liar, that is for sure. You may not see them because they are covering in white lies. You will never see them, they are deceiving, they are fake, they are cheaters and they are good in tricks. That's how I see to everyone around me.
They hide my existence ever since I was born. Mother always punish me and hit me if I show myself to others, even the maids may saw me. In this attic, I grow up watching the outside through this small window, the unchanging scenery outside is still the same nothing is new.
I learned to read and count when Mahiru comes here, she visits me here secretly without Mother knowing it. She usually comes here when she is upset and bored, maybe I'm just her past time.
She said she cares for me, she said she loves me but she can't prove it. Maybe the reason why she's coming here for me not to feel alone but I know in other words she's pitying at me. I don't hate her nor like her. I always see her as Mahiru as always. The smiles she shows me, her happy expression, her laughing sweet voice. I cannot tell if all of them is true. I don't know anything from her.
Ms. Yayoi is the daughter of the head maid of the mansion, she said to me one time when she bring me food that Lady Mahiru, yes, she called her lady, that everyone inside and outside of the house, Lady Mahiru is adored by everyone, she is smart, beautiful, talented, friendly, sociable and respected by everyone. But I don't see any of them when she is with me. Maybe I'm just too blind to see them all to her. Our world is different, I see different things and she see different things. One thing I wanted to know why she teach me all the knowledge she knew.
I'm just eight years old at that time and went along to her since I don't do anything. In this empty attic only the pile of old dresses and curtains and furnitures with dust, she is the only one who could ring them alive with her soft angelic voice.
Ms. Yayoi Endo is the second person I usually see, she was forbid to talk to me. The only reason why she comes here is to bring me a food for one week supply most of them were bread, cookies and canned foods and for the laundry. I don't worry about when I want to go to toilet, there is a small bathroom in this attic with faucet and bucket for a bath. She sometimes talk to me about the weather and that's all. I only eat real food when Mahiru is in the mood to bring me one, or the mansion is having a party. Birthdays and special holidays doesn't matter to me, I just wonder why would everyone celebrates it.
I never tried to step outside, I was troumatized by Mother's punishment. When I was nine, that was the time Mahiru got really sad, she was introduced to someone to be her fiencee. She was really not happy about it, she already love someone whom she wants to marry. At that time I never understand her but she said I don't need to so I never try. She keeps on talking to the one she loves. I think his name is Guren. I only heard his name whenever Mahiru mention him.
I discover from Mahiru that his famliy was once a branch family to the Hiiragi family but cut out when they misunderstood each other. And Mahiru is sad that she is not allowed to see him. The Hiiragi family cut all their ties to Ichinose and made rivals to their selve's in bussiness. I don't care any of them, I'm not interested to their world.
Mahiru is being Mahiru, who don't follow rules and orders just like now, visiting me in this attic. She secretly meets with Guren and told me everything when they went in dates, eating dinner outside, watching movies and whatever couples do.
I could feel to my sense's that she was coming up here or Ms. Yayoi, but this time my nerves tells me that its not one of them who is coming up here. I hid myself behind the old divider. He open the door slowly and scan his sorroundings, he came in, maybe he felt my pressence. He has an ivory hair and calm eyes. He walks to the center and observed something, maybe he is looking for something. I step back and strip myself in an old lamp shade, I tried to look up and I saw him in my front. Widened eyes and shock face. I stood up and run away to him, I hid myself inside of an old chest box.
"Hey.'' As I heard his footsteps coming. "What are you doing? Get out from there.''
"No, you're not supposed to see me! No one supposed to see me!'' I screamed inside, fearing that if Mother will find out about this she will surely punish me. I don't like bending my kness in salt while she hits my back and my hands is in the air. And worst is she forcely put me inside of drum with water in push me down then pulled me up for air then push me down again then repeated it for hours, I don't remember at all.
"I'm sorry, I didn't know. I'm just wondering why would Mahiru comes here secretly. I wont tell anyone, I promise. Just get out of there, its suffocating to watch you locking yourself in there. And its dark.'' I pushed the chest cover up and saw him so very closed.
"I used to be in the dark and I'm not afraid!'' And I shut down the cover and shove myself in the chest, the chest size is big enough for me to fit in here. I heard him sigh and leaned in this chest.
"I'm just really not expecting to find a child in here, I was only curious why would Mahiru secretly comes in this place. I thought she's keeping her man in here, but I was wrong. But now I'm wondering why does a young lady was living herself in this attic?'' He unknowingly hit the spot, that is also I'm wondering about. From what I've understand mother hates my existence. I didn't answer him, even myself don't understand it too.
I could still feel his pressence, and he was really silent. Then in a few minutes, he starts to talk again.
"You know what, when I was your age my own family sold me to the Hiiragi Family. I went to many struggles living in here, competiting to anyone if I was worthy to become a Hiiragi. Then last year, I just discover I was one of the candidate to become Mahiru's fiencee. I felt like betray when I met her, my own family, her and the Hiiragi Family.'' He seems tired and sad while I heard him saying that, I want to see his expression. So, I peek at the edge of the cover of the chest, what I only meet is his back. Feeling something moves in his back, he turned around and I meet his eyes.
"I wont tell anyone about this, even Mahiru. I'll be your ally besides I hate everyone in this mansion. So, what is your name? By the way, I'm Shinya.'' And he smiled in front of me, a smile that is different from Mahiru or from Ms. Yayoi. I don't know if its real or not, but I can see in his eyes that he is not pitying in me looks like I was watching myself in the mirror in his eyes. I decided to trust him when I saw my reflection in front of me.
"There's no doubt that you are Mahiru's younger sister. When I saw you I thought of a young Mahiru in the pictures, she looks like you, your face and hair. But Mahiru is Mahiru and Shinoa is Shinoa. And there will be no difference.'' And he smiled again just like a pierrot always do, he said he is my step brother that soon to be my brother-in-law.
He always come here every afternoon, bringing me a proper lunch when he discover what I eat is not a proper balance diet he decided to bring me a real lunch secretly without knowing to everyone then after that he goes to school. Like Mahiru he talks about school, what was happening outside. Unlike to her, he usually talks about places he wants to go. If possible he will take me out of this place and search for the end of the rainbow.
He is always smiling, unlike to Mahiru, he never show any expression beside his smiling face. Mahiru will pout if she never get something she wants, she will cry if she is sad, she will cursed if she is mad. But Shinya never do any of that, always and always his smiling face. There's nothing I can do, he is calmed by nature. I never understand him.
Shinya left to me his game boy, while Mahiru purposely left her brush or any hair ornamental, I just set them aside but the next time she comes she will forgot about it. I always stared in the space that's I always do, thinking when will be the time will come that I'm allowed to go out. Shinya wander about if I can go out in here, he said he wants me to release in this prison but the status he have, he don't have any power to do it. He said I was the same with him, and he promised me that he will do anything when he and Mahiru get married. But I don't believe in him. Mahiru loves someone else, she doesn't want to marry him.
Atleast he said to me that he wants me to go out in here, but Mahiru... she never said anything, though I'm not really expecting about it. Maybe she just need someone to listen to her about her thoughts, about her complaints, about her happy moments. And I only do is to listen to her.
Watching outside from this small window, I could heard feint loud music from afar. I wonder what it is, I want to see it but I can't. Something flash through my mind when Shinya said to me about the secret passage of this mansion that even the maids don't know about it.
"If you are just extra careful that no one see's you then you'll never be in trouble.'' Is the only advice he told me. Should I go out and catch a glimpse of it, then go back immediately? My heart starts to pound loudly. If mother will find out she will punish me. But only just a glimpse. This kind of dilemma is not really a good idea, why would I bother to go outside if I'm not allowed to? But the other half of me tells me something might change. So, yes only just a glimpse and I'll go back. I made up my mind.
Opening the door, I go down the stairs then at the end there is another door, twisting the knob its not lock. I open it slowly, I peek through the door there's no one and I opened it fully then went out. I shut the door silently and followed Shinya's direction to the secret passage.
Red carpet on the floor, beautiful chandelier's in the high ceiling and wall flowers on the wall. The secret passage leads me to a beautiful garden, I could heard the music loudly from here. I'm on the outside now but I want to go where the loud music is. Scanning my sorroundings, there are many beautiful flowers that I don't know the names of it. Seeing the trees perfectly align in the tall walls. Maybe I could climb it, I tried to climb it with my small body and bare foot. I reach a branch that leads to the other side of the wall. I walked slowly, looking down the street there was still no one. I jump down and the impact that I met the ground hurts me but didn't made any wounds. I could feel my bones were crush down, but I stood up perfectly fine and followed the music woobly.
It brings me to a place full of people, different face and different expression. Some ladies where dancing in the street wearing beautiful colors of their costumes then the gentle men made the loud music with their big instruments. I was really amazed knowing that this could be wonderful outside of the mansion.
My eyes caught the display of the fountain that flows the water continuesly, my feet brought me aimlessly to the fountain. A statue of a little child holding a pot where the water flows down, he was smiling genuinely looking down the water around him.
"Hey!'' I was halted to my amazement when someone shouts, alarming if someone from the mansion knew me might see me here. I look to the source of the voice. He runs to the direction where I was and stops in front of me panting. He has a blond curly hair.
"You must be the new child in the orphange that everyone talks about.'' He said as he looked straight in my eyes, eyes of ocean is staring at me. His eyes is different from Mahiru and Shinya.
"My name is Mikaela, and Mika is my nick name. And you?'' He offer his hand for shake hands and I absent-mindly take it. His hands were warm and his eyes is full of innocence about the truth of this world, and he is taller than me.
"Shinoa.'' I silently said.
"What a very beautiful name! Hey, Shinoa are you excited to meet your new family? Don't worry everyone in the orphanage love each other as family, so you wont be lonely. Smile Shinoa!'' He cheerfully said to me. Smile? But how? I don't know. I just looked at him unsure. His smiling face is different from Shinya and Mahiru. So very bright and radiant.
"Oh, I know! So you wont be sad there's a karneval in the park and they'll be going to another city next week and I don't want to miss them. So let's go together!'' As he held my hand to lead the way and starts to run but I was stopped when I step on a pebble, he stops too looking at me then look down at my feet seeing that I don't wear anything to my feet.
"Where are your shoes?'' He asked and I shook my head that I don't have any.
"That's not good. I know! Mr. Saito gave me a money to bought you a welcomed gift, how about we will buy a new shoes for you?'' He is still holding my hand and without waiting my answer he leads me to a store of shoes, opening the store's door the bell rings signalling that a customer came in. A lady in brown uniform welcomed us.
"What can we do for young man and young lady?'' She smiled to us and I can tell that she's faking it.
"A new pair of shoes for my friend's size, please!'' Mika answered her cheerfully and the lady looked at me and smiled.
"Oh, for your sweet heart. Follow me.'' And she beckoned the way to a section of shoes were my size can fit. She pick something that match to my old dress that once Mahiru wore it when she was at my age. The color is resembling to my hair, same with the red ribbon that beautifully decorated at the center of the shoes.
"How about this? Its cute and cheap.'' She suggested and hand over the shoes to Mika and he bend down to fit in my feet. He looked up in me grinning.
"Perfectly fit!'' And he stood up facing the lady. "Ma'am we will take it.''
"Great! Follow me in the counter and take off the shoes first.'' And she wink to us and I immediately remove the shoes in my feet. After we purchased the shoes we went back to the fountain. And again, he bent down assisting me to wear the shoes. What would be his reaction that I'm not the new child he talks about, I feel really shamed at myself deceiving someone like him who could smile from his heart innocently.
"It really looks perfect in you, but you have to smile to make you more beautiful.'' As he stood up in front of me and I imitated the child statue in the fountain, smiling in front of him. I don't know what or why did I do that, nobody taught me how to smile. But I did try my best to smile for him. I'm so very happy at the same time I'm so very sad too. How come someone like him made all this happen for me? Buying me a new pair of shoes without knowing who I am really and told me to smile to make me more beautiful.
He pinch my cheeks gently and he smiled in front of me too and said; ''See, I told you. You look more beautiful when you are smiling.'' And I hold his hand in my cheeks, feeling his warmth as I closed my eyes. What was this feelings are called for?
He grasped my hand, and he bring me to the crowd were people dancing with their partners. And he looked at me and grinned. The last thing I knew, he was holding my one hand and his other hand is in my back and my other hand is in his arm. He sway to every direction where his feet may bring him, then he twirl me around in his small arms that I perfectly fitted. It was so magical that I could remember how Mahiru dance in front of me when Guren asked for a dance to her, she impersonate the last moment when she told me that. I could remember her happy face, dreaming the dance that she wish that time would never stop with them.
Waltz music is playing, different faces of people with their smiling face as they cherish this moment, but one thing I would never forget about it. A boy named Mikaela, heartily smiling in front of me as he dance with me in to the crowd of adults were dancing with their partners.
Just like Mahiru, I wish for time would never stop for us. Everything happened so fast that only my eyes could see the time moves slowly to us. A hand that pulled us away to our connecting hands, and I was pushed down to the concrete ground. When I looked up, I found Mother in front of me. She was so very mad, her angry face could skin me alive. She raised her hand holding the closed fan and hit me in the face.
"What are you doing here!'' She raised her voice too that everyone in the crowd stopped dancing as the music stops.
"You're not supposed to be here! You disgraceful stupid child!'' As she non-stop hitting me with her fan.
"Madam! Please stop!'' Mika stands in front, covering me from her hitting fan facing Mother.
"Go away brat! Don't butt in!'' I saw it, she harshly push him to the side to out him in her way. Mother pulled my hair up for me to stand up, she starts slapping me with her fan while saying how immoral am I for leaving my room, for not following her orders not to leave the attic, how my existence is wrong.
Then she was suddenly stopped,when I tried to look up I found Shinya grabbing Mother's hand.
"Please Step Mother, don't make scandal here.'' He lowly said that only us could heard it.
"Who are you telling me what to do?! You can't even make Mahiru fall in love to you!'' She raised her voice, Mother always raise her voice when she is angry. I couldn't see Shinya's expression because his back is facing me, I look to the side to see Mika standing. He is worried at the same time confused of what just had happened, he wants to do something but he don't know what to do.
My eyes become watery as our eyes met, I want to apologize to him for not telling him the truth that I'm not the new kid in the orphanage. I don't even know what is an orphange is, his eyes looks like being betrayed and I want to say sorry. I walk to where he stands but an arm encircling in my waist pulled me up to carry in the shoulder. I reach my hand to him while calling his name, my sight became blurry and wet calling his name aloud.
But he stood frozen in there, his figure is getting smaller as they get me away to the crowd ─ to him. My hoarse voice is calling his name, in a few seconds he starts running in our direction calling my name loudly as he tried to reach my hand. But one of Mother's servant stops him, he struggled to get through them. I saw Shinya in the background doing nothing, but his fist is curled in ball, his expression is different from what I see. Our eyes meets but he is the one who look away.
"Shinoa!'' Mika calls me once again, running towards me but he was caught again by one of the servant. "Wait for me! I'm going to take you away to them! Shinoa! Shinoa!'' And I was locked to the car, I looked at him not wanting to be apart from him and the car starts to drive away, seeing him to the distance, he was screaming at my name and his tears were streaming down. And I could see my reflection in the car's closed window. Tears were flowing down from my eyes as I cried loudly in the car, I don't care if the servants is getting annoyed at me in the car, I want to apologize to Mika properly before we never see each other.
At that time I realize why people tell lies to others. Just to make feel their selve's of what they've called happiness. At that moment I knew he already know that I'm lying to him, but why would he said to me that he will take me away. What does it mean? He should be mad at me that's what I'm expecting for, but why? Why is it somewhere inside of my heart, I held to his words.