Undivided

Set after the finale of season 14.

Will looked across the kitchen at JJ who was giving the pretense of washing the dishes but was spending more time staring through the window with that familiar far off look in her eyes. It was a look that he knew all too well, it was her Spencer Reid look. He could always tell when something was wrong with Reid, when a case had affected him badly, or if Reid had been in danger by the look that was on her face when she returned home. Sometimes the look was gone the next morning, other times it would last a few days, last year when Reid had been in trouble he began to believe the look would be permanent. In truth though she had not been the same since all of that, they had not been the same.

"Penny for your thoughts." He said coming up and putting his arms around her waist.

She smiled as she turned to him kissing him softly, "I was think about Rossi and Krystal wondering if they were having a good time on their honeymoon."

Will knew that wasn't the truth but he also knew he didn't want to hear her speak the truth. There are only so many times a man can hear his wife admit she is thinking about another man, no matter the nature of their relationship.

"Speaking of a honeymoon, I was thinking what if you and I went away for a few days?" He asked her.

JJ blinked in surprise, "What about the boys?" She questioned.

"Your mom could watch them for a weekend. It would be good for them, it would be good for us JJ." He pressed her to agree.

"All right, let's do it. A weekend just the two of us, yes I think that it's a good idea." She agreed. Will kissed her but not before he watched the look cross her eyes, and he wondered what about them going away had caused her to think about Reid.

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"Will I'm sorry I really am, go ahead and leave the boys with mom and I will meet you there. I can't control how long it takes to fly home from California" Reid overheard JJ on the phone as they were settling in on the jet for the flight home.

"Everything all right?" Reid asked her. He had been doing his best to keep things as normal as possible between them since their last case, after she had been forced to confess that she had always loved him. Despite how he felt about her he would never act on it, he would never do anything to harm her marriage or cause pain for her boys.

She offered him half a smile and tucked her hair behind her ear, her tell that she didn't want to say something. "Yeah, Will and I are supposed to on our way to the beach for the weekend, my mom is keeping the boys and of course we are going to be late getting home."

Reid nodded, "I'm glad you guys are getting away." He told her before putting his headphones in and closing his eyes for the rest of the flight. He was trying but there was still only so much he wanted to hear and probably only so much she wanted to say.

When the jet landed JJ made her way off quickly trying to catch a flight that would put her in to Virginia Beach before breakfast. She just made the flight settling into another plane this time alone for the first time in weeks and she allowed tears to fall from her eyes silently as she looked out the window. She wasn't even completely sure why she was crying. Was she crying because Will was upset that she was late? Was it because Spence hadn't spoken to her the entire flight home? Was it because there was a man waiting for her that for ten years had given her every part of him and as much as she had tried she had been unable to do the same? Or was it because another man loved her family enough to let her walk away after confessing her love to him? The truth was she didn't believe she deserved either man and the longer she lived this was the less she did.

The flight from DC to Virginia Beach was short, she caught an Uber and gave the driver the address Will had texted her. He had rented them a small bungalow right on the beach for the weekend. The sun was just coming up when she arrived at the house and was surprised to find Will already up sitting on the front porch.

"Hi." She said placing her bag down and sitting next to him on the steps. "Sorry I'm late." She added leaning her head on his shoulder.

"It's all right, did you get any sleep on the plane?" He asked her placing a kiss on top of her head.

"A little, I could use a shower more than sleep, and food I could definitely use some breakfast." She commented.

Will stood up and pulled her up with him, "Well then why don't you go shower and I'll make us some breakfast and then we can decide what we want to do."

"Sounds perfect." She kissed him and couldn't help but notice he made no effort to lengthen the kiss but made his way to the kitchen.

JJ tried to let the thoughts of the case and Reid wash away in the shower promising herself that she would give Will all of her this weekend. She turned off the shower, dried, and found the suitcase that Will had packed her. She pulled on a t-shirt and pair of shorts and joined her husband in the kitchen where breakfast was waiting for her.

"It looks great." She said sitting down at the table, they made comfortable small talk as they ate, Will filling her on the boys week and his week at work.

"So what do we want to do with the rest of our weekend?" She asked him as she was placing dishes in the dishwasher and she felt a plate slip from her hands and crash on the floor as he answered her.

"JJ I want a divorce." Will said flatly.

"I'm sorry, what?" She asked staring at him in disbelief.

"I want a divorce Jennifer, I can't do this anymore." He explained softly.

"Do what anymore? Our family? Our marriage? Love me?" She asked angry tears forming in her eyes.

"Jennifer Jareau, you know our boys mean everything to me and I will always love you, but I cannot go on like this anymore." He told her.

"On like what?" She asked still in disbelief.

"Sharing you." He said coldly.

"Sharing me? With my work? I have offered to quit more times that I can count, but you always tell me that my work is too important and that I need to keep on." She argued.

"It's not your work, I can't keep sharing you with him." Will said raising his voice.

"With Spence? This is about Spence? Will, Spence is my friend that is all." She said wondering if the words sounded more convincing than they felt saying them.

"JJ the fact that you didn't even have to ask who I was talking about says it all." He explained tears beginning to form in his eyes.

"Will, I have never and would never be unfaithful to you." She spoke honestly.

"I know that JJ, I know you have always done your best to be faithful to me, to our relationship, but that doesn't change the fact that you love another man." He reasoned.

"Will, I love you." She whispered, "What do you want me to do leave the BAU? I will, tell me what to do not to lose you."

Will walked over to her, "Can you look me in the eyes and say that you don't love him? That your heart won't always be divided between him and me?"

"It's a different way that I love him Will, like a sister. Can't you understand that?" She begged.

"I use to believe that JJ, that's how I was able to take it for so long, but last year when Reid went to prison I realized it wasn't that. I thought that if Reid didn't make it you wouldn't' either, you never really came back to me after that." Will explained. "I should have realized it years ago. If you had loved me the way I loved you I wouldn't have had to fight so hard to get you to be mine in the first place. The truth is you were in love with Reid when we met and that never changed."

"I did fall in love with you Will." JJ Whispered.

"You grew to love me and the life we built, you never fell in love with me Jennifer, not the kind of love that you have for him. We had almost called it quits before the incident at the bank and you told me to ask you to marry me again." He reminded her.

"We could go to counseling." She suggested Will moved her closer to her and pulled her to himself, "Jennifer we are past that point, I love you and I always will but I need to move on."

JJ moved from his arms avoiding the broken plate on the floor and sat down at the table. "So what do we do now?"

"I want to make this as easy as possible on you and the boys. There is a house for rent the next street over, it would be easy for us to share custody, and Henry would even be able to ride the same bus to school." He explained.

"How long have you been planning this?" She asked in disbelief.

"I've been thinking about it for a couple of months now." He confessed.

"So this weekend was just a way to let me down easy?" She asked angrily.

Will shook his head, "No, I still wasn't sure until you were gone this week and I wondered what JJ would come back to me the one who seemed to be in love with me or the one or was distracted by thoughts of Spencer Reid."

"When do you want to move out?" She asked coming to the realization his mind was made up.

"I put a security deposit down on the other house yesterday before I came here. I can move in at the first of the month. I would like to stay at the house until then if that's all right, for the boys."

"It's your house Will of course you can stay there." She laughed in disbelief. "I think I'm going to go for a walk now." She said pushing her way back from the table.

An hour later when JJ returned to the house she found Will once again sitting on the front porch waiting for her.

"I don't suppose you've reconsidered your decision?" She asked not knowing for sure what answer she wanted him to give.

"No, but I was hoping we could take this weekend to talk about how things might work. Where we go from here, how to make it easiest on the boys." He told her.

JJ sat down next to him and studied him for a while, "I never deserved you William LaMontagne." She confessed,

"That's not true JJ, you loved me the best that you could and you gave me the best gifts that I could have ever asked for. I do not regret one moment of the last ten years or one decision that I made." Hw assured her.

"Neither do I Will, I hope you know I would have always chosen our family first." She told him.

"I know that JJ, but you couldn't just choose me and that's what I can't live with anymore." He spoke softly.

She silently nodded her head having no more need for argument, "So where do we start."

They spent the day talking about how things would work, where the boys would stay when, how they would work living in two different houses with their jobs and the boys. They talked about how and what they would tell the boys. Shortly before sunset Will stood up, "I think I should go now." He announced.

"Home?" JJ asked wondering if she was supposed to go with him.

"No, I have a hotel room for tonight. I thought you could use some space to think." He explained.

JJ had to smile that was Will, even in telling her that their marriage was over he was still thinking about what she would need. "I'll call you in the morning and we can ride home together if you want."

JJ nodded still trying to take it all in as she watched him gather a few things and head to the door. She remained motionless on the couch for a while, unable to complete a thought. Then the tears came and it seemed they would never stop. She cried for herself, for Will, for Henry and Michael, and yes she cried for Spence. She had no idea how they would make this work, she wondered how long until her boys learned the truth and blamed her. She wondered what her team would say, and if Spence would blame himself. At some point she fell asleep and awoke to her buzzing phone, Garcia's name on the screen.

"Ok, no, no problem, I'll be on the first flight, I'll see you all there." She responded to news of a case in Ohio. She sent a text to Will, Case in Ohio flying straight there, see you at home, I'm sorry Will.

Six hours later she was walking into a police station in Akron to meet up with her team.

Spence was of course the first one to meet her, "Hey, how was the beach, did you and Will have a good time?" He asked earnestly.

"Well no not really." She began looking at him, the floor, back at him, and tucking her hair behind her ear before she spoke again, "Will is divorcing me." She explained before pushing past him to join the rest of their team leaving a shocked Spencer Reid in the doorway.

TBC

A/N Welcome to my first CM fic, to be honest I'm scared to write for a show that I've loved for so long. I completely shipped JJ and Reid to start the show and I never felt a lot of chemistry to between she and Will (or maybe the actor who plays him?). However I do love all three characters and want to respect all three characters in this story.