Stay
A Sakura X Kakashi one shot set to the song Stay by Sugarland.
How had I gotten here. Sakura thought to herself. In love with someone, who wasnt free to love her back. She'd never taken herself as the home wrecking kind. Or better yet ever thought she'd fall for her once sensei Kakashi Hatake.
She sat in Narutos usual thinking spot on top of Hokagi Mountain over looking the Leaf Village. A cool evening breeze caressed her skin. The sun was quickly setting.
She use to love watching the sunset. But now she was only reminded of that first encounter with Kakashi. When she kissed him and went down a heart breaking path.
She knew he didnt mean to hurt her. But at the same time how could she not be hurt? He was married, only came to her at night and was painfully cool or indiffernt durring the day. Almost like Sasuke was when they were kids.
She couldnt deny the face that she loved him though. She hated herself for that. In love with a married man.
'He will never love you back stupid!' Ino had shouted at her. 'Hes using you Sakura! And you're too blind by your loneliness to see that!' Sakura and Ino had gotten closer over the years. She was greatful for her friends blunt honesty.
'Ask him why he never actually stays the whole night!' Ino yelled.
'I know why he cant stay Ino." Sakura had sad sadly.
'Sakura please listen to me. You deserve so much more then some roll in the sheets with a married man.' Ino begged kneeling infront of her friend grasping her hands.
A tear slipped down her cheek. 'I know but I love him.'
Sakura knew Ino was right. She gives him everything and he gives her a few hours in the dark of night, every other day.
This was a fight they had nearly every time they saw eachother. She'd lay beside him watching the clock waiting for the moment he would get up and leave. She would beg him to stay, that she needed him, loved that didnt work she accuse him of using her. Picking a fight over anything just to have him to herself a few more seconds. Eventually he'd kiss her forehead and say he'd see her the next night.
Sakura never asked about his home life. It was well known that Kakashi wasnt happy in his marriage. Why he didnt just break it off with her, she didnt know.
Her phone vibrated in her lap. She didnt have to look at her phone to know it was Kakashi. He always texted her around the same time.
'Dont text him back you fool.' Her mind scholded her.
She'd tried ignoring him before, making excuses as to why she couldnt see him. But she always gave in eventually.
With a sigh she read the text.
'Be there in 20.' Was all it said. Sakura sighed and stood up. Brushing the dirt off her jeans.
"Don't go." A voice said from behind her. She sighed turning. Naruto stood glaring at her. They'd become very close, even tried dating. But Sakura didnt have the same feelings he did. She knew her affair with their former sensei hurt him. Mainly because she'd hidden it from for a long time before she confided in him.
"I have to." She replied turning toward him.
"You don't though. You have other options." He said grabbing her hands.
She sighed.
"I love him Naruto." She said pulling her hands away from him.
He glared at her. "You don't. You love the idea of him. Your so lonely you cant see what hes doing.'
"Stop." Sakura said bending to pick up her bag.
"He's using you!" Naruto shouted at her.
"I'm sick to death of hearing that from everyone! Why cant you just mind your own business!" She shouted back.
"Because I love you, its my job to protect you." Naruto said the hard edge in his voice softening.
"I dont need your protection Naruto." She replied. She knew he meant well but she was tired of other people telling her what to do when it came to Kakashi.
"He's going to break your heart Sakura." Naruto said sadly.
"Thank you for your concern Naruto. But i'll be fine." She said walking around him.
She fought tears as she walked back to her house. She hated fighting with him. She hated hurting him.
Once home she pushed Naruto out of her mind for the moment. She had just changed into a white tank top and black yoga shorts when there was a knock at the door. Saying a prayer for strength she opened the door.
-Three Hours Later. 12 am-
Sakura fought tears as she laid with her head on Kakashi's chest. The red numbers on her bedside alarm clock seemed to scream the time at her: 12:00 am. When it turned to 12:01 as if on cue Kakashi spoke.
"You okay Sakura?" His deep voice rumbled in his chest. She laid her chin on his chest looking up at him.
"Stay." She said. She spoke so softly that if he hadnt been looking at he wouldnt of known she spoke at all.
He tucked a stray peice of hair behind her ear. "You know I can't." He said.
"Please...Stay with me. Dont leave." She begged.
Emotion played across his handsome face. "I'm sorry-" He started but he was cut off when she sat up.
"Sakura you know I would if I could." He tried reach for her. She batted his hand away and glared at him tears in her eyes.
"I can't do this anymore Kakashi." She said.
Kakashi had the grace to look guilty.
"Its just for a little bit longer Sakura please-." he tried.
She sighed pulling her shirt back on and standing up.
"I've been hearing that for almost a year. Is this all I am to you? A fun, fuck whenever you can get away from wife?" She spat.
He sat on the bed with a shocked look on his face.
"You know thats not true. I care about you Sakura. But I need time to-." He tried again she cut him off mid sentence.
"You've had 11 months." She replied crossing her arms and glaring at him.
"What do you want Sakura? Tell me what to do to fix this." He begged moving to the end of the bed to sit in front of her.
"Choose." She said simply.
"Choose?" He repeated stupidly.
"It's me or her. I cant keep doing this." She said her voice hitching in her throat.
"You, I choose you Sakura." He said standing up.
Sakura stepped back from him. "Prove it."
"Prove it? How? Divorce my wife? Fine done. Now please stop this." Kakashi said reaching for her.
She looked at him. Really looked at him. She knew he was only telling her what she wanted to hear. And that broke her heart more then anything. Suddenly everything Naruto and Ino had been saying to her for months clicked into place.
"You're lying." She said.
"What? No Sakura-." He started. She put her hand up to cut him off.
"I can't do this anymore. It's not fair to me. I just realised I'm in love with you and you dont feel the same." She said simply.
"Sakura...I never ment to hurt you." He said.
She believed him. Whiping a tear from her cheek.
"I think its best if you leave now Kakashi," She said her voice catching again as she turned and walked out of the bedroom.
She could hear him scrambling around to get dressed. She stood by the front door holding it open. He paused in front of her.
"I never meant for you to get hurt...I do love you." He said touching her face. She fought the urge to lean into his gentle touch.
She nodded not trusting herself to look him in the eye.
He kissed her forehead and started to walk down the steps from her secont story apartment. She knew this was the right decision even if it killed her. He paused at the bottom of the steps.
"Sakura?" He said.
She paused in the doorway. He smiled sadly at her. Her heart broke all over again. They stood there look at eachother for what seemed like forever before Kakashi was up the stairs again and his arms were around her in a hug that held more emotion then any single embrace over the last 11 months.
"I'm so sorry I hurt you." He whispered into her neck.
Her resolve thoroughly broken she let the tears come. He held her as she cried. Finally she pulled back from him. She traced her thumb along his bottom lip trying to memerize every last feature of his maskless face.
She kissed him quickly and then stepped back before she could change her mind about ending things between them.
She'd never seen him so full of emotion.
"Goodbye." She whispered and shut the door.
A/N what do you guys think? I've this one on the back burner for a while...Not sure I like the ending to be totally honest. Feels a bit rushed. Anyway look for Chapter 2 of Just A Dream to be out...relativly soon...ish ;) As always reviews are always welcome as long as they are constructive! No reason to be a dick. If you dont like the pairing simply hit that little back button and check out another story :)