I was sitting in our bathroom, blood in a pool around me, my clothes probably covered in it.
Sobbing and screaming hysterically, I grabbed his face razor.
I turned on the shower/tub, and plugged the hole with its stopper. I climbed in fully dressed and sat in the water.
I lost it.
Carlisle said it would be iffy.
I dragged the four closely spaced blades across my arms. I moved to my legs. Then my belly, my back, butt, chest, anything I could reach, and dragged those sharp pieces of metal across my skin.
The tub was almost full now, and the water red with my blood.
I lost it.
I dropped my cutting utensil into the water, my fingers unable to grasp it anymore. My head felt light, but heavy at the same time and I let it fall back and SMACK against the tiles of the shower wall.
I lost it.
The door had been locked, I remembered slowly, so it would take them a few extra seconds to get to me, finally. I knew Alice would freak, not seeing my future and all, and let everyone know. She is a loud one.
I lost it.
My thoughts began to blur. I could barely see Edward in my minds eye anymore. He was slightly fuzzy, and a little blurred, and pretty soon I couldn't see colors anymore.
I was losing feeling, and couldn't hear my screams anymore. Was I screaming?
I lost it.
I saw what I knew was the water come closer to me before I fell into unconsciousness.