I don't know if my life will end tragically or peacefully, but, I still got the strength to move on. I know that since the first time I joined the Dark, I'll be living like a puppet controlled by a powerful, heartless master.
I don't know wether I'll go to the hell or heaven if I die, but, I still got the motivation to keep on. I know that since I changed side, I realised that there's a little bit hope for me. I just wish that the hope will really be mine.
As the time pass by, I still wonder, if there is a time in my life that I can really enjoy to the fullest. Yes. I've felt it. Once. Many years ago.
When Lily Evans is still a friend of mine.