Living a painful Life
Day by day I wake
From my dream and shake
For not once have I had
Such a good dream in hand
But then when I wake
The true nightmare awaits
Because I have to live the day
I wish I could go away
In the mirror I stare
as the pain I couldn't bare
makes my eyes cry
and makes the tears flow by
as darkness rules my sight
I pull myself in might
and then said to myself
i shouldn't be weak and fell
As im ready for the day
I march myself away
I put my mask in place
and makes a happy face
but still I couldn't dare
to see their hated glare
throwing at me
ripping each part of me
As I steadily walk
I hear them talk
how I wish I'm innocent
for me not to know what they meant
for each word that came
gives me terrible pain
for each shout I hear
I wish I wasn't here
As I turn and run
Wanting to hide from everyone
I run, nothing to know
Which way I can go
For I have nobody
Not even a family
Cause from the start I'm alone
Having no one to come home
As I came to a clearing
I set myself crying
Cause I know I have nothing
Not a single being
Someone that I can unfold
The true sadness that I hold
Someone that I could tell
That I live in such a hell
And after my tears have gone dry
I stand myself and try
To face the world and find
The people that would love me behind
The truth that a demon lay
With me till I die
The people tat would see
A child inside of me
As I see some friends
I hope that they will lend
Some smile that would heal
The sadness that I feel
But then they turn their back
Leaving my heart with such a crack
That it turns to bleeding
With this emptiness feeling
As I see birds fly
I stood myself and ask why
Why give such cruelty
In such a child like me
But as the sun starts setting
I realize that everything has its meaning
Like every beginning
Has its own ending
And now as darkness come
I let myself to be gone
For now I said goodbye
To this miserable lie
Cause no more can I take
This feeling of being hate
For no reason why
I'm living such a painful life