Hello everyone! I was re-watching season 4 finale and decided to write a post-ep of what I think could have happened between them. Sorry for my english (not my first language!). Hope you like it!
Castle took her hand, their fingers interlaced together. He looked at her, as if asking if she was sure. If she really wanted that. She smiled at him and squeezed his hand. She couldn't think of anything she wanted more than to be with him. Not after that painful day. Not after their fight. She had already told him. She just wanted him. Just him. In every possible way.
They walked towards his room, through his bookshelves, through their written stories. She had never thought of them like that. Their stories. Nikki and Rook were them. Only one difference: Nikki had been quicker at going for what she wanted. Kate couldn't help herself and kissed him. Their lips together. Their tongues dancing inside his mouth. Hot and wet. Mostly hot.
She couldn't breathe but it was a good feeling. Her heart was pounding so heart she though it was going to jump out of her chest. She was nervous. And excited. And turned on. Yes. Castle had always secretly turned her on. When he removed a damp lock of hair out of her face she smiled. He was sweet. And considerate. He had told her that he loved her. Just at that moment Kate realized that he had never stopped demonstrating his love for her.
"Castle" she whispered.
But she didn't say any more. She didn't need words. Her actions could speak for her. She stroke his cheek and move his lips to his jaw. He shivered and she felt stronger. Even more powerful. The man she loved was kissing her. Loving her with his mouth and she was making him shiver.
"Are you sure that..." he started softly. Not really looking for an answer.
"Shut up, Castle. Kiss me again."
And he did. As he had never kissed a woman before. None of the other women were her. Strong, caring, intelligent, smoking hot. He took her to his bed, trying not to push her into anything she didn't wanted. He just didn't want to break the magic. It was Kate who threw him to the mattress. Careless. Aroused. Happy. She rested herself over him, enjoying his warmth, his big hands running under her shirt.
"You are gorgeous" he whispered to her ear, his breath hot against her neck."Don't let me wake up. If this is a dream, don't wake me up".
"Not a dream" Kate kissed his neck and started moving downwards."Not a dream at all".
She unbuttoned his shirt as slowly as she could. Teasing him. He grunted when she leaked his bellybutton and pulled her up to meet his mouth again. He rolled over, taking her with him until he was on the top. It was his turn. He kissed her scar, just where their hands were together minutes ago.
Even without realizing it, they were naked. Skin to skin. Man to woman.
"Now, Castle" she murmured, moving under him.
He entered her, no hesitation in his movement. And from then on, everything went better.
She was tired, but didn't want to fell asleep. Her breath was starting to return to normal though her heart was still beating hard. She wanted to stay just like that. She was lying almost over him. Her head near his heart, her arm over his chest, her right leg between his. He was hugging her. Not letting go. Not that she wanted to. It had been a long time since she last felt so relaxed and happy. So comfortable with a man.
She knew it was going to be like that with him. Funny and sexy and not awkward at all. She knew he was going to be nice and cute and really good at it. What she hadn't expected was the after sex moment. Even with his most recent boyfriends (Josh among them), she didn't want to cuddle after love making. She preferred to get dressed and go to her apartment or just turn around and go to sleep.
With Castle it was the other way round. She would love to stay like that for the rest of her life.
"You're getting cold" he said, rubbing her arm, trying to warm her "Let me just get you under the bedcover."
"Wait a little more." she kissed his neck and breathed his scent. "I don't want to move right now"
"Your wish is my command, m'lady. Just tell me when you are ready?"
"I'm sorry Castle." she cursed in her mind the moment the words slipped her lips. "Not about this. Not... about us. I'm sorry for making you feel that you weren't enough... to leave my mom's case."
"It's ok. We're here. It's ok, now."
They stayed like that, not moving, just listening their breathing. He couldn't stop thinking how lucky he was. Kate Beckett was in his bed. Naked. Hugging him with her whole body. He felt her still-wet hair when she moved to cuddle closer making his heart stop for a fraction of a second. She was gripping him. He couldn't even move an inch. He wouldn't, though. He was still amazed of how things had changed from one day to another.
He kissed her hair, needing it. it seemed like a long time ago since he kissed her for the last time. He wanted to close the door forever and stay with her inside that room until they got old. He wanted to spoil her for the rest of his life. At least try to. He wanted to spend every second of his life with her. He smiled at his thought. Beckett would panic if he told her that. He was going to take it slow. For her. If it was for him they would fly that night to Vegas and get married in one of those chapels.
But he would let her time.
Time to adjust to their relationship. To accept he was going to stay by her side. To believe he loved her.
"Kind of cold now. Can we pull up the cover?"
"Sure."
He was cold too when he left her lying on the bed by herself when he got up to pick the cover. It was on the floor. His whole bed was a mess. Who could even care? Who would think about the bed when that beautiful woman was naked on it. He stared at her for a few seconds. Even if it was creepy. She had her eyes closed as if she was completely relaxed. Her hair was spread over the white pillow, the light of the moon giving her a cherubic look.
Castle returned to her side, pulling her to his embrace.
"Better?"
"Much better. Do you want me to leave? I don't want to be here when Alexis comes back if you don't want to".
"Don't worry about that. She is not coming until lunchtime. And I want you to stay, Kate. No matter what. I want you here."
Not just in his bed that night. Not just with him at the precinct as they had been for four years. He wanted everything with her. Every tiny moment that he could share would her would be unbelievable.
"Good. I want to be here"
That was the nearest he was going to be to an "I love you" from her that night. But it was fine. More than enough. They were there. They could start something new. Something exciting and thrilling. Everything that he had been looking for.
She started drawing circles on his chest with her finger, playing with his hair with her other hand. That felt completely right. Perfect. It was going to be perfect.
"Good night, Beckett"
"Night, Castle." she whispered back, shy for the first time with him.
She writhed to kiss him one last time and then rested her head over his chest. It was just like it was supposed to be. Strength, happiness, love. Everything was there, in their embrace. Words not spoken.