To whomever really cares,
I don't cry for the fact that she's gone,
I cry because I left her there alone to leave.
I don't cry because she broke my heart,
I cry because I broke hers.
I don't cry because she was pushed to do it,
I cry because I was the one who pushed her.
I don't smile because I'm happy,
I smile because I'm sad.
I don't smile because I want to,
I smile because you want me to.
I don't smile because I'm over her,
Oh no,
That's surely not the reason.
I don't live because she would've wanted me to,
I live because I want you to get my note.
I don't live because I love her,
I live because she loved me.
I beg you not to cry,
if there's any temptation at all.
I hope you understand,
that it has nothing to do with you.
It's only between me and Sonny,
Whom I will be seeing soon.
When you get this letter,
I'm sorry to say,
that I've gone to see her,
in that better place of hers.
Love,
Chad