Okay you guys. This is my first fanfic so please go easy on me...
I'm from Switzerland so please excuse my terrible language
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It was a calm and also beautiful autumn night in the feudal era. The sky was clear and the full moon caused the lake, on which shore our favorite miko was sitting, to sparkle in a silvery manner. Indeed the sight was something you would never see in modern Japan but right then Kagome could not enjoy the beauty of that moment as her mind was occupied with the pink glowing, now complete, jewel in her hand. She still hadn't chosen a wish that would be completely selfless and was racking her mind over it with an intensity that made her head ache. Kikyo had begged her to destroy the jewel. She had given her life for that cursed thing; had spent her last energy to finally rip it out of Naraku's claws. Inuyasha's heart had been crushed, when he had to watch how his first love had been ripped to pieces by the raw power of her miko-energy. He still could not look at Kagome, as she looked too much alike his lost love. Sighing Kagome shook her head to get rid of her depressing thoughts. Yes, she still loved Inuyasha with all her heart and she also knew they would never be, as he started to wander off at night to visit a certain ookami-prince named Kouga to comfort his bleeding heart. Sighing Kagome raised from her spot on the shore of the lake and moved into the forest with a grace that came from many hours of training which she had to attend after Naraku's defeat. The sound of somebody's crying got her attention. Without making a sound she moved towards the person just to freeze on the spot when a silver haired hanyou met her gaze. Tears were streaming down his face and his ears were pressed to his skull, in a manner of complete defeat and sadness. A moment later Kagome came out of her state of shock and slowly went to him; placing a gentle hand on his shoulder. His eyes snapped up and he stared at her for a second before he leapt at her crying in her lap. Startled at first she slowly stroked his silvery hair. "What happened?", she asked him as he had calmed down a bit. She had never seen Inuyasha like this. "Has something happended with Kouga?" She asked again as he didn't answer. He snapped his head up and looked completely stunned for a moment. "How did you know?" He asked his voice hoarse from crying. "Oh please, did you really think I would not realize that you go off to see him almost every night? I have become stronger Inuyasha I can feel his aura and yours. I can feel the love you hold for each other." Kagome said and her heart was once more hurting. Inuyasha lowered his head. With a breaking voice he started to tell Kagome what had happened.

Flashback

Inuyasha waited in the clearing ,that had become the secret meeting place of him and his lover, for the whirlwind that was Kouga to appear. Amazingly after he had lost the sacred jewel shards his speed did not discrease. So most of the time it was Kouga that had to wait for him. Inuyasha started to get worried when he waited for quite a while and Kouga still wasn't there. But his worries were taken from him when he felt two strong arms wrap around him and smelt the scent that was defenitly Kouga. "You kept me waiting Kouga", Inuyasha said pouting. Kouga chuckled and pressed a soft kiss to his lips. "Sorry", he said after he pulled away, "there were some things I had to discuss" He looked sadly at his lover. Inuyasha did not like that. Kouga was never sad. Not if nothing grave happend. "What happend?" he asked, his voice was slightly trembling. "The elders of my pack, they want me to take a mate. And we both know, that they would never ever accept you as my mate, my love. They would never accept a hanyou and even if you were full demon you are still a male and they need a heir who is strong. I'm sorry Inuyasha but we can't continue to see each other." He stopped when he saw that Inuyasha had tears in his eyes. "You never loved me did you? If you would you wouldn't just leave me for something what the elders of your pack said. I don't understand. Why are you doing this to me? Why would you make me fall in love with you and then just leave me like Kikyou did?" Kouga wrapped his arms around Inuyasha when the hanyou tried to run away. "Listen Inuyasha. If I could I would mate you. Do you think I haven't tried everything I could to change their mind? But I have a duty to fullfill for my pack and if it means sacrificing my own happiness then it's what I have to do. I'm sorry" He left without another word and Inuyasha broke down as soon as he was out of sight. Not seeing the silent tear that made its way over Kouga's tan face.

End Flashback

Inuyasha was crying again and Kagome tried once more to comfort the weeping hanyou. It was difficult since she knew exactly how he was feeling and she was crying as well. She wanted to help him, or more like needed to help him and she knew exactly how. Singing a lullaby that her mother used to sing to her she waited till the hanyou had cried himself to sleep. After that she carefully sat him on the soft moss they had been sitting on and raised. Walking a bit she found the lake again and stood on it's shore then she grasped the jewel around her neck and wished. 'I wish the hanyou Inuyasha to be a full ookami female and that he will find happiness with the man she loves' A bright light emerged from the jewel as her completly unselfish wish was made. Kagome fell in a dead faint when her miko energy was drawn from her. It was a very powerful wish after all and the jewel had been tainted from too many evil youkai to be purified easily. In her dream she saw a figure that she recoginized immideatly. "Midoriko!" she exclaimed and fell into a deep bow. "Please, no need to bow to me child. It is I that needs to bow to you my dear." She said and bowed deeply to Kagome. "Bow? To me? But why? I'm not worth being bowed to, especially by you." Kagome said sadly. "But you are worth it my dear child. I have never seen anyone as pure and selfless as you are. While you made your wish you sacrificed you own happiness, so the person you loved could be happy. Not even I could be so selfless." Midoriko smiled and gently carrassed Kagomes face. "Are you finally free?" Kagome asked hopefully. "Yes, dear child. You were able to purify the jewel completly now I can rest in peace." Kagome smiled. "I'm happy for you Midoriko. I hope you will be happy where you are going." "Thank you Kagome, but before I go I have to tell you something." Kagome looked at her curiously. "When you purified the jewel you used up all your mikoenergy since it was very tainted from all the evil it had to endure when it was in the hands of Naraku. You now have the choice. Life or death. If you choose to live then you will be turned into a demon of your choice and if you choose to die then you can come with me right now." Kagome wasn't surprised. She knew what she was doing when you purified the jewel. But the choice was a difficult one. Could she really live a life, where she had to watch Inuyasha being happy with Kouga. Where she had to watch her best freinds die? Or could she really die knowing that she would leave her son like his parents did? She took a deep breath. "I choose..."

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