A/N: One shot, Jacob's POV. All Again For You by We the Kings. This song makes me cry, but I love it and thought it really matched Jacob's past emotions about Bella. Post Eclipse.
I couldn't sleep last night
I walked alone
On the beach
Where we always used to go
When we couldn't hook up at home
I thought of you
And the time we jumped the fence
Both sides ripped down
We dove right in
And the cops chased us again
When you were mine
You know
We had it all in front of us
You were the one
I was in love
But you always hurt
the one you lost
I couldn't get enough
You were everything
That's bad for me
Make no apologies
I'm crushed...
Black and blue
But you know
I'd do it all again for you
Today, dressed up
In designer drugs
Dedicated to the one
I'll always love
The one who really messed me up
I let you take the wheel
And the driver's seat
Strapped in
So you get the best of me
Now what's left are the memories
When you were mine
You know
We had it all in front of us
You were the one
I was in love
But you always hurt
The one you lost
I couldn't get enough
You were everything
That's bad for me
Make no apologies
I'm crushed...
Black and blue
But you know
I'd do it all again for you
I am standing in the ocean rain
Rough and ready
For your deadly game
I've got nowhere else to go
We had it all in front of us
You were the one
I was in love
But you always hurt
The one you lost
I couldn't get enough
You were everything
That's bad for me
Make no apologies
I'm crushed...
Black and blue
But you know
I'd do it all again for you
(You know I'd do it all again for you)
(I swear I'd do it all again for you)
All Again For You – We the Kings
I loved you with all my heart. You were my fate, my destiny, my other half that made me complete – kindred spirits.
Don't you remember all those times we spent at the beach when we wanted to get away from home?
Those times we spent together?
When we would hide things from your father, things beyond his understanding?
You were torn up, not whole, damaged, but I still wanted you, despite everything.
You had your heart shattered, but I was there to hold you together.
You were cut and broken, but I stitched you back together.
I made you whole. You made me whole. You made me feel alive for the first time in my life.
Don't you remember?
He broke your heart, but you still loved him. You mourned his loss, secretly hoping for his return. You were broken inside, the living dead. You couldn't see the truth, the truth that I could clearly see. How could you betray me that way? Throwing yourself and your love away for someone who could never return it?
But that didn't mean I didn't want you. I'd take you, damaged goods and all, so long as I can have you. 30%, 40%, 50%, 60% of you, that's not enough for me. I need to have all of you, your whole heart. But if I could only have an hour of your time, I would gladly take it, if it meant I would be able to see that smile on your face, the smile that I have the gift of calling out.
I know how to make you happy, and you make me happy, but… you turn away from my love. Why?
I wanted to help you in any way I could, to make you better and as close to whole as possible. I made sure I left my mark on you with my stitches.
If doing crazy, dangerous things makes you happy, if its what you want, then I will gladly go along, even if I lose myself, because I would gladly give my life for you.
I let you take the wheel in the driver's seat. I let lead me to do whatever you wanted, just for you, and only you. Because no one means as much to me as you do. You are my world, my light, my air, my life, my everything.
But to you, all I can ever be is a friend. And that's what hurts the most.
I saw our whole life planned out before my eyes, saw us growing old together, saw our children, our wedding, how beautiful you would be in that white gown, but you saw other things. You had your mind set elsewhere.
And then we were so close. So close to what I've wanted all along.
But he came back. He came back right when I was so close.
You were the one I loved, but you then tore me up. Now all I have are the memories.
I can't stand there watching you be in love with someone else. It's much too painful.
My heart will always be yours. Forever.
But I don't regret the time we spent together. That is the only thing I don't regret.
I wished I had been able to move faster, to win her heart, just as she had won mine unknowingly.
I'm crushed black and blue, I'm broken and dying, but there's no one to stitch me up.
They said you were all wrong for me, but I didn't listen.
Don't apologize, because I would take you back in a heartbeat.
I don't regret our time spent, or my pain; forget these scars and bruises, my tears and my broken heart, because I'd do it all again for you.