I Want a Mommy for Christmas

Written by AndiCullen104

A/N- Enjoy!

Oh the weather outside is frightful
But the fire is so delightful
And since we've no place to go
Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

Oh, it doesn't show signs of stopping
And I've brought some corn for popping
Since the lights are turned way down low
Let It Snow! Let It Snow! Let It Snow!

~Let it Snow by Bing Crosby

Chapter One

Paul POV

"Turn it up, Daddy!" Elena kicked the back of my seat impatiently when I didn't give in to her request on her time.

"Lena, what did I tell you about kicking my chair?" I grumbled and begrudgingly turned the radio of the car up.

"Sorry Daddy!" She piped up from her car seat and proceeded to sing Let it Snow, missing lyrics, and singing off key. However, I wouldn't have it any other way.

I just wished that she would want to sing along to something else, hell I'll take Disney right now. On my radio which Elena had put on my favorites was the station that plays only Christmas music. Gah! I love that little girl, but could she pick something any more irritating.

Silently I cursed Leah in my head for getting Elena hooked on Christmas tunes.

I'll be having a word with her when I'm phased.

It will be a little difficult to get my point across with her whole status in the pack.

"Fuckin' Alpha Female," I muttered quietly so Lena wouldn't hear.

I don't know how Jacob puts up with Leah.

Every since the Christmas that she lost Harry, she goes all out for the holiday.

She tells us because it was her Dad's favorite time of the year and he would be pissed if she didn't give her best to holiday. Jacob, of course, is all whatever makes you happy, makes me happy... asshole.

I'm not a Scrooge, but damn if that she wolf didn't demand that I put lights on the roof when it was icy. She was laughing so hard that these big fat tears rolled down her cheeks at my show of slipping and sliding.

Damn her.

"Daddy, remember what today is," my daughter broke me out of my thoughts as I pulled into said she wolf's driveway.

"Of course, little one. We're going to write to Santa tonight." I smiled, grateful that she still believed in Santa. I never had that when I was a kid, because my parents were too busy being drunk off their asses to celebrate Christmas. The best gift they could give me was forgetting about me.

"Dad," Lena said as I helped her out of the car.

"Yeah?" I prodded tying her scarf around her to keep her from getting too cold.

"How come it's not snowing?" She asked with a little frown on her face.

"Uh... because the weather man said it's supposed to rain."

"Well how does he know that?" Lena asked as I took her hand in mine and began to walk down the driveway to where Leah stood on the porch.

"Taha Aki told him."

Leah rolled her eyes at my explanation.

"Really?!" Lena's eyes lighted up at that bit of information. "Can I talk to Taha Aki too? That's so cool."

"He only talks to the weather man, honey."

"When I grow up, I'll be a weather man too! That way I can talk to him."

"Weather woman," Leah corrected when we stopped in front of her.

"Yeah." Elena agreed.

"Okay little one, be sure to give Aunt Leah all the trouble you can, okay?" I bent down in front of her.

"But I like Aunt Leah," she said her eyebrows smashing together.

"All the more reason to give her problems." I smirked.

"Unlike your father when he was your age, Lenny, you are no trouble."

Elena giggled.

"Yeah, yeah." I mumbled pressing a kiss to my little girl's forehead.

"Love you," I whispered ruffling her hair as I stood up.

"I love you too, Daddy."

~~~~~IWAMFC~~~~~

Kim's pregnant, again. Jared spoke through our mind link a little dismally for someone with what should be good news to him.

What are you on, number six?

This baby will only be number four.

At the rate your going the rest of us won't need to have kids. You'll be popping out the whole pack for us! I gave a wolfy snort.

Not funny dude, I'm in the dog house right now.

I bet. I was met with silence from his end and we continued to patrol before I realized something.

What were you not expecting her to be pissed?

I don't know, but I didn't expect to be sleeping on the couch for this.

Every time you touch her, she gets pregnant. I'm not surprised you aren't getting any. I thought which he huffed as he moved along the border of our land.

She said something similar this morning, he paused. Something about me having 'super sperm'.

I gave a short bark which was the best I could do for a chuckle in this form.

Haven't you ever used a condom? Weren't you paying attention in health class?

Hey, when you're in the heat of the moment, you don't always remember. He defended.

I've never not used a condom, since well you know... I cut off my thoughts so I wouldn't open Pandora's box.

It's just when she's withering under me or doing this thing with her-

Really, I don't need the visuals. I interrupted the porn fest that was coming from his mind into mine. By now we were all used to it, but didn't mean we were actively sharing shit.

Emily is not going to be happy, I thought.

Oh shit, I didn't even think of that. I'll let Kim to be the one to break the news to her.

I thought of how hard our ex-alpha and his wife have been trying to have kids with no results. It was really getting to the point where Emily couldn't stand to be around the pack. Everyone had kids or had one on the way, hell even Leah had twins last year. We didn't know what was going on with Emily, but we all wished she would get pregnant. Not having kids was slowly eating at her to the point where I think she may need mental help.

The rest of our patrols we didn't talk much too lost in our own thoughts.

Before I phased out, I gave Jared some advice.

Remember, no glove, no love.

Fuck you, asshole. He growled.

~~~~~IWAMFC~~~~~

I sat at the kitchen table of my home with Elena as she brought out all her coloring and crafts things. She was very artsy even at the age of five and I knew that she will be awesome at it one day, if her pictures now were of any clue.

"Do you know Santa's address?" She asked glancing up at me from taking out her glitter sticks.

"Yep," I said popping the P.

"Good, I want to make sure he gets it." Lena began to decide what construction paper she wanted to use.

"He will, little one."

"Aunt Leah showed me and the twins a movie today."

"Oh? Which one?"

"It's the one with Rudolph. Dad, do you think he'll be the one to lead the reindeer on Christmas Eve?"

"I'm sure he will, they need someone to light the way. Santa is very old so he needs all the help he can get in seeing." I answered.

"You don't think, Santa's going to die?!" She gasped dropping the papers on the table where some of it fluttered to the floor.

Shit. Foot in mouth.

"Um... no... he'll live on forever?" I said but it sounded more like a question. However, it was enough to reassure Lena.

"Good. You're so smart Daddy. I want to be smart just like you when I grow up, and be a weather man." She giggled happily.

"Sounds good, little one."

We settled into working on the letter together, and I was helping her write what she wanted on the red construction paper. It had dolls, houses for the dolls, a dog, a horsey, and some electronic thing she saw on TV.

"Okay, that looks like a good list." I nodded.

She paused worrying her bottom lip with her teeth.

"What little one, is there something you'd like to add?"

Elena nodded.

"Well? I can't read your mind, Lenny. Give Daddy a clue."

She climbed into my lap, and looked down at the list that we had made and decorated together.

"I want a Mommy for Christmas." Elena said picking up a purple marker.

I spluttered, shocked that was what she had said.

"Huh?"

"I want Santa to give me a Mommy this year." She said slowly as if I were dumb. "I've been a really good girl this year, and this is what I want more than any of the other presents. Will you help me write it Daddy?"

"Sure," I helped her write it down on the list.

Later that night I had let a few tears fall down my face, because this was one thing I couldn't give Lena. I physically couldn't give it to her, and I felt like a failure. I've never wanted to date since the event happened, and I made peace with it just being Lena and me.

This just ripped open old wounds.

I wanted to give my little girl the world if I could, but that was not possible, just like giving her a Mother. It just wasn't meant to be.

I swiped my arm across my face and frowned at the fact that I was crying.

I hated being like a pussy.

Tears were a weakness I didn't fucking need.

"I'm sorry Lena. I just can't give you this."

~~~~~IWAMFC~~~~~

He didn't know this, but the wind picked up outside and three snowflakes fell to the ground.

Beautiful and different each one, but only three fell from the sky.

Someone was listening.

A/N- I'd love to hear your thoughts on this. I hope you are enjoying the holiday season, and that it's not to stressful. :)