A/N: written by me and my friend Ali… it all started as her idea…

Chapter 1

She was practically a widow, and sat all alone in her parlor immediately after her fiancé's funeral. Meredith tried to continue the novel that she started reading before the death of Derek, so that she could get him being gone off her mind. She thought of going to another world filled with happiness and joy, but once out of her reverie she realized she could not read at a time like this. She placed the book upon her lap and started out the window as the rain pounded against the ground and the water meandered about. She dreamed about a place where everything was perfect, and no one ever died and left their loved one all alone.

Meredith had met Derek before she started her surgical internship. The relationship soon became complicated because at the time Derek was involved with another woman from New York. After spending more and more time together, they could barely bear to be apart for a day, so Derek broke it off with the other love in his life. The coming summer Derek proposed to Meredith. They were in the midst of planning their wedding when Derek passed.

Derek was involved in a car crash on his way to meet Meredith because she had some very big news to tell him. Derek was in a hurry to get to her so he was not paying enough attention the road. He then collided with another driver. Meredith got a call from the hospital saying Derek was in a car accident and was being treated there. She drove to the hospital, only to find out his body was alive, but his brain was not. Derek was pronounced brain dead and taken off life support. The funeral was three days later.

Nobody knew the reason for Derek getting into the accident. Meredith knew it was most likely because of the news she had to tell him. She remembered talking on the phone with him before the accident.

"Derek... I'm nervous."

"The wedding is soon, you have every right to be nervous."

"Not because of that."

"Then why?"

"I have something to tell you."

"Like what?"

"Something big... just please try to get home quick, I'm scared."

"Why?"

"Just... try to get home, please."

"Okay, I'll be there as fast as I can."

The phone clicked and Meredith went on waiting for him to get home, but he never came back and he was never going to.