A/N: Alright. Here's the deal. Regrettably, this story will not be started for a while. Since I finished Visser Three's Journal last night, I had been working very hard to finish it, so hard that I'd been neglecting my other stuff. Now that that story's done, I really, REALLY need to get all that stuff done before I get into this fic.
HOWEVER. This story has an introduction. And since the introduction was all done (and I know for a fact some of you have already read it without realizing what it was), I saw no harm in posting it. But you need to understand that this is ALL YOU'RE GETTING for a while. :P I NEED to finish my stuff, but as soon as I'm done, you can look forward to me settling into this fic. Thanks for your patience, and I hope you enjoy this brief overview…
Cheers to Visser Three's Notebook! This is the last one, guys. Enjoy it while you can.
This story is dedicated to MsTria, Pharell's Girl, Kharina, Ember Nickel, and PowerPen. You guys are the best "virtual" friends anyone could ask for. Thanks for helping me out with my fics and stuff. Good times.
And of course, to my "real" best friend, Concrete Angel. Thanks for sharing my joy in finishing V3J! LOVE YA LOTS!
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Visser Three's Notebook
By Sinister Shadow
- Introduction -
Beautiful loveliness
An angel stripped of its wings
Give me an answer to my prayers
And I shall stop searching…
An answer to the question why
Why we bother to even try
When the world and its surroundings seem so hopeless
And we seem such helpless beings
I take refuge in the thought that maybe you will be there to comfort me
Help me in the only way you know
And I shall rise above at last
Above the pillars of smoke and the rain you've created
Oh dear, where shalt I turn?
Where have you gone my lifeline, my only searchlight?
Or am I doomed to scour the world forever
In search of you – lost and hoped to be found
Your lifeless eyes tell me an answer
But I have but many more questions!
Lord forsaken me, trespassing into the gloom
Death withholds many secrets from me
Secrets you know and I ignore
Secrets whispered in your ear during that cold November night
Nighttime holds but dread for me, nighttime holds but hate
The sky's eyes glare down at me for they are protecting your fragile soul
Kept polished and beloved by precedents
No longer here, past the threshold I created in you
No longer damned, no longer mine to reach out to in ways confusing
Which many a man failed to understand
Your name is hard to whisper in this fog
I have no light to see it through
I have no heart to long and no mind to create
Pictures of time long past and memories whirlwind
Giving me a haven in which to rest
Oh, lord, lord forgiven for separation
Ripping my soul and leaving it bleeding
Hearing the sound of the wind rushing to greet me
Why can you not appear?
Why must you leave me sitting here alone
Wake up, wake up, wake, wake…
I cannot stay here forever and eventually I will leave you
Though I cannot bring myself to walk through that door
Give me a few seconds to dissipate my hatred and rage
And I will walk away and remain unfinished
A broken doll with no eyes to see and no hands to feel
Returning is the gloom of yesterday along with it's contrasting joys
The innocent rage, no longer innocent
You would have been gone anyhow…
May you leave at last
My angel with black wings
Go, now, fly away
And I shall stop to linger by the door
Cast a glance on your sad face
A face I will see no more
An obstacle I have leaped over
May you leave at last and no longer share your presence
For your voice already rings in my ears
Painted on the four walls of my room
The words 'I hate you'
And I shall speak no more of this secret end
I shall praise the finality and criticize the weakness
I am showing here despite myself
Return no more and I shall stop searching
For a black feather in the distant sand
Yet I know I am condemned forever
To your memory vivid and true
Your lifeless face gives me an answer
Perhaps the one I wish to hear…
I lay you down and edge to the doorway
But so many new questions appear
Am I right to commend the living?
Or am I a fool for denying my loneliness?
Am I to continue my quest for greatness?
Or am I doomed to forever waiting for you?
Perhaps I shall sleep…
I lock the doors and close the windows
Stopping you from escaping through a simple crack
And I lay down beside you and I clutch your frozen hands
Perhaps tomorrow I shall try to leave again
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Just an added note: I did, indeed, write this poem. Please review and tell me what you think... And for now, until next time. :)