The Other Side of the Story
Description: Klaine- What was going on in Blaine's mind when he broke Kurt's heart?
Disclaimer: I do not own glee, sadly.
This is my first fanfic, I hope you guys like it!
Blaine felt like a jerk. How could he do that to Kurt? Why couldn't he take his own advice in the first place and have the courage to tell Kurt how he really felt about him? And now he's made a fool of himself in front of all the warblers because of some guy he has no feelings for at all.
It started that day in December, when Blaine had finally decided to make the first move. He hoped Kurt would see through the whole "rehearsing" thing and realize it was just an excuse to sing with him. Especially because there was no King's Island Christmas Spectacular that year.
Afterwards, Blaine left and leaned against the wall to catch his breath for a moment. The duet was everything he hoped it would be and their voices were perfect together. He rushed out so fast, he barely noticed Kurt's old glee coach, mr. Schuester, walk in. He wasn't usually one for eavesdropping, but he couldn't help overhearing what they said.
someone special?
No, just a friend.
Blaine didn't stick around to hear any more. He felt like someone had just punched him in the stomach.
But on the brightside, I'm in love with him and he's actually gay.
Blaine tried to get over it. Because, being friends is better than nothing, right? He hoped so.
When he met Jeremiah, he figured it was the perfect opportunity to get over Kurt. A small voice in the back of his head said, psh, yeah. Like that's ever gonna happen. He told that little voice to shut up.
Jeremiah was ok to talk to, but he wasn't like Kurt; wasn't special. And to be honest, his hair was stupid. Kurt's hair is perfect, that little voice said. Blaine was starting to think that little voice was just there to make things worse for him. Blaine tried to convince himself that Jeremiah would grow on him, that in time he would feel something for him. Yet still, he found himself dreading every coffee date they had and wishing Kurt reciprocated the feelings he had for him. However, it just wasn't meant to be.
No, just a friend.
Those four words had crushed all of his hope that Kurt could feel anything more than friendship toward him. He was stupid to think Kurt would have felt the same way he did about their duet. Anyway, they hadn't known each other very long. At least he hadn't tried to kiss him, even though he had though about it. Blaine thought about those perfect lips more than was probably healthy, but never tried anything. Especially after what karofsky did to him.
After he came up with the idea of singing to Jeremiah, he secretly hoped the other warblers wouldn't help him. Much to his surprise and disappointment, however, Kurt convinced them to help. He wanted Blaine to have someone to be with. Just like a friend, he would help him achieve that. Blaine concluded Kurt just didn't feel that way toward him. Of course, he'd already done this tons of times, but this seemed more solid than the other reasons. He had to get over him.
Blaine had it all planned out. He would sing to Jeremiah, then they would fall in love and his feelings for Kurt would just be a dim memory. But that little voice knew the truth; don't kid yourself Blaine, you know that's not what you want and it never will be.
He didn't have to do it. He could just call it all off and everyone could go back to Dalton. But Kurt, being the kind friend he is, wasn't going to let that happen and convinced Blaine to go through with it. So, when the others started the first notes, he put on a confident smile that made him even more depressed somehow. The only way he convinced himself to finish the song is by pretending he was singing to Kurt, instead of that guy he just met, Jeremiah.
Even though he didn't feel that way toward Jeremiah, it still stung a bit when he rejected him. So what if he got him fired? It was still a pretty good song and couldn't he at least give him a compliment or two? And Kurt had a good point about his hair, probably everyone working there knew he was gay.
Later that day, Blaine found out he had totally messed up. Kurt looked like he was on the brim of tears. Was it something he did? What happened? Maybe he was imagining it and Kurt always looked like that. He was only partially paying attention while Kurt was talking. This valentine's day couldn't have gone worse. "We've always been honest with each other," he heard Kurt say yup, absolutely. the little voice said. Then, he parted with all the thoughts in his head for a moment so he could listen to Kurt.
This is the perfect opportunity for me to tell him how I actually feel. I won't back out this time. Ok. I'm going to do it. "You weren't supposed to think of all that as nothing! It wasn't nothing because I'm completely love you and I just didn't have the guts to tell you before!" Yeah, wouldn't it have been so much better if he said that? But instead, he said something about how horrible he is at this and he doesn't know what he's doing. wow, you really are an idiot. The little voice is right, Blaine thought.
Just thought everyone deserved to know what was going on in Blaine's mind when he broke Kurt's heart. Well, what I imagine was going on in his mind. Otherwise he's just an idiot and a jerk. And just to clarify, he's not crazy, he just has a conscience.
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