Alone!!
Summary: Lyle is writing a letter to his mother.
Disclaimer: I do not own the characters in this story.
Dear Mother!
She hated me and then started to trust me. She looked into my eyes and turned away to run from me. I know that deep in her heart she will always hate me. I know I am not worthy of her love but shouldn't she at least get to know the real me before she tries to kill me?
No one needs someone as screwed up as I am. Maybe I should just call it a day and kill myself. No one else seems to be able to kill me. But I think I am too much of a coward to kill myself.
On some level I need this pain, this agony. When the Yakuza cut off my thumb, I couldn't believe that my own family set me up. I know that no matter how hard I try, I will never be accepted as a Parker. Maybe I would've been welcome if you were still here mother, but Parker has said time and time again that you would've hated me. I wonder how you would've treated me.
Maybe if Raines hadn't stolen me from you I would've known how it felt to feel love. But now that isn't the case, I was trained by Raines and if he was to find out that I have been writing letters to my mother since I was six years old he would torture me half to death in the secret shed he made sure is in my apartment.
My sister was in there once and when she saw the blood and shackles she automatically thought that I murder Asian women in there. And EAT them!!! What kind of a freak do they think that I am?
Oh right I never told you that your husband has gone missing and that the Centre is now run by Mr. Raines. So now the rules have changed around here. Whoever catches Jarod lives? That's original. I know for a fact that Raines needs us both here. If not for sis Jarod would be long gone besides if we find Jarod I know he has planned for her to carry the future pretenders. And me? Well without me he wouldn't have anyone for Willie to use as a punching bag every time he gets upset.
I wish someone would kill that guy soon enough. I can't, he made sure of that years ago. He has me trained so well that when he says one particular word I change and becomes his little pet.
I tried to talk to Syd about it once but he couldn't understand, maybe wouldn't. Why does everybody hate me so much?
Do you know that I have saved every letter I ever wrote you? I mean I never knew who you were or where. When I found that out I hear that you died years ago. I never met my mother and sis asks why I was upset at your grave. She should try growing up in the hell I grew up in. Yeah yeah I know that she hasn't had it easy either, but she had you for awhile. Now she has Sydney and Broots and even Jarod at times. Who do I have?? Raines and Willie? I am all alone and frankly I am getting sick of it.
Oh someone is here I can hear the car. It's probably Raines who found my leaving early tomorrow note. I knew he would get upset about that. Well have to go. I wish I had a chance to get to know you.
Your son Bobby!!
Lyle folds the letter neatly and puts it in an envelope and writes the date and then hides it in a box with hundred of other letters under the floorboards. Then Raines comes in with Willie.
"Leaving early?? Shed, now," is all the man has to say as Lyle sighs and enters the shed. Willie shackles him and starts to hit him with a leather whip. Lyle can feel as his blood is mixing with his sweat. Suddenly something harder is used and Lyle screams in pain until he succumbs to darkness. Raines motions for Willie to leave him and the two men leaves. Lyle manages to force one of his eyes open and sees the two men leave.
"Alone at last," he whispers and once again he looses the battle of his consciousness to darkness.
THE END??