So this is my FanFic #5- Salekh suhaag raat, Sadhna's POV. I must tell you guys that it is different from the show. I LOVED THE SR on the show but in my fic, it happens inside the house…and I don't know which house. I was all for it happening in the "dream house" but after they burned it down so quickly, I was left sorta confused. Now when I think about it, it would be pretty symbolic if it happened in their own house and their own bedroom…the room where they were together yet so separate can be the room where all those "dooriyan" end. Surroundings don't seem to matter to me when I'm thinking of Salekh…however; I did want their first time to be on a bed in a HOUSE. Oh, and I gave them a morning after scene. PS- this is descriptive and mature. No x-rated body parts are described but please realize what's happening between the two characters is mature material…in other words…they are making love… Oh and PLEASE REVIEW. DO NOT JUST READ IT AND GO OFF…PLEASE REVIEW! Why would I write if I don't know what you all think of it?
After Alekh Ji had carried me to our bed, my brain had basically zoned out completely. I was really totally just all emotions and not much action. I was breathing so hard that it was becoming embarrassing. I wish my reactions wouldn't give away what I was feeling. Alekh Ji looked like he both wanted this, and was worried about it too. First of all, it was his first time as well, obviously. Second of all, I wasn't really helping him out; I was just panting and hyperventilating before him. And 3rd of all, he was just scared of doing something wrong.
My own reactions put aside, I watched Alekh Ji's reactions closely. After we were both undressed before each other for the first time, the intensity in his actions doubled, maybe even tripled. I was feeling extremely shy and I know he was too, but he really didn't have any reason to be shy. He was pure perfection from head to toe. Every inch of him was made with God's care. I couldn't take my eyes off him and I hoped it wasn't making him uncomfortable. I would randomly reach out and touch different parts of him. He was just beautiful. It was impossible I could be so lucky. No. Sadhna Rajvansh never got so much happiness at one time. But maybe, it was finally her time.
Alekh Ji and I lay next to each other side by side after we were both undressed. I knew he could sense my every emotion. That's the way we were. I sensed his emotions too. They were desire, lust, love, nervousness, and worry. We just held hands and stared into each others eyes, and bodies. After a while, it looked like Alekh Ji was ready to move forward, and he pulled me closer to him. I was now an inch from him. There was nothing in between us, not even clothes. It was just two lovers, best friends, partners, and soul mates together under one roof. He put his arm around me and pressed me to him. It was skin against skin. I put my hands on his chest and closed my eyes. Alekh Ji began to kiss both my hands.
At one point, while he was kissing every single finger on my hand, he stopped and looked up at me. "Sadhna, if I do anything wrong, if I hurt you even the slightest, you have to tell Me.", he said. I raised myself on my elbows and looked at him. I wasn't exactly the best with words sometimes, and in his presence at a moment like this, I was even more at a loss for words. But I saw the worried expression on his face, so I did all I could, I grabbed his face and kissed his forehead. He still looked a bit apprehensive, but he smiled at me and continued.
I realized something was totally wrong about what was happening. This night was becoming way too one sided. I was so overcome by my senses that I wasn't doing much. I knew Alekh ji and I were feeling the same emotions, and the only way he would feel better would be if I felt better. The best way to get rid of my nerves was to get totally lost in him. C'mon Sadhna. You've dreamt of this moment for far too long. You longed to be touched, but you longed even more to touch him. To show him how much you love him, was a dream you'd nurtured for a long time now. As I thought this, Alekh ji's face was right above mine, and he was looking at me with an even more worried expression. "Is everything…", I interrupted him right away, "Everything is perfect". I took a deep breath and sat up in bed. He instructively did the same thing. We were sitting before each other now. There were no barriers between us. It was just his skin against mine. I ignored my shyness, and continued with my latest plan. He was staring at me curiously, wondering what was happening. I put my hands on his shoulders and gently squeezed them. "Alekh ji, I want you to be still for a while. Can you do that, please, for me? Don't worry, everything is fine, just be still for a while.", I asked him. "Of course…", he said to me, looking even more dazed now. Well now that I knew he'd be still, I proceeded with what I wanted. I moved my face closer to his, moved his forehead down to my lips, and kissed him. Then I kissed every single spot on his face. I saved his lips for last. I took a deep breath, and planted a soft kiss to his lips once, and twice. He was being perfectly still. I kissed his lips very softly a third time, and felt him kiss me back. I didn't let it last though, even though it was beautiful. I moved my lips to his neck. I wanted to make this night about him, and I knew he wanted to make it about me. But I needed to express my love to him physically. There was an ocean of love trapped within my body. It yearned for a release, a form to express itself. I kissed his neck slowly, each kiss was short. My heart was beating so fast. I couldn't believe that we were finally in this moment. I tried ignoring all of my own thoughts and concentrating on him. I kissed every inch of his neck. I looked up and into his eyes shyly. His eyes were closed. He was breathing slowly. His hands were on his knees. My hands were now moving from his face, to his hair, and to his neck. I touched his skin gently, trying to put as much love in my touch as possible. This contact between us was too much for me to bear. But I had to keep going. I loved him more than this. I caressed his skin slowly and moved my hands to his chest. I put my hand on his heart, and I felt it beating underneath. My eyes began filling up with tears of pure love and thankfulness. This heartbeat was my life.