Title: If Tonight
Author: fbi-woman
Rating: K / PG or whatever
Type: MR, Satine's POV
Spoilers: Don't read if you haven't seen the movie; you probably wouldn't understand it anyway lol.
Disclaimer: I own nothing and I'm not claiming to own anything. This is just an original work inspired by a character.
Summary: Takes place before the performance of Spectacular Spectacular. Satine thinks about her life. Yeah I know, the summary stinks lol.
A/N: Um, this is kind of weird for me because I've never liked writing poetry, but I guess I do weird creative things when I'm sleep deprived lol. So yeah, I don't know anything about poetry and I've never written a poem other than what I was forced to do in school, so I'm sorry if it sucks lol. It just kept running through my head this morning, so I thought I'd give it a shot. Anyways, I hope you like it, but if not, oh well, I tried lol. Lots of love, Kelly.
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If Tonight
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I look in the mirror and I hate my reflection
A Hindu courtesan
Dancing toward destruction
In this game
I am only a pawn
I know in my heart that the show must go on
The entire theatre
Is counting on me
To be the star that I wanted to be
A wish has been granted
Of diamonds and wealth
But it's not worth the price of killing myself
All I want is to fly away
To have you to love
For just one more day
I looked in your eyes
And I told you a lie
To spare you the pain of watching me die
Pain grips my chest and I'm gasping for air
I'm calling for help
But there's nobody there
I know I am weak
That the end is near
Dying without you is my only fear
I long for the love I feel when you're near
I'm screaming your name
But no one can hear
I taste the blood
My head is light
I don't know how much longer I can put up a fight
I succumb to the darkness
My friend through and through
But know that my last thoughts are always of you
I'll love you forever
Come what may
I'll love you long after my dying day
I never knew love
Until you came along
I feel that love when I sing our song
I hope in the end
You can understand why
I told such a terrible, heartbreaking lie
If tonight is the night that my journey should end
Please know you were more
Than just my best friend
If tonight is the night that blood douses my light
Please know you will always
Be the love of my life