Hello everyone, I enjoyed writing for the Miraculous Ladybug Fandom so much that I wanted to try again. This time I went with something a little darker. Right now its going to stay as a two chapter one shot. I may add to it later depending on what you guys think. I'll take any feedback or any ideas in the reviews. Let me know what you guy would like to see come out of this and I will try my bet to deliver it for you guys. For now, Auntie Dragneel out.
The Thrill of it All
I see how you look at me, eyes greener than the purest emerald. Mouth curved into the softest of smiles. I can tell how you adore me. I can't though. I don't remember how we got here. Mouths clashing together, tension higher than the tightrope we dance across. I want to be able to love you the way you love me, but I just don't. The damage has been done, I can't go back now. I've done this to you, I let the boy that as under the mask, whoever he may be, fall in love with nothing more than a mask.
If I could take it all back I wouldn't. I couldn't. I'm too selfish. I can't get it from him, so I pull it from you. You were too willing, too broken to see it for what it was when it started. Over time, I saw the light leave your eyes. You let me use you until I was satisfied, I watched your heart break every time we parted ways.
Every time I flee back to my own house and within five minutes you are there. You perch on my balcony, eyes red and puffy, telling me how you let her use you again. Once again you are pouring your heart out to the girl without the mask. I let it pull at my heart strings again and pull you in for a hug. I let you use me, to hold me. You pretend I am her, you use me to pretend she loves you. Just like I use you to pretend he loves me. I still have no idea why you chose me to find comfort in after my other half would leave you in pieces.
If only you knew, the girl who tortures you so and the girl you seek comfort in were one and the same. It makes me sick to think about, how could I just drag you in the mud like that? Tikki tells me it's a bad idea, that I'll only come out more hurt in the end. How can I bring myself to care? I have nothing else to lose. Adrien doesn't look at me the way Chat does, it doesn't matter if I have the mask on or not, he still sees me. With the mask, he sees me with love, without the mask, he sees me with sadness clouding his eyes. With nothing short of loneliness on his face he gazes at me, but at least he sees me. Adrien looks straight through me, at least when I don't have the mask on.
It's a twisted game we play with each other. I use you and in turn you use me. When you come to me as Marinette, you know of my pain. I tell you of Adrien, I tell you how invisible I am to him. In turn, you tell me of Ladybug and how she pulls at your heart strings. Every time you leave, you tell me Adrien will notice me one day, and I tell you that Ladybug will one day stop using you. It makes us both smile for a moment, but deep down I know Ladybug won't stop using you and you can't guarantee that Adrien will notice me.
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