Ciel's Unknown Misery

I don't hate Daniel, but if I had my choice he wouldn't be living with me. I was at a crime seen with Sebastian, and a homeless boy started to follow him. Sebastian didn't seam to mind. He must be around three for four years old. As an Earl, I can't turn away a child or my company will suffer. The demon calls the homeless kid Daniel. I haven't heard him talk at all.

Daniel clings to my butler like a lost puppy. The boy has black hair that's too long- like Sebastian, and smirks-like Sebastian, but he is very short-unlike Sebastian. Daniel is annoyingly needy and has my butler getting this and that for him. So now he and Sebastian are shopping for pants because, "He keeps growing."

I'm drifting through a mall because I don't want to spend the day in toddler department stores them. People are staring at my eye patch. There is no cash in my pocket. I should have stayed home. A photography store is going out of business. I remember when I had first seen a camera. I had to bid on it. They were so much more work back then.

A tea place is giving away free samples. It tastes like hot, liquid crap. I like the tea that Sebastian brings me. Making my way to a Lint Chocolate store I am disappointed to see that there is no samples today.

I can kill some time in the pet store. Oh wait, there isn't one anymore. I wonder what happened to all the animals. Maybe they all got put in a shelter where they could get actual care and a chance at be brought home. I'm already here so I look on a candle cart nearby. There are baskets of candles that people can smell. I open one called Soft Blanket. I would like a soft blanket now. I don't smell anything.

Another one is called Buttermilk. I open the lid and am taken aback by it's aroma. The smell reminds me of something that Sebastian once made for me. I want this candle.

When my butler and Daniel find me, I am a bit surprised by how much they look alike. They aren't done shopping yet and they need to go to another store. When we are there, an overly eager sales women asked Sebastian what we are looking for. She says that it might not be in stock and looks it up. I want to get out of here.

Just when I don't think I could be more miserable for no explicate reason; the radio plays One Direction. Some girl squeals. Boy band fan girls are the worst kind. Whatever the hell pant size Daniel is, it's a hard one to find.

Finally the three of us are in the parking lot. Sebastian smiles when he puts Daniel in he's car seat. The moment Sebastian starts the car I turn on the radio. A Halestorm song comes on. I turn the volume way up. This wakes up a once sleeping Daniel, and makes him cry. The demon turns the radio off. That's not fair! Why does that brat get to decide whether or not I play music?

I slam the door on Sebastian when we get home. Tears don't form in my eyes. Ciel Phamtomhive does not cry over a little boy and a radio. Or a preoccupied butler. He obviously has a cat shaped hole in his heart and is trying to shove a child into it. Don't lie to yourself a voice in my head says. I want it to shut up.

Have I been replaced?

I'm sitting in front of a mirror and stare at my different colored eyes. Normal people don't have a purple pentacle as one eye and another one red. I am a freak among humans and demons. I look at the scares that I got when I was human. The gunshot in my side and the burn from the people that kidnapped me before I contracted Sebastian. I'm a freak to everyone with my discolored eyes and gross scars.
Some one used love me and wanted to marry me, but I died long before that.