"All of the lights land on you
The rest of the world fades from view
And all of the love I see
Please please say you feel it too
And all of the noise I hear inside
Restless and loud, unspoken and wild
And all that you need to say
To make it all go away
Is that you feel the same way too
And I know
The scariest part is letting go
'Cause love is a ghost you can't control
I promise you the truth can't hurt us now
So let the words slip out of your mouth
And all of the steps that led me to you
And all of the hell I had to walk through
But I wouldn't trade a day for the chance to say
My love, I'm in love with you
And I know
The scariest part is letting go
'Cause love is a ghost you can't control
I promise you the truth can't hurt us now
So let the words slip out of your mouth
I know that we're both afraid
We both made the same mistakes
An open heart is an open wound to you
And in the wind of a heavy choice
Love has a quiet voice
Still your mind, now I'm yours to choose
And I know
The scariest part is letting go
Let my love be the light that guides you home
And I know
The scariest part is letting go
'Cause love is a ghost you can't control
I promise you the truth can't hurt us now
So let the words slip out of your mouth"
All I could do is write and write about my love for him… I prayed he felt the way i do. He made me feel like i was floating. He made me happy… He has made my music beautiful. I wouldnt tell him. He'd have to tell me..
"And action!" The director yelled.
"And i know..
The Scariest part is lettin go..
Cause love is a ghost you cant control.
I promise you the truth cant hurt us now….
So let the words slip out of your mouth."
I sang to him he stood in front of me making me feel hot and red through my whole body. I felt red in my cheeks and i had tears in my eyes and he cracked a smile and i giggled as he put a flower in my hair.
"Cut!" The director yelled as he was about to kiss me and i sighed. thought that was our moment. 'Sophs perfect Colin more romantic?" He continued. Now we had a lunch break and i walked away from Colin without a word feeling his eyes on my neck. He had the cutest eyes. I went and grabbed a muffin and went to my dressing room and i sat down and stared at myself in the mirror putting my glasses back on and sighing. the truth was i love him more than anything ive ever loved.
"Action.." Colin was half naked in the bathtub with his boxers and i sat on the edge of the tub and giggled at him as he made a funny face and i shake my head.
"But I wouldn't trade a day for the chance to say
My love, I'm in love with you
And I know
The scariest part is letting go
'Cause love is a ghost you can't control
I promise you the truth can't hurt us now
So let the words slip out of your mouth"
I sang to him as he acted distressed and i wanted to cry and i called cut and ran to my dressing room crying. I heard him.
"Sophie!..." Colin yelled after me and i cried into the pillow more. I held a picture of him and i sitting at our school dance almost 10 years ago he took me as his date and yet he never considered me his girlfriend in highschool.
About an hour later i came out and just went right to singing the song and i finished the part for the day.. I guess he didn't understand that this song that i wrote was about him and i. I look at him only because i had to. As soon as we finished i walk away from the car prop and didn't say anything. He grabbed my hand and pulled away crying again.
"Thank you for this amazing honor… I'd like to thank my producers and my friends and family… But without my prom date this wouldn't have been possible… You know who you are.." I accepted my Emmy crying and looking straight at the camera not at him he sat in the audience while i made my speech. I brought him as my date. "He is my muse…. i don't think he knows.. or understands that all my music is made for him. they all started as me singing them to myself thinking about him. Colin…" I whisper his name at the end and run off stage. I hear his Irish accent behind me.
"Sophie!" His voice echoed and i looked back at him in my mind his shirt was half unbuttoned an he was calling for me over and over. In reality he is looking at me shyly with his one hand reached out for me and his other in his pocket. Also in my mind he pulls out a ring and proposes like i wished he would and he is not so i just keep walking i leave my award with the man and i keep walking i go to my car and sigh i sit and think about him and his call for me echos in my head as i imagine him coming to me and Embracing me telling ' I scariest part is letting go. 'Cause love is a ghost you can't control. I promise you the truth can't hurt us now. So let I the words slip out of my mouth.