I fucked him.
The words rang through my head as I smiled to myself. Poor boy, cried the entire time.
I kept smiling as I turned around on the bed. Shinji Ikari was still curled up naked upon the sheets. I scooted over and spooned up to him. I heard him sniff.
"What is it, Kaworu?" He asked.
I nuzzled into his neck. "Did you not enjoy it, Shinji-kun? You were crying a lot." I tried to keep from smiling this time.
"No, I enjoyed it." Ikari said while loosening his muscles some. "I've just never experienced something like that before."
Now I couldn't keep from laughing. Shinji tensed once more.
"What are you laughing at?" He asked.
"Nothing," I answered, "it's just that you seem scared to talk about it. Like I will be mad at you. Please, Ikari, do not be afraid. Tell me the truth of the act we just committed."
"It's nothing. I'm not mad, Kaworu, it was just slightly painful, that's all." He turned onto his back and looked up at me. He had a look in his eyes, and I took it.
I claimed his lip with mine; ran my hands down his body; took a hold of his manhood on my way back up... it didn't take him long to get hard.
When I broke away from the kiss, he moaned with longing. "You said it was painful, Ikari, do you really want to do it again?" I inwardly smiled, keeping a look of concern upon my face.
He whispered a 'yes' and then there was no turning back. I pinned him to the bed and did whatever I wanted to him. He moaned in pain, lust, and longing when I paused to re-position, and finally in pleasure as he finished on my stomach. It was warm and sticky and I made it a priority to rub it into his skin with my body while I was still on top of him.
I finally got off and laid on my back beside him. He turned again onto his side, his back facing me.
"Ikari?"
"Yes?"
"I love you."
Silence.
"Ikari?" I asked once again.
"Yes?"
"Are you ok?"
Silence.
I sat up and scooted closer to him, placing my hand upon his shoulder. "Tell me what is wrong, Ikari."
"I know, Kaworu."
"I'm sorry?"
"I know what you are." Shinji sat up and looked at me dead on.
I smiled. "You're perceptive, Shinji, I'll give you that. What gave me away?"
"The fact that you were just so good at synchronizing with the Eva. I mean, Misato and the others have told me how easy it is for me to sync with my Eva, but you're ten times greater than me. It's so easy for you, you can't even hide it."
I smiled the entire time he was speaking. "Do you hate me? Are you going to try to destroy me?"
"No, Kaworu, I don't hate you. I'm not going to hurt you. You've made me feel... important in the last few days that I've known you." Shinji said.
I looked down and chucked low. "It's sad that you have that mind set, considering."
"Considering what?" He asked, curiosity peaked.
I looked back up. "Considering only one of us can live."
He paled.
The words rang through my head as I smiled to myself. Poor boy, cried the entire time.
I kept smiling as I turned around on the bed. Shinji Ikari was still curled up naked upon the sheets. I scooted over and spooned up to him. I heard him sniff.
"What is it, Kaworu?" He asked.
I nuzzled into his neck. "Did you not enjoy it, Shinji-kun? You were crying a lot." I tried to keep from smiling this time.
"No, I enjoyed it." Ikari said while loosening his muscles some. "I've just never experienced something like that before."
Now I couldn't keep from laughing. Shinji tensed once more.
"What are you laughing at?" He asked.
"Nothing," I answered, "it's just that you seem scared to talk about it. Like I will be mad at you. Please, Ikari, do not be afraid. Tell me the truth of the act we just committed."
"It's nothing. I'm not mad, Kaworu, it was just slightly painful, that's all." He turned onto his back and looked up at me. He had a look in his eyes, and I took it.
I claimed his lip with mine; ran my hands down his body; took a hold of his manhood on my way back up... it didn't take him long to get hard.
When I broke away from the kiss, he moaned with longing. "You said it was painful, Ikari, do you really want to do it again?" I inwardly smiled, keeping a look of concern upon my face.
He whispered a 'yes' and then there was no turning back. I pinned him to the bed and did whatever I wanted to him. He moaned in pain, lust, and longing when I paused to re-position, and finally in pleasure as he finished on my stomach. It was warm and sticky and I made it a priority to rub it into his skin with my body while I was still on top of him.
I finally got off and laid on my back beside him. He turned again onto his side, his back facing me.
"Ikari?"
"Yes?"
"I love you."
Silence.
"Ikari?" I asked once again.
"Yes?"
"Are you ok?"
Silence.
I sat up and scooted closer to him, placing my hand upon his shoulder. "Tell me what is wrong, Ikari."
"I know, Kaworu."
"I'm sorry?"
"I know what you are." Shinji sat up and looked at me dead on.
I smiled. "You're perceptive, Shinji, I'll give you that. What gave me away?"
"The fact that you were just so good at synchronizing with the Eva. I mean, Misato and the others have told me how easy it is for me to sync with my Eva, but you're ten times greater than me. It's so easy for you, you can't even hide it."
I smiled the entire time he was speaking. "Do you hate me? Are you going to try to destroy me?"
"No, Kaworu, I don't hate you. I'm not going to hurt you. You've made me feel... important in the last few days that I've known you." Shinji said.
I looked down and chucked low. "It's sad that you have that mind set, considering."
"Considering what?" He asked, curiosity peaked.
I looked back up. "Considering only one of us can live."
He paled.