Hello,you can kill me for not updating my other fanfictions but when you hear my reasoning, you may change your mind. I have no motivation for them anymore. Why? Well, nobody reviews anymore. What's the point in updating if nobody tells me what they like and dislike, whether or not they want me to continue. So here is the deal: You review my stories and I'll update them faster. If not, I'll delete them. I don't even mind flames at this point.
~Ttcf.
(P.s, Told in Alois's POV)
Not so oblivious
You all think I'm stupid, don't you? You think I don't know the things that you do. You all think I'm an oblivious, naïve child that can't see the blatant truth. I know that is true for you, Claude, you don't think I noticed the look on your face when you tasted his blood, or how after that how you ignored me, lost in its taste. I know the thoughts that ran through your head, and I knew from that point, that it was only a matter of time before we were brought to this. But I tried to convince myself otherwise. How foolish I have been.
I tried to preserve the image that you could do no wrong, that you would never betray me, or leave my side. But I knew otherwise. I knew that given the chance, you'd kill me in a heartbeat. Well, not a heartbeat; you don't have a heart. And just like every other of your imperfections, I overlooked it, like the desperate child I am. I suppose I wanted you to have a heart because it would mean that you could love. That you could love me. Maybe I am stupid, after all I thought a demon could love. How blind have I been?
Ciel, I can't describe what I feel about you. When Claude told me it was Sebastian who killed Luka and he was in a contract with you, I knew he was lying. But I wanted to get close to you. You had suffered so much, like me and so I only wanted us to be friends, honestly. But, when I realised that Claude had stolen your soul, I knew that he had only wanted you. I was just, what you would call, his pawn in a well played chess game. I tried to tell you, Ciel, but you had such faith in Sebastian I knew you wouldn't listen to me. And now here I am. Dying slowly, waiting for Claude to finish me.
Sebastian. Regardless of whether or not you killed Luka, I still hate you. I hate you for not taking Ciel's soul when you had the chance. I hate you for lying to him, in turn ruining my own life. You really are selfish you know? Though I can't blame you, after all you have his soul and his love, even If he doesn't know it himself yet.
You all thought I was stupid, that I didn't know you goals, what you thought was true. You didn't think that I knew what thought of me. I suppose it was true, in a way. I just wanted to feel loved, that same overpowering love that Luka felt for me and that I returned. But none of that matters now. Claude has my soul, entrapped in my own ring and Hannah has stolen my eye per our own agreement. I spoke to her before this. And now, we are going wreak our revenge upon you.
I'm not so oblivious now, am I?
I wrote this after a conversation with a friend of mine about Alois's intelligence. I believe that behind all of his…Oddness, he is a rather intelligent boy who just denies the obvious as he wishes it was not true. After all, we all do that, it is what makes us human. Please review, because I will just stop writing eventually. I do plan to rewrite all my old Fanfictions, but I'm not doing anything until I see people actually care.