I wanted to send her flowers.
I didn't know what she would like.
Flowers have meanings, did you know that?
Like a each color of a rose had a meaning.
I always thought they were just these beautiful, delicate things.
They were something that made people smile.
Oh, how I love to see her smile.
So, I looked up flower meanings.
I looked up roses but those were too common, I thought.
Not for someone so special and unique.
It was her eyes that spoke to me.
In them, I could see our past together and the promise of a future yet to be.
Maybe it was too soon to think of the future and my place in it but I was hoping I was part of it.
I wanted to be there to witness her blooming into the most magnificent woman.
I wanted to be there to see her realize her greatness.
Because, wow, she didn't know how she decimated me.
I can't really describe how she makes me feel but I'll try.
You know how you have to go the eye doctor every year for a check up?
And they make you look at all these things.
Some you can see, others are too far away.
Some are fuzzy and some are blurry.
Then, like a magic, they make the right combination.
"Voila!" you can see clearly.
That's what it feels like.
She shook me awake from a slumber I didn't know I was in.
She makes all the colors brighter.
How can I encapsulate all of these feelings into one bouquet of flowers?
After much research, I decided on a mixed bouquet:
lavender for devotion
white jasmine for sweet love
red camellia for your significant other, meaning "my destiny is in your hands"
I went to my local florist and she made me my bouquet.
I think I impressed her with my knowledge.
She gave me the card to write.
I knew what I wanted it to say:
Q- Happy 1st Valentine's Day. I love you more today than yesterday. -S
And, just like that, they would be in her arms my the end of the day.
Our first Valentine's day together.
I used to hate this holiday.
I think I was bitter because I never had a Valentine.
This year, I did have one and she is the best one I could have ever wished for.
My Quinn.