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Joining My Angel
I looked up at the ever bright sun from my eternal space in the shadows. It was so bright, so welcoming, so like my beautiful Bella. So like she had been in her life. The life that I had taken away from her. The life that meant more to me than anything else in the world. I had left her to give her back the life that I had no right to, but she didn't accept it. Instead she'd willing left it. Willingly plunged herself into the eternal darkness of death.
My unbeating heart seized in my chest. It hurt to think of her, pulled under the by the angry waters. The waves pushing and pulling, fighting over who should have the final claim on her. But they were wrong. No one and nothing could claim my Bella. She was meant to be free.
I supposed that's what she is now. She's found freedom from the bondage of the world that keeps us apart. And I have made my decision. I will follow her. This world is empty without the light that she provides. The light so much like the sun.
I looked back up at the closest of the stars, knowing that it would bring me closer to my Bella. It's beautiful warmth, a bridge to the only thing I've ever truly wanted.
The clock from the tower above me began to chime. BONG-BONG-BONG-BONG-BONG-BONG-BONG-BONG-BONG-BONG-BONG. One more hour.
I didn't want to wait that long, but I knew I should. I was doing this for her, hoping that she would see. Praying that she would know that I was doing this for her and her alone. I wanted her to see the sparkle of my skin from the heaven in which she resided. That left me with no choice. At noon, she would see the brightest of suns reflected from my skin, as would all of Voltera. I would hide no longer.
I felt an odd peace overtake me. After over half a year's separation, I would be with her again soon. A small smile played across my lips as I let every facet of my mind fill with her presence. The sweet smell that was a combination of strawberries, lavender, and Bella. Her luminous skin that was beautiful under the sun and exquisite under the moon. How soft and warm her skin felt under my fingers and lips. How I wished I could have spent more time memorizing the shape and feel of her body. The feel of the silken strands of hair that adorned her magnificent head. The beautiful sea of red and brown that splayed across her pillow as she slept peacefully.
I closed my eyes and groaned as I let the image of her sleeping fill my mind. The way her plump red lips would form around my name as she dreamed of a future that I had taken away from her. A family that we were both now leaving behind. I choked on emotion and tears that I could no longer shed as I remembered that first night that she'd asked me to stay. The way she'd whispered her love for me over and over and over again. I had gently kissed her in her sleep that night, as I would most nights for the rest of the time we'd spent together. Stolen kisses from willing lips. They'd been so soft, so pliant against mine. Ever tempting me to push farther, to take more.
With each passing minute, the calm I felt increased. My body knew that I would be with Bella soon. I even felt a dim electric tingle across my skin, a true sign that she was close to me. It wouldn't be much longer now.
I glanced out at a family nearby. They were everything that I had wanted with Bella. I wanted to be able to give her that life. I would have given anything to become human and grow old with her, have children that would have her eyes.
Her eyes. Those beautiful deep, chocolate brown pools of emotion. I could read everything in those eyes. The first time we'd met, they'd contained fear and intrigue. She'd wanted to know me. Even without knowing her mind, I could see that. I'd wanted to use it. I'd wanted to rid the world of the torture that she'd inflicted on me. Now I do anything to have such a torture, just to know that she still lived.
As we'd grown closer, the fear changed and dimmed. Though it was always there, hidden beneath the love and the lust, it was still there. I bowed my head knowing the fear that she felt and I'd fed. She feared that she'd lose me. That I'd reject her love. And I had. I'd watched all the light in her beautiful doe like eyes fade that day in the forest. Part of me wondered if she'd ever gained back even a fraction of that light. Who had been the person to see the light's return? Who had been so lucky as to see a true smile again? Had anyone bothered to make her life livable again, or had the damage and hurt I'd inflicted only been the beginning?
I did not deserve Bella. It was something I'd always known, but it didn't prevent what I was going to do now. I was going to be with her again. I could feel her with me. The tingle on my skin had grown stronger as the time passed. Each passing second increased the sensation. She was with me, guiding me to her. She knew what I wanted, and she wasn't going to leave me alone any longer. She wanted us to be together again as well. She wanted our eternity, our forever.
More people had gathered in the crowded plaza. It was merely minutes away now. I knew the clock would chime noon in less than ten minutes. The sun was nearly at the center of the sky. My stage was nearly complete. This would be my greatest and final scene. And I knew that Bella was here to watch it. I could sense her so much closer than she'd been in half a year.
I began to pull the hem of my white cotton shirt form my black pants. The cotton was soft between my fingers, but it was nothing compared to the feel of Bella's skin. I slipped each button through the slits cut for them slowly. I was setting my scene with care, with Bella as my on intended audience. She would see. She would understand.
I let the shirt slide from my shoulders and down my arms. It fluttered through the air, and landed in a pile on the cold ground behind me. Just like when we were in the meadow, I was exposing myself to her. Everything I'd done was for her, and now she would know.
I closed my eyes, not wanting to see the people around me anymore. I just wanted to see her. Nothing else mattered anymore. Nothing else had mattered since that fateful moment that she stepped into Mr. Banner's biology class. It had been the most important and pivotal moment in my immortal life. More important than the day that Carlisle took me from the hospital in Chicago. More important than the day that I returned to him, bent on caging the monster within. It was the changing moment in my life, the moment that jolted my dead heart.
I breathed a sigh of relief. The feel of Bella's presence was increasing quickly. It felt almost as if she was running toward me at her clumsy human pace. It felt as if she were closer now than she'd been that day when she'd been across the parking lot and Tyler's van had nearly crushed her. It was a distance that had taken me a mere second to cross. The distance I could feel between us now would take less time. I'd find her soon, and we'd never be separated again.
I latched on to that feel of her. Used it to block out the thoughts of those around me, human and vampire alike. Felix and Demitri were close, ready to kill me the moment I stepped into the sun. It was what I was hoping for. I didn't want to live without Bella, and their violent natures would connect me to my heart, my soul, my Bella for eternity.
The plaza was suddenly filled with deafening noise of the clock tower. BONG-BONG. I smiled as my mind pulled out the greatest gift it could give me. The sound of Bella's voice calling to me over and over again. "Edward!" she shouted in my mind. It was a siren's call, and I was going to answer. BONG-BONG-BONG. She called to me again, the sound much strong, accompanied by a waft of the scent that was my Bella. "Edward!" BONG-BONG-BONG. My name fell from my angel's lips again and again and again. Each time it was louder, drawing me closer to her. "Edward, no!" She sounded defeated. It tore at my heart. Thechimes came from the tower above me. BONG-BONG.
She was so close now. I felt as though I could reach out and touch her. I sighed and turned my palms out. I wanted to feel the warmth of the sun, so much like my Bella, in every way possible. I wanted to feel her. The warmth of the sun and her voice called to me. I was ready now. Everything was perfectly set for the final scene of my miserably lonely life. Nothing would separate me from my Bella now.
I took a step forward, drawn by the call of my love. The warmth of her soul so close, reaching for me. I knew she was reaching for me just as I was reaching for her, and we would meet in the middle. "No! Edward look at me!" She called out to me. I could deny her nothing any more. I felt the corner of my lips cur up as more images of my Bella flooded my mind. I looked at her, seeing her for what I prayed would not be the last time.
I lifted my foot to take the final step across the barrier between the sun and the shade. I was ready to leave my curtain and face my audience. It was time. The clock had stopped chiming and the play was about to end.
Before I'd even completed the step, she hit me. I knew it was her. Nothing felt the way that she did pressed against my body. I caught her and held her to me. It was done. I'd done it. I'd ended the terrible life that I'd created for myself, and now I was with my love again. I looked down. She was so beautiful.
I held her close, unable to believe that my tainted soul could have reached the heaven that embodied Bella's. " Amazing. Carlisle was right"
Her lips were parted as she breathed heavily. She opened her mouth, forming my name with her lips, but no sound came forth. She looked so flustered, so human, so beautiful.
I was suddenly grateful for the tyrannical ways of the Volturi. For now, here in my arms, was my angel. "I can't believe how quick it was. I didn't feel a thing. They're very good."
I closed my eyes and lowered my head to her silky hair. "Death, that hath sucked the honey of thy breath, hath had no power yet upon thy beauty." I kiss in the silky strands, so real, and inhaled deeply. "You smell just exactly the same as always. So maybe this is hell. I don't care. I'll take it."
My angel finally spoke. Her voice washing over me, cleansing me of my sins. "I'm not dead. And neither are you. Please, Edward, we have to move. They can't be far away."
I was so enthralled by the sound of her voice that I barely registered her words. They made no sense. They'd come out distressed. No angel should be distressed when she has reached heaven. I must not have heard her correctly. "What was that?"
Her eyes sparked with fear. A fear that was so much like the fear the day that I'd left her to hunt James. It wasn't a fear for herself, it was a fear for me. She was afraid for me. Why would my angel fear when we were finally together again? "We're not dead, not yet. But we have to get out of here before the Volturi…"
Her words broke through my haze. The voices that I'd shut out of my head came back in a rush. Demitri and Felix were closing in on us. We were not in heaven. We were in my own personal hell. Yes, Bella was alive. And my rash behavior had again put her in danger. I tighten my grasp on her and pulled her farther into the shadows, farther from the light in which she was meant to reside. I was selfish, and I was going to drag her further into my world. There was nothing I could do anymore.
I pushed her behind me, they would not get her. I had no right to, but I was too weak to stop myself. I was claiming her. She was mine and no one else would get her.
AN: I've been thinking about doing something like this for a while. Please let know if you like the way that I've done this. I'm willing to do more scenes. If you think I should do more scenes, leave suggestions of which ones you'd like to see.