DISCLAIMER
Since we are young girls society filled our heads with the idea of true love, thatour prince charming is coming, and we wait and wait for that day. It doesn't really help that one teacher, Kurenai, in one of her classes told us that we souldn't go with the first guy that says tell us pretty things, that we have to keep looking for our prince charming because he is also looking for us. Well I was in middle school, in an all girls school and the most important thing... I was in love with the idea of love.
As years pass by and I grew, I understad that true love doesn't exist, it is all an illusion that we create. Kiba was the one that tought me that. I changed schools in high school, I was finally with guys and he was thee one that treat me like a person. I totally fell for him, but he didn't give a damn about me. Three years that was the time I was after him begging him to love me, finally he began dating my friend Tamaki and in that moment everything was clear to me, love exists maybe but just for the lucky ones.
When I turned 20 I moved to Konoha, that was were I met them, the guys that maybe doubt about my relationship with cupid.
First it was Naruto Uzumaki, since the moment I saw him he just got my attention. He is tall, handsome he has beautiful blue eyes were you can drown in, he always made me laugh, he was perfect except for one thing... his girlfriend. I didn't knew about her until a friend, Sakura, told me about her. He always deny her o avoided talking about her when I am around. I don't even knoe her name, the only thing I know is that she is my neighbor.
Then there is Toneri, he is HOT and handsome and a big ass. Things with him are weird, he knows I like him, and likes the idea. He look for me but we just talked a little begore he shut me out. He always was weird, I noticed that he would always look for me, he was everywhere I went and stuff like that. I told my bestie Temari and she told that he liked me but not for a romantic relationship and let me tell you he was just so hot that I would say yes.
Naruto and I quockly became friends, but I noticed that he was also a little weird around me at first we didn't talk much, we just exchanged a few words but he just looked at me a lot, I remember there was the usual gang and a friend told us no to date each other and he just looked at me. Then my cousin Neji told me to ignore him all day, and I did it. He was like so anxious all day, just looking for my attention. Either way it doesn't matter, he had a girlfriend. My friend Sakura, also was something important in this equation. She told me she didn't like Naruto but she acted like she did, she just confused me, but whatever if it is meant to happen will happen that's what Temari always tell me.
Something a little weird I noticed is that when Toneri is involved Naruto is always a little hostile. When I look at Toneri he gets mad, one day I even asked him to teach me to play pool and he didn't accept, because I wanted to learn because "that jerk Toneri".
Also Toneri is weird when Naruto is involved he just gets mad and is like I don't exist. One day Toneri was passing by my classroom and I was at the door and it was such an intense moment we made eye contact and I feel he told me I know you like me and I like that, and for the first time I didn't look away.
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Well that is a little introduction of my inexistent and complicated love life. Right now I am with the gang drinking, I feel a little drunk so I decided to stop. Everyone wants Naruto and Sakura to kiss, they say they don't want to do it but I don't know what to think. The time to come home finally comes, I didn't bring my car, so I decided to ask Naruto for a ride.
- Hey! Naruto- I call him
-Yes Hinata- he responds with his big grin
-Don't you want to go visit your girlfriend? And take me home on your way there?- either way we are neighbors.
He seems to doubt a little and when I am about yo call an Uber he tells me -Ok, I'll take you home- I smiled at him as I get into the passenger seat.
The ride was a silent one neither of us had anything to say. When we finally arrived I saw the pool and it looked so calming
-Can you leave me by the pool?- I asked him, he look a little confused but he did it.
When he parked the car I went directly to the pool but it was closed so I just lay down beside it, I let the sound of the water calm me and the silence consume me.
-Are you ok?- Naruto brought me back, I thought he was gone by now.
-Yeah, why?- I slowly opened my eyes and looked at him
-You look sad, so different from the Hinata I know, why you don't wanna be home?- I gave him a sad smile
-You know, I always try to be happy and perfect, but my life is far from that. Neji is so hard to deal with- my eyes watered - I miss my father and my sister, It is so hard being on my own- I felt a warm hand on my face, I started crying- I feel so alone sometimes, I wanna go back, but then I remember why I came in the first place.-
He gave me a soft smile, it warmed me all inside, the feeling I buried a long time ago it was there again. I remember what Nejit old me once "He is just not that into you" I wish he was.
-You are not alone Hinata, I am here. We are friends and I will always support you- I don't want to be your friend, why do you thibk I always help you with homework, or to study or pass you the notes. I wanna hate you but I can't, in fact I hide the fact that I like you being rude to you, why can't you just break up with her and be with me.
I wish that what Temari and my cousin said would come true, and we ended up toguether. I wish I was the one in your heart. Toneri is just a whim I don't really like him like I like you. But there is not only your girlfriend on the way, there is also Sakura that I don't know how she trully feels or how you feel about her.
We just stay there a few more minutes or hours I don't really know or care. I wish I could tell you this but I know I can't.
-Hina, I have to go now, it's almost 2 am- wow, we were there in silence for a long time -Are you gonna be alright?- He looks concerned, I smile at him and I get up
-Yeah, I should get home too- I offer him my hand so he can get up.
-You want me to take you?-
-No, don't worry. The night air will be good-
-Ok, take care Hina, I'll see you on monday- He says as we get to his car, he gives me a smile and a kiss on the cheek and he get on his car and I watch him go along with my feelings and thoughts that he will never know.
As I get home and lay on my bed I couldn't help but think about him again.
-Just stop it Hinata, he won't leave her. You will always be his friend nothing more.-
And with that thought I close my eyes and go to sleep.
Hi! Well I hoped you liked this little story I made. English is not my first language so I am sorry if something sounds weird.
This is based on my life the first part is 100% my actual situation and the second part has some things that are true but I aded a little on my own.
If you want to know more about Toneri or Naruto as in the story full of details let me know! Also tell me your opinion. Peace!