I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold, it's making me insane…
"Traitor! You fucking traitor!" Those traumatic words echoed in her head. I shook my head vigorously, trying to remove them. But no matter how hard I tried, I failed every time. My legs were now becoming exhausted from tremendous running I was putting my body through. But there was no other option, I had to run. It was my only salvation… Besides I had no where else to call 'home' now…
I've been waiting here so long
Another moment seems to have come
I see the dark clouds coming up again
I could hear the crash of the waves so near now. I could see the broken down carnival rides coming into sight. I allowed my face to crack the tiniest smile through this miserable day…
"What are you talking about? I'm the most loyal person on this whole team!" I screamed back. All of them circled me with angered faces; boy if looks could kill, I would have had dropped dead already… "We're talking about you screwing up our missions and letting your precious Kid Flash escape every fucking single time you backstabber!" Gizmo screeched. I opened my mouth, but the words would not come out… Probably because it was true… I backed up, trying to run away from Gizmo's deadly stare as he walked towards me. But it was no use; I walked right into a cold hard wall. "Lie. Just lie Jinx" my conscious told me. I gulped and thought about weather or not I could pull it off. I glanced at every one, and from the looks of it; it was my only option. "I-I don't know what you're talking about Gizmo…" It came out more like a scared whisper unintentionally, but it was better than nothing. His eyes were now blazing, his face fumed of red; in a few seconds I was sure he would either explode or pass out. "You armpit licking liar you know exactly what the fuck I'm talking about!" he screamed. Even though he was the shortest team member, his voice shook throughout the room. It attacked my ears violently, making me wince. I'm screwed now, I'm completely screwed! "They don't have proof" the voice reminded.
My nerves calmed down for a second, realizing it was true. No proof, no way he was right. "You have no proof of this Gizmo!" I yelled, regaining my voice. See-more stomped his way ahead of Gizmo, stepping toe-to-toe with me. "Oh really? Well explain this you filthy whore!" He threw a crumbled of piece of paper at me. I was too much in shock to pick it up for a moment. He called me a whore! See-more! The quietest person on this whole team called me a filthy whore! I kept my eyes, being careful of any unfair attacking from either one of them, and reached down to pick up the trashed paper. I unfolded the paper to reveal; it was one of the many art works I had made of me and Kid Flash… This one in particular was based on a dream I had of us both lying on the sandy beach in each other's arms. "Yupp…you're screwed now" the voice taunted.
I shut my eyes tight and clenched my jaw tight; grinding my teeth hard. I inhaled an angry breath in, and let it out slowly. "Where did you get this?" I asked through my teeth. "Your room, where else you fucking backstabbing slut?" See-more answered in a sarcastic tone he never used with anyone. He would never get this upset about anything, so I'm guessing this whole situation really bothered him the most out of anyone. "You guys, it's not what you think…I'm selling you guys out for Kid Flash. All of you got it wrong…" I tried to reassure. I tried my best to make my face look believable. All of their glares told me they weren't buying into this bullshit. I stared carefully at each one of them slowly, studying their faces if any of them were willing to accept an apology from me if that's what It would come to it. None of them looked like they were ready to forgive me any time soon. The sharp hard pain of a hand across my face made me fall back and hit the thud with a furious thud. I held my hand to my injured cheek, and looked up to see that it was Gizmo who had struck me. Once the shock left, a wash of rage was filling me now. I stood up and held my arm out, waiting for my hexes to fill this room and leave it all in ruins. But to my fear, nothing happened. I looked at my hand, and flung it out once more; this time more concentrated. But once again nothing happened. I stared at my hands, they were now trembling in fear. "My powers…" I whispered. Gizmo's irritating laugh that tried to hard to sound evil filled the room.
I glared at him, knowing he was behind this. I took him by the collar of his suit and picked him up off the floor with no trouble. "WHAT DID YOU DO TO MY POWERS YOU SHORT BASTARD!" I screeched into his face. He smirked in a sadistic way, "I built a barrier in this whole tower that make your powers vulnerable against it. So as long as you're here, Jinxy can't use her stupid useless hexes" he teased. My jaw fell a slightly bit, but soon clenched itself. I clutched him tighter, digging my nails into his flesh. He began to squirm, so I threw him fiercely against the wall with no regret. I quickly attacked him, connecting straight punches to his hideous face before the rest of them could stop me. I wrapped my hands around his tiny neck, not allowing one ounce of air to be entered into his system. Rage had controlled me now, and I was loosing every bit of sanity I had left. Suddenly I was pulled off Gizmo, and I was lifted up in the air; and was quickly introduced with the cold floor. I moaned in pain, but that would be the first of many…Soon I was attacked my almost anything you can name. I felt the hard slaps and smacks, the painful kicks, the hits of various weapons and powers they all possessed. It felt like hours before they all stopped to catch their breaths, and finally spoke their final words, "Leave you no good whore." "We don't want you here any more!" "You don't deserve to be in the HIVE!" "You miserable ungrateful bitch I hope you rot!" I used the very last bit of strength I had to prop myself up, and to look at Gizmo more who was standing in front of me. I bet he felt like the biggest man in the world now that I could longer defend myself. His lips were formed in a disgusting grin, his eyes were beaming from joy. "This is your first and last warning Jinx, if we ever see you again, it'll be the last day you'll live. Understood?" After the events of tonight, it was crystal clear. I nodded, and put my head down. "Now leave before we change our minds!" he threatened. I could after tonight, he would be the new leader; just like he always wanted. It took a while for me to stand up, but I did it as fast I could; not wanting another unfair beating. I walked myself to my room, trying my best to quicken my pace. I grabbed my most essential things, packed them and made my way towards the exit. They were all there with happy grinning faces; anticipating for my leaving. I sighed and walked to the door, not bothering to make eye contact with any of them. The door was opened, exposing the view of a dark night that waited me…
Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world till the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm into the blue
I stared out into the ocean as I leaned against the wooden railings of the dock. I inhaled the sweet smell of the water; a mix of sorrow and comfort. It made a tear be released from my eye and fall into the crashing waves. I looked up to see the clouds concealing the stars that tried hard to reveal themselves tonight. I remembered the last time I was here. It was before people from the HIVE had found me. I remember always sitting on the top of the Ferris Wheel, looking out into the waters of the dark stormy nights. At that time I spend nights thinking of how I was so lonely… with no family… or anything at least. These memories only made the tears harder to hold back. I turned around and walked away from the dock. "What am I suppose to do now?"
"Well what the fuck do you think? You have no home, no shelter, no protection. There's nothing you can do!"
It was funny how the voice in my head was somehow more cruel than helping. Maybe that's why I was so good at being a villain. Well that was till I met Kid Flash…
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon just me and you
I sighed. I wonder what Kid Flash is doing right now… "Why should that even matter? Your beloved Kid Flash isn't here, so obviously that means he doesn't care about you!" The sudden words struck me, making me stop in my tracks. I narrowed my eyes, and clenched my fists. "You're wrong" I hissed. "Oh really? If I am, then why didn't he show up when you were getting your ass kicked by your team? Huh?" I bit my lip, keeping myself from crying anymore. I searched my mind for any understandable excuse, but there was none that I could come up with. "That's exactly what I thought. Your team doesn't want you. Kid flash doesn't want you. Just admit, this world doesn't want you."
A half moon fading from my sight
I see your vision in its light
But now it's gone and left me so alone
"Just shut the fuck up!" I yelled. My breath was now becoming quicker, and my heart was accelerating too fast. "Jinx look at yourself, you're a living threat to everyone. What you need to do is end it right hear, right now."
I know I have to find you now
Can hear your name I don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home
I shook my head, "No, I-I-I c-cant" I was now trembling everywhere just at the thought. "Do you need encouragement? If your amazing Kid Flash does care, why don't you call out his name. Then we'll see who is right." I couldn't think straight. My own thoughts were even being spied on. There wasn't anywhere I could think just alone in the comfort of my own privacy. "Do it. Prove me wrong little Jinxy." I gulped.
Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world to the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm into the blue
"Kid Flash!" I yelled. I stared out in fear throughout the view of my surroundings. "Kid Flash!" I screamed. "Kid Flash please come!" I kept staring around for any sign of him. But all I came up with was nothing. I inhaled deeply one last time, "'KID FLASH!" This time my voice was loud enough to echo away. It was silent after. I was waiting for his arrival that would rescue me. Sadly nothing appeared; leaving me with no choice.
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon
"What did I tell you?" I looked down and shut my eyes tight, not willing to let myself break down. "You might as well give it up and do it. No one wants you" The voice kept reminding. I dug my nails into my skin, bit my lip hard; doing anything to stop me from sobbing anymore. I nodded, "You're right" I whispered. "Like always." I looked over to the Ferris Wheel that ironically was too near the dock. I smiled, "You think what I'm thinking?" "Of course."
I'm fighting all this power coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you
I'll be running night and day
I ran toward the gigantic tall ride with new found intentions. Once I had reached it, I climbed my way up carefully; grabbing tight of each bar that connected the whole contraption together. "I'm glad you finally saw things my way." I rolled my eyes, "Don't push it" I warned. I looked toward the watery dark waves that I would soon take my leap of death into. My eyes were soon tempted to look down. The height was much more than I imagined. I gulped, it had look like 8 stories from where I was. And I hadn't even reached the top yet. "Oh stop being a chicken and hurry up!" I gulped and listened to its orders and continued my journey up. In a nick of time I was on tippy top. The view was incredibly glorious; just as she remembered when she was younger. She looked around to see the entire city. She smiled, "Bye cruel world." She flung her hands up high, sending multiple hexes. She kept throwing hex after hex till she grew tired. She was out of breath, but was soon excited once she heard the joyful sound that she anticipated; the violent thunder roared across the sky. So violent it shook the ground a bit. I then threw many hexes toward the ocean, hoping something more wild than the thunder. I was right; the waves were growing dangerously gigantic. I laughed happily; it was time. "Well it was nice knowing you" I said. "You too Jinx"
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon
I neared the edge, preparing myself. I had my arms straight out, and a smile on my face. Hey no more pain right? The wave was coming my way; making my heart flutter. Just like it would flutter when I would see Kid Flash.
Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
The wave was now seconds away. I stepped closer towards the edge; I was now centimeters away.
"Now!"
I flung myself, using my last breath to speak the words I never thought I would say.
"I love you Kid Flash!"
It wasn't long before I hit the water, the current was unbelievably strong. But I did not bother struggling. I let myself be dragged around like a torn up rag doll. Soon my mouth and nose inhaled the icy cold waters. It traveled like venom through my whole system. I could not tell if I was finally slipping away, or if it was just too dark. Waves crashed against me, fueling the pain once again. I smiled, knowing it would end all soon. My thoughts were now running freely; scanning every detail of my life. It all flashed before eyes, like a movie. My eyes could no longer stay open. A dark heavy feeling came over me, taking me down. I was weaker by the second. I opened my eyes one last time seeing, something so…so beautiful. I saw two crystal sky blue jewels. They were mixed with a color of red. I could feel being lifted, but I just assumed it was my soul leaving my body. Pitch black darkness was all I saw now… "Good-bye world" I whispered.
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon
Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you…