Summary:

Bella left her troubled life in Forks to live with her mom Renee. However, why after a year is she now back? Why is she so guarded and bitchy all the time? And more importantly, how will she deal with her ex-boyfriend Edward who broke her heart?

AN: This is my first fan fiction. Please read and review! Thanks! 

And I do not own Twilight or any of the character 

SOMETHINGS YOU CANNOT FORGIVE OR FORGET

Chapter One:

BPOV:

It has been one year since I left the small town of Forks, Washington and all its residents in the most horrible of circumstances. On the flight back to the muggy, rainy town I repetitively told myself that the old, nice, caring Isabella no longer existed—in her place was the new cruel and bitchy Isabella. I simply dealt with too many tragic and horrible things in the last twelve months to ever by the same loving Bella I once was. My heart had been shattered too many times.

FLASHBACK:

It was a surprisingly warm and dry day in Forks and I couldn't think of not spending it with the love of my life Edward Cullen and his siblings. Figuring I would surprise Edward, I drove my old red Chevy truck to his house. Arriving, I quickly and quietly walked up to Edward's room oblivious that I would hate the sight in his room.

As I approached, I heard faint female moaning sounds and a male say "I love you." Unsure of what exactly was happening in his room, I quickly ran and opened the door, and screamed. In his room, a nude Lauren was straddling a nude Edward whist he laid on his black sofa.

At the sight of my first love—my true love—cheating on me with the school slut, my eyes filled with anger and confusion and I ran out of the house, into my car, and sped home. Edward, to engrossed with his current activity, never even looked up.

END FLASHBACK

Oh how my heart shattered when I realized that every time that Edward had even said those three words—I love you—he never really meant them, it was simply a lie. Our whole relationship was a lie.

Edward Cullen never loved me.

I remember later that night when Edward came over to my house continuing the charade that he actually loved me, acting as if he had done nothing wrong that day.

FLASHBACK:

"Hey Beautiful," Edward said.

"Never call me Beautiful ever again BASTARD!" I yelled.

"What is wrong with you Bella?" Edward asked as he came over to sit next to me on my bed, a worried expression plastered across his face.

"Do not come near me again. I know about your affair with Jessica Stanely! Who do you think I am some foolish little girl who you can lie to and cheat on!" I yelled as tears swiftly fell down my cheeks.

"Did Alice finally tell you?" He questioned, hurt and sorrow clearly evident in his dazzlingly green eyes.

"WHAT ALICE—MY BEST FRIEND—KNEW THAT YOU WERE CHEATING ON ME AND NEVER TOLD ME!!" I could no longer control myself. How could by true love and my best friend both lie to me. More and more tears fell down my face until a lake of sorrow had collected on my bed sheet. "No Edward, my ex-best friend did not tell me. I came over to surprise you today and found you two having sex on your couch!" I screamed.

"Oh, I am so sorry Bella. I can explain everything."

"Edward, I am not interested in your explanations just get the hell out of my house and never come back. I never want to see you or your siblings ever again. You broke my heart Edward, and for that I will hate you forever."

"Bella I really do love you."

"Stop lying to me, stop lying to yourself," I mumbled through saturated sobs. As he got up to leave, a single tear fell down his beautiful face, leaving me to cry myself to sleep.

END OF FLASHBACK

That was the last time I saw Edward Cullen the ex-love of my life.

Later that night, Charlie found me in my bedroom crying profusely.

FLASHBACK

"Bella, what is wrong with you?" Charlie asked as he sat next to me on my bed, attempting to hug me.

"Its Edward dad, he broke my heart. I just don't know if I can face him or any of the Cullens again. I think I need to go live with Renee for a little while. I know you may not want me to leave, but Edward was the love of my life, and I am simply just too broken to stay in this town. Everything reminds me of what we used to have."

"No I understand Bella. Why don't you pack up your belongings while I call and schedule your flight to Jacksonville for tomorrow." As he said this, I could sense the sadness that laced each word. It really hurt me to hurt Charlie like this, but there was no other way. The next day I left for Jacksonville, kissing Forks, Washington goodbye.

END OF FLASHBACK

The first few months with my mom Renee and her husband Phil were difficult, but I got through them. However, when I thought that I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel, tragedy hit.

I refuse to remember that night—that night when my precious mother was murdered right in front of me by none other than kind-hearted Phil. I refuse to remember how after slashing my mother's throat he kicked her lifeless body out of the way in order to make his way toward me. I refuse to remember how my mother's blood dripped off the knife onto the white linoleum floor which each step Phil made. I refuse to remember how we struggled for the knife leaving a scar across my chest and him in a body bag; however, there are just some things you never forget.

Because of that night, my father placed in a psychiatric hospital hoping that with time and help, I could learn to cope with the tragedies I had suffered in the last year. Charlie was right, the hospital did help a little bit, but I felt confined in there, and needed to break free. After about two months in the hospital, I finally convinced Charlie to let me come live with him back in Forks again. Although I despised Forks, anything was better than that hospital.

So here I now am: a new guarded and bitchy Bella, who does not care about anything anymore, going back to the city filled with people I hate. I hope that I can make Edward and his siblings feel an ounce of the hurt and sorrow I currently feel. Old Bella is long gone.

AN: Thanks for reading and please review. I want to know your thoughts on the story. Plus the more reviews, the earlier I post the next chapter which has an Edward/Bella scene in it. Lol

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