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Title: Recreate Me
Author: Rbabe500...But you can call me Talon. ^^
Disclaimer: I dun own Yu-Gi-Oh. Still. Despite my many attempts to steal it. Which resulted in me getting in some trouble. Which is the REAL reason why this is my first story in a few months. Honest. It had nothing to do with a lack of inspiration! Honest!
Warnings: First off, this is a fic involving male/male relationships. Don't like, don't read. Second, this is a Seto/Jou fic. Again, don't like, don't read. Third, um......I dun think I have a 3rd thing..... ;_;
Um.....Yeah.....This is just the (very short) prologue, from either Jou OR Seto's point of view. Could be either. *I* know which one it is, cause I wrote it. But it can really be whichever one you like. It doesn't matter THAT much to the story. I think. I wouldn't know. I haven't written much of the next chapter yet...... x_x
So.....um.....yeah......
~Prologue~
Oh gods......Is it possible that he looks more beautiful than before? He is always gorgeous, but today.......He shines more than ever.
Is it how he did his hair? Is it something he's wearing?
Why can't I stop staring at him?
What I wouldn't give to, just once, place my hand on his flawless cheek. Just once. Just once to lean in and kiss him. To know what it's like to feel his lips against mine. To know what he tastes like.
.......Just once......
I don't think I've ever even touched him. Not his hand, not his shoulder, not his arm......Nothing.
Never once has his skin touched mine.
Will it ever?
Classes are so hard. We have so many together. And throughout the whole thing, I have to force my head to stay facing forward; I cannot allow myself to look at him.
When he's there, I try to forget him, to pretend he's not there, so that I can concentrate on my work.
But when he really isn't there, I can't forget him. He haunts me.
He invades my thoughts.
.I hate it......
I hate feeling this way.
I want him to disappear.
I don't want to think like this.
I want to be normal.
I want to spend my days fantasizing about girls. Not about boys. And not about him......
......And his perfect lips. And his perfect body. And how perfect it would feel to be held in his arms.
......How perfect it would feel to be loved by him.......
...I want to be the one to make him smile. He is so beautiful when he smiles. His face lights up. When it's a real, genuine smile, his eyes shine. Really truly shine. You can see his happiness in his eyes.
I want to be the reason for that happiness. I want to make him smile. I want to make him shine.
......And yet, I don't. Because at the end of the day, he is a boy. And I am a boy. And so it must be wrong.
It's so hard sometimes. What would he think of me if he knew? Would he be appalled? Disgusted? Nauseated?
Would he think me a monster?
Would he avoid me at all costs? Never let me near him again? Never let me *look* at him again?
Would he hate me?
Would he hate me like I hate myself?
Would he hate me like I hate him?
Because I truly do........I hate him. And I hate myself.
I love him, but I hate loving him. And so I try to hate him. But I hate hating him. I just can't learn to hate him........because I love him.
It's so complicated........
Love always it, I suppose......If this is love. It's not a crush. A crush doesn't last for almost a year. A crush doesn't hurt this much inside.
A crush doesn't make you cry at night. A crush doesn't cause your pillow to be soaked night after night with wet, salty tears.
A crush goes away.
He won't.
~End Prologue~
So there you go. I hope it was okay. It's been a while since I've written anything, so I might be kinda out of it.
Next chapter will actually have a plot. Sorta. I hope. x_x
The thing is, I read a lot of fanfiction here. And as much as I LOVE most of the stories, what I've found is, that for almost all of the ones that involve same-sex relationships, no one ever really deals with the issue that the characters are obviously homosexual. And that's always bothered me. Cause you have these characters being like, "Oh my god.....I like another guy." But it never goes farther than that. They just accept their feelings.
And there's nothing wrong with stories like this. I write them, myself. They're fun and fluffy. And sometimes angsty, which is always good.
But as time went on, I really wanted to see a story that was REAL, for lack of a better word. A story where this new discovery hinders the character's ability to be in love.
So I wrote this. It's going to have fluff, and all that other good stuff, but it's also going to be REAL, as Seto and Jou deal with this new realization of, Oh god, I'm gay.
I dunno. Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I'm trying to write something TOO real. Maybe people don't want to read stuff like this.
I wouldn't know.
I just know that this story is going to draw on my personal experience a lot, and it means something to me. And if I get a lot of reviews, great. If I don't, fine. Yeah, I'll be disappointed, but I'll still write this story. Just because *I* want to.
So yeah. Now that I've done my little ramble and stuff, time for the begging.
Please review! I'll give you a cookie! And a Seto or Jou plushie! Or both! Or whoever you want! The ever-sexy Bakura? Malik? The adorable Yugi?
Hehe.....
I 3 reviews.
x_x
~TaLoN~
Title: Recreate Me
Author: Rbabe500...But you can call me Talon. ^^
Disclaimer: I dun own Yu-Gi-Oh. Still. Despite my many attempts to steal it. Which resulted in me getting in some trouble. Which is the REAL reason why this is my first story in a few months. Honest. It had nothing to do with a lack of inspiration! Honest!
Warnings: First off, this is a fic involving male/male relationships. Don't like, don't read. Second, this is a Seto/Jou fic. Again, don't like, don't read. Third, um......I dun think I have a 3rd thing..... ;_;
Um.....Yeah.....This is just the (very short) prologue, from either Jou OR Seto's point of view. Could be either. *I* know which one it is, cause I wrote it. But it can really be whichever one you like. It doesn't matter THAT much to the story. I think. I wouldn't know. I haven't written much of the next chapter yet...... x_x
So.....um.....yeah......
~Prologue~
Oh gods......Is it possible that he looks more beautiful than before? He is always gorgeous, but today.......He shines more than ever.
Is it how he did his hair? Is it something he's wearing?
Why can't I stop staring at him?
What I wouldn't give to, just once, place my hand on his flawless cheek. Just once. Just once to lean in and kiss him. To know what it's like to feel his lips against mine. To know what he tastes like.
.......Just once......
I don't think I've ever even touched him. Not his hand, not his shoulder, not his arm......Nothing.
Never once has his skin touched mine.
Will it ever?
Classes are so hard. We have so many together. And throughout the whole thing, I have to force my head to stay facing forward; I cannot allow myself to look at him.
When he's there, I try to forget him, to pretend he's not there, so that I can concentrate on my work.
But when he really isn't there, I can't forget him. He haunts me.
He invades my thoughts.
.I hate it......
I hate feeling this way.
I want him to disappear.
I don't want to think like this.
I want to be normal.
I want to spend my days fantasizing about girls. Not about boys. And not about him......
......And his perfect lips. And his perfect body. And how perfect it would feel to be held in his arms.
......How perfect it would feel to be loved by him.......
...I want to be the one to make him smile. He is so beautiful when he smiles. His face lights up. When it's a real, genuine smile, his eyes shine. Really truly shine. You can see his happiness in his eyes.
I want to be the reason for that happiness. I want to make him smile. I want to make him shine.
......And yet, I don't. Because at the end of the day, he is a boy. And I am a boy. And so it must be wrong.
It's so hard sometimes. What would he think of me if he knew? Would he be appalled? Disgusted? Nauseated?
Would he think me a monster?
Would he avoid me at all costs? Never let me near him again? Never let me *look* at him again?
Would he hate me?
Would he hate me like I hate myself?
Would he hate me like I hate him?
Because I truly do........I hate him. And I hate myself.
I love him, but I hate loving him. And so I try to hate him. But I hate hating him. I just can't learn to hate him........because I love him.
It's so complicated........
Love always it, I suppose......If this is love. It's not a crush. A crush doesn't last for almost a year. A crush doesn't hurt this much inside.
A crush doesn't make you cry at night. A crush doesn't cause your pillow to be soaked night after night with wet, salty tears.
A crush goes away.
He won't.
~End Prologue~
So there you go. I hope it was okay. It's been a while since I've written anything, so I might be kinda out of it.
Next chapter will actually have a plot. Sorta. I hope. x_x
The thing is, I read a lot of fanfiction here. And as much as I LOVE most of the stories, what I've found is, that for almost all of the ones that involve same-sex relationships, no one ever really deals with the issue that the characters are obviously homosexual. And that's always bothered me. Cause you have these characters being like, "Oh my god.....I like another guy." But it never goes farther than that. They just accept their feelings.
And there's nothing wrong with stories like this. I write them, myself. They're fun and fluffy. And sometimes angsty, which is always good.
But as time went on, I really wanted to see a story that was REAL, for lack of a better word. A story where this new discovery hinders the character's ability to be in love.
So I wrote this. It's going to have fluff, and all that other good stuff, but it's also going to be REAL, as Seto and Jou deal with this new realization of, Oh god, I'm gay.
I dunno. Maybe I'm crazy. Maybe I'm trying to write something TOO real. Maybe people don't want to read stuff like this.
I wouldn't know.
I just know that this story is going to draw on my personal experience a lot, and it means something to me. And if I get a lot of reviews, great. If I don't, fine. Yeah, I'll be disappointed, but I'll still write this story. Just because *I* want to.
So yeah. Now that I've done my little ramble and stuff, time for the begging.
Please review! I'll give you a cookie! And a Seto or Jou plushie! Or both! Or whoever you want! The ever-sexy Bakura? Malik? The adorable Yugi?
Hehe.....
I 3 reviews.
x_x
~TaLoN~