This is what happens when I'm alone at home and in a terrible mood. Character death. Sorry!
The sound of "Teenage Dream" rang through Kurt's ears. He groaned, it's time for another day. He looked to his side, the bed was empty and cold just like always. It's too different. He got up and his feet dragged underneath him as he walked to the kitchen. He made his coffee and sat down reading the newspaper. It's so quiet without you.
The day was still too vivid in his head. The screams, the sounds of metal clanking together, the tears that soaked through his fiancés shirt, the breatheless 'I love you's they murmured to each other. The screeches of the sirens, the arguments with the doctors when they wouldn't let him see Blaine. The three words he longed to hear one more time. I love you. The three words he didn't want to hear, it's too late. The tears that streamed down his beautiful, porcelain cheeks. The way the world seemed like it was ending. The loneliness he suddenly felt.
The funeral was on Tuesday. It was Saturday now. He had gone to the grave every single day and today wouldn't be an exception. He pulled his top over his head and his jeans over his somewhat skinny legs. His feet felt heavy as he traisped through the city, the city that used to mean the world to him. Now it was full of memories that hurt. It was full of impossible futures. It was full of broken dreams.
Sometimes he could still hear him. He could hear his beautiful voice whispering sweet nothings in her ear, singing beautifully or just telling him how gorgeous he was. He missed him. Who wouldn't miss their everything? The world seemed so small and meaningless now that he was gone.
Blaine Anderson
18.09.87 - 27.05.11
Beloved financé, son and brother.
"Hey baby, it's me, Kurt. This is hard, really, really hard. I miss you. I know you told me to move on but how can I? How could you expect me to do that? I love you with all my heart. I love you I love you I love you I love you!" He was now in uncontrable tears, the world seemed like it was closing in on him. "Did you expect me to get used to this? I can't! I'm never going to be able to hear you voice again. I won't see your face again. I'll never be held in your arms. Blaine, you can't leave me, you can't leave us, you're all I had!" The tears were sobs now, streaming down his flushed cheeks. "I just want to hear your voice again, is that so much to ask? I just want you to hold me one more time. I just want you back. Please, Blaine. I need you" The last line came out in a whisper, the desparation obvious in his voice. He stayed there until he was exhausted. Exhausted from the crying, the loneliness, the desparation. When he got up from Blaine's grave, he kissed it goodbye and made the long journey back home. Through the city full of beautiful memories that hurt, impossible futures and broken dreams.
Wow. That came out sadder than I wanted it too.. I was in a sad mood. Please let me know what you think! :)