—Chapter 1—
"Ah shit," he thought as his world faded to black. Gill was gonna bloody kill him - if this guy didn't finish the job. After his last misadventure, he'd promised he would behave...
3 weeks earlier
Nothing broke his heart more than seeing her cry and after his last brush with trouble, Gill had shown up on his doorstep, puffy eyes giving away her recent tears. He could see new ones pooling in eyes as he reached out to her.
"Sorry, love. I'm ok really" he murmured as the back of his right had brushed away some tears and tucked her hair behind her ear before he pulled her into a bear hug.
She nuzzled her face into the crook of his neck, took a deep, albeit shaky, breath and start to sob. He just held her, hand running soothing circles on her back, and let her cry. As she start to calm and pull away, she met his eyes, a soft and sad smile on her lips and he pulled into the house. "Drink, darling?"
"Just some water, Cal," she absently responded and wandered into his living room. Curling up on this couch, she mused over that look he just flashed her outside. She really didn't see that did she?
Cal walked into the room, put the glass on the coffee table, and slung himself on to the couch. He reached out and pulled her to him.
They sat like that for a while, her head on his shoulder and hand over his heart as his head rested on hers, each taking comfort in the other. "Cal," she murmured, "I need you to stop being so careless." And as she paused to take a breath and gather her nerves, he pulled away to look at her face. He may not be able to read voices as well as Gill but something in hers told him he need to focus on this.
"I can't lose you too. After Claire and Sophie and my marriage, I just can't handle losing you too," she whispered all her feelings flash flooded over her face
"I'm sorry love," he quietly said as he watched her face. He saw fear, disappointment, and love flash. The love surprised him, but then she did just mention Sophie; that must have been it. "I'll try harder to not take unnecessary risks, darling. You're stuck with me, Gill."
"I'm serious, Cal. No more," she said as she settled back into his embrace.
"I promise, love" he murmured into her hair and she heard the truth in his voice.
A/N: I'm mostly through chapter 3 and starting to realize that Cal is coming off much softer personality wise than TV show portrayed. Forgive me... I suspect that his underlying personality is much closer to the gentle, caring person we see with Emily. I think Gill might have gotten completely there in S4 - once Cal finally admitted it out loud, I dont think he could have avoided/denied it anymore.