13 Hours

You tell me all you've done for me
and you wait for the applause
I'm not impressed so easily
The hands of time turn against me
You turn them back and still I yawn
'cause the hell I've been living
is a hell you caused

You wear your sacrifices
you think, modestly
like proof you're one of the good guys
But half of what you give
seems designed to work against me
Now you want to collect your prize
You try to stare me down, take me over
but I see desperation in your eyes

And 13 hours
just isn't enough time
when the sky is falling
But 13 hours
inside of your mind
is too much

And your aura surrounds me
with twilight-tipped needles
and clouds my mind with wanting
all these things I never asked for
so you can ask for me
A sacrifice of self that pays
a thousand little girl dreams

And 13 hours
just isn't enough time
when everything's dancing
But 13 hours
inside of your mind
is too much

I can only open my eyes halfway
and I can't quite remember the words to say
Only know that if I let myself be ruled by you
I'd lose the light that made you
want to live within me
You turned your world upside down
in hopes I'd fall within your reach
But I fell into a world of dreams
I don't need you to help me see
So you can keep your pretty things
Sorry you missed the irony
that while pulling me
with dolls and crowns and music boxes
you made me grow up
to get to you and get my eyes ready
so that facing me you would face a kingdom
and have no power over me

13 hours
is a moment in time
when a dream is breaking
13 hours
is a moment in time
when another is waking
But 13 hours
is forever for you
waiting for me to love you

By Aprilhope