REGRETS
ET Pairing
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"Oh, this is great! You are having a child!" Tomoyo jerked excitedly. Her eyes wander off to Lala-land, dreaming of the outfits she could design for Sakura and Syaoran's offspring.
"Now, Tomoyo, don't be too excited. We still have 9 months before we have the baby." Sakura answered, trying to calm her best friend.
Just last June, Sakura and Syaoran got married, and now, they are having a baby.
"This is really great! I could design some baby outfits." Her amethyst eyes shone as she clasped both her hands.
Syaoran sighed as he watched Tomoyo jumping up and down and cheerfully telling them about her little baby outfit plan.
"To tell you Tomoyo, you should find yourself a boyfriend and marry." He sighed again as he took a photo album from the bookshelves and started browsing on it.
"Actually, I kinda agree with Syao-kun" Sakura finally agreed.
Tomoyo was shocked to their suggestion.
"I don't think so. I'm not ready for things like that." She answered and then continued discussing baby outfits with the couple but getting a boyfriend and the marriage topic didn't wear off in her mind.
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TOMOYO'S POV
"I don't think so. I'm not ready for things like that" I answered then suddenly diverted the topic to baby outfits.
Such a ridiculous thing! Find a boyfriend and marry? Do they think, it is easy to find an everlasting love like theirs?
Besides, as if love is just any other usual things that can be seen here. It's once in a lifetime. And if you let go of it, you will be sorry someday that you've done that.
Yes. Once in a lifetime.
And if you let go of it, you will be sorry that you let go of it. I learned my lesson. Now I regret to the things I made. Now, I really regret it. For how many years? Five years. Five years full of tears, sadness and drama. Tears, only for him.
I regret that I knew him
I regret that he became a part of my life
I regret that I didn't notice his kindness
I regret that I didn't notice his love for me
I regret that I didn't see that he cares for me
I regret that I love him
I regret that I never told him how much I love him
I regret that I let him go and slipped slowly into my arms
I regret everything about you.
I regret that you died.
Died without saying goodbye.
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Suddenly, Tomoyo stopped discussing and said, "Excuse me."
The couples didn't felt any strangeness at all. They continued on browsing the photo album, reminiscing their childhood.
Her smile faded. She left the two at the living room and proceeded to her room.
She laid down the bed, while tears were starting to fall from her eyes. She cried because that's all she can do. She can never bring back the time and alter everything. All she can do is moan for his death and regret. She only told her feelings for him when he was about to die. That was the only time she gave affection to him. All the emotions that kept in her heart were released. But too late. He left her.
But she can't see that beside her is a very handsome man, with sad eyes.
"If only I can touch you once more." He murmured as he tried to touch her elegant long hair, but he can't. He cannot touch her hair as if he was air. He can't be seen. He can't be heard, he can't be felt.
"I'll wait for you." Eriol said
THE END