A/N; I had been trying to edit this fic but made a mistake by uploading the wrong rewrite of this chapter. This chapter explains more of how BR ended up back together when she just tells him that she's pregnant. In, the other chapter 1 I hadn't explained that part of the story because it's important to this story and the rest of the chapters to show this slight edit of that chapter 1. I had forgotten what the first chapter had so as a rewrite I thought by showing more of their POV helps the story a long better and how it eventually develops with them becoming a family together.
Sorry, about this quick edit I didn't mean to completely delete the first chapter of this story it was that I went over the story itself to fix some of my errors of that chapter and accidentally deleted that chapter, the original chapter wasn't as well thought out but this one if better and explains more of what she have happened in this chapter originally.
They, knew that before anything. Before, Robin really finds out that she's pregnant. Barney and Robin discussed their relationship and the feelings they have for each other. Up, until this moment they hadn't really talked, then when Robin told him that she is pregnant she he surprisingly took the news really well. Better than she thought he would when she first took those five pregnancy tests earlier that day. The, truth is, she doesn't need a doctor to tell her that she is pregnant. She already thought that she is, she felt it, it wasn't something she doesn't take seriously. That night, when they were together they didn't use a condom, they were just really too into the heat of the moment. They just wanted to get each other naked as fast as possible. They, didn't even realize that they didn't use it. That night was so crazy that neither were thinking about anything other than each other and condoms weren't ever on either mind as she laid on Barney's bed after he admirably looked down at her with a smile… a smile that he hasn't had in a long time. He was finally with Robin, after all this time all he was thinking was how beautiful she looked as she looked into his eyes right before he entered her. So, the thought of a condom didn't fathom them, that night was such a blur that neither knew what the consequences were until the following morning when they were done having sex.
That morning, was so confusing. It was like that first time, that very morning after they had sex for the first time. Awkward, weird, confusing and complicated but then they weren't in relationships with other people. But, now they are were and it's even more confusing and complicated. But, being with each other again after all that time apart, and Robin pining all added up to them in bed together the next morning. That's what that night was about. There were still feelings on both sides, and both felt that day in the rain, the day they shared that dance at Punchy's wedding and in that moment hours earlier in the back of the cab. Kissing each other again felt… right. To the both of them, in that moment it didn't feel like cheating, it felt like they were cheating themselves out of being together and the passion was the only the feeling they felt in that kiss. But, in the morning and the next day it was all confusing especially for Robin but even though she chose to stay with Kevin, someone she didn't love. She knew she still loved Barney, and even if she shook her head no at him, her heart was saying yes. Because, there's no doubt at all that her heart is with him and would always be with him.
And, so when they sat together in the waiting area for Robin to see the doctor they talk briefly about their relationship and feelings.
"So, I know this is sudden and too soon to talk about this… but, I'm in love with you, Robin and even if you don't feel the same way I want to be with you. Whatever, happens. If you are pregnant, then we'll deal with it together but I am serious. I love you and want to be with you, baby or no baby." At, that moment Robin's name was called and the conversation had to be put on hold… at least for a couple of hours until she knows for sure that she is pregnant.
But, as she gets up she allows herself to ponder what he just told her. He told her what she wanted to hear that night on the boat. And, she does feel the same way but right now they needed to get this appointment over with to see if she is pregnant then they can talk. The fact it, she hasn't been happy. She is just not in love with Kevin and hadn't even slept with him once since being together because she doesn't feel physically attracted to him or sexually attracted to him. And, the other fact is she really isn't in love with him, she's grateful that he helped her distract her own mind from her feelings for Barney but she realized after she took those pregnancy tests, that her heart is just not in this relationship. She just doesn't love him the way he should be loved, and that's the problems she's always had with her relationships with men. But, in the past three years those relationships seemed to drag her life down and they never made her as happy as she was that summer her and Barney were together. Her, happiest time was that time and as much as she didn't want to. She loves him, she's in love with him. She is in love with Barney and when she gets to the exam room and they're sitting in private waiting for the doctor she tells him this exact thing that she had been thinking about on her walk to the room.
"As I said, I do want to talk about this more later but… I do love you, Barney I am in love with you and have been since we broke up. I slept with you because of how strong I feel for you, so I do want to be with you. Baby or no baby. I love you and want to be with you..." As, she says this he looks at her and smiles brightly because the woman he's loved for years, who he believed didn't love him just told him she loves him too. That meant the world to him.
"Hello, ms. Scherbatsky." The doctor says entering the room in that moment.
As, the exam went on and Robin took another pregnancy test and a blood test just to make sure… Robin, sits with Barney and waits for the results. They, weren't sure what was going to happy with the results, however they did know that they are in love and want to be together. In, these minutes as they wait they both thought that even if everything has been weird between them since they slept together, they know they didn't regret that night at all and both realize now that that night brought them back to each other even if it was a little unconventional.
"Okay… Ms. Scherbatsky I have your results to the tests I took." The, doctor comes back in the room with a folder in her hand. Barney, suddenly takes Robin's hand and holds it gently in his, while they wait for the doctor to announce whether she's pregnant or not.
"Well, it looks like you are in deed pregnant. Congratulations!" And, in that moment Barney squeezed Robin's hand, not too hard but hard enough for her to respond squeezing his hand in return letting him know that they're in this together now that they know for sure that they are going to have a baby together.
"I would like for you to make a follow up appointment. For two weeks, then we can see how the baby is doing and figure out your due date." Robin, nods along and Barney listens as they're quiet and deep in thought about what to do next.
"Okay, I will do that." Robin says, the doctor leaves the room a minute later after she says her goodbyes leaving Barney and Robin by themselves again.
"So, this is going to change everything." She was quiet not saying anything as she puts on her pants and shirt.
Now, everything's going to change for them and they are going to need to seriously talk about this life changing situation. They, need to figure out what to do next after finding out she is pregnant, they're going to have a baby and there's a lot of things that needs to be talked about and figured out between them. But, for now Robin leaves the exam room and goes to make another appointment and they go back to Barney's apartment after this to discuss everything, from their relationship, to the baby and most importantly her relationship with Kevin that will no doubt be ending soon.
They, get back to his apartment after 20 minutes of not talking much in the cab ride between the doctors office to his apartment. They were quiet until they entered the apartment, with Barney breaking the quietness after they are finally alone and can talk, really talk about everything that has happened lately.
"So, now that we're here we should talk." He says, putting his coat on the coat rack by the door then walks over to the couch where Robin had just sat down, still not talking after she put her purse down on the coffee table but her coat was still on.
"Yeah, I think we do." She says, matter of factly now looking at him.
"What, are we going to do now that we know for sure that you're pregnant?" He asks, starting this conversation off for the both of them because he knows one of them should and also knows that she won't say anything until he talks first.
"I want to be with you Barney. What I said earlier, it's true I am in love with you and have been for a while now. So, what do you want?" The fact that she wants to be with him makes his whole life complete, however they still have one other issue they need to talk about and it's a very sensitive subject that hasn't been talked about yet.
"I want to be with you too, but you're with Kevin. We can't be together until you finally give this nice guy the boot." He's clearly angry with her, probably because she chose to stay with Kevin when she said herself that she is in love with Barney, so it's odd and a real disappointment to him that she stayed this long with him when she doesn't love Kevin and admitted that she loves Barney and has for a long while now, them sleeping together wasn't just a fling it was real, it was passionate, amazing love making which is something he doesn't like to say or think, but they made love and that does make things slightly better. He feels better about what she said to him today, she loves him and not Kevin. She wants to be with him, and even if she wasn't having his baby she still wants to break up with Kevin.
"I know, and I will break up with him but for now… I want this, I want to be with you, be a family with you and our child. I was being honest when I told you had had feelings for you this whole time, I love you and I was wrong in staying with Kevin when I should have been with you. We, should have been together this whole time. Because, I was feeling like I was cheating on you."
"What?" He's shocked at that last thing she said. She feels like she cheated on him and not Kevin? That's a weird but interesting feelings to know about right now after all this time.
"I felt like the night we slept together I was cheating on Kevin but really, I was cheating on you by staying with him and not following my heart like I should have done. I wanted to be with you, but I was scared..." she looks away from him almost in tears because this is the first time she ever told him this and her real feelings about the situation they are in right now.
"Scared?" He asks, raising an eyebrow wondering why she made that decision in staying with Kevin when she loved him and admitted that she wasn't in love with Kevin.
"I was scared that you didn't feel the same way as I did, and from what you told me that night on the boat I thought you didn't love me, when you told me I was messed up like you are it had me thinking and then later that night when I was with Kevin, he told me he loved me and kept saying such lovely things, things I wanted desperately to hear from you. But, you didn't tell me those kind, sweet things. You said I was a mess, just messed up like you and it confused me and made me think the only reason you slept with me is because it was an in the moment type moment. I didn't know how you felt so I ran, I stayed with Kevin while still being in love with you." She's crying now, after everything that's been going on lately and even just today her emotions got the better of her and this conversation is easily breaking down the walls she's had up for three years.
He, understands her reason why she made that decision she made, even if it's one he still doesn't quite understand. He gets that she was scared. He was scared like she is now when he first fell in love with her, when his feelings had suddenly crept up on him after his bus accident. He gets that being scared to act and say what you're feeling is, so he'll forgive her so they can move on and be a family together. Because if this continues to hang over their heads they won't get anywhere and it will continue to start to eat away at them and cause unnecessary feelings they don't want to have anymore. They want to put this behind them and move on so they can discuss what's next, which would be talking about the baby and her pregnancy.
"Okay, I get that. It's not easy for me to express how much I love you and my feelings for you. I've always been scared that you would never feel the way I do about you and so when I told you that stuff on the boat, I really meant that I love you for who you are. Every, single part of who you are even the worst parts… not that I'm saying you being messed up is your worst trait, it just means we are the same in that sense. We are both messed up but through out relationship, I've never been more honest and truthful in my life about the way I love you and my feelings for you. They haven't changed, they haven't gone away, they haven't stopped at all since we broke up because… Robin, Scherbatsky I love you for just the person you are, no matter how crazy, how messy or how bad we are at relationships and particularly our first relationship. But, I love you because you are the only woman who I know understands me better than anyone, and by saying that stuff on the boat I meant that I take you as you are. I love you as you are and I've never stopped or could stop loving you more than anything or anyone." She's sobbing at his speech, that was so beautiful. That is what she wanted to hear so badly from him on that night on the boat, and in a way he did say that, in the years she's known him he's always said such lovely things about her and she didn't believe them, but after all these years she finally realizes that he has loved her this whole time by just being herself and that's more powerful and real than any words Kevin or any other guy had said to her.
"That was beautiful..." she says, sobbing into his arms.
After, all this time and all these emotions they finally almost found the closure they needed from that situation. And, now they can move on and forward to the next step in their relationship.
"So, what are we going to do about the baby and your pregnancy?" He asks, she had cried her eyes out in the last few minutes but after a while she calmed down enough to discuss other things they need to talk about.
"I'm going to have it. That wasn't an option. Having this baby and being with you, they are the only things I want right now. But, this pregnancy might be difficult we'll know more when we go to my next appointment." She says breaking the embrace they were in to sit up on the couch.
"Okay. And, what about Kevin? You are still with him." Right, Kevin she needs to break up with him that's the last big thing she needs to do in order to really move on with Barney and their baby.
"I need to break up with him. I can do it later, but right now I don't want to think about that. I just want to eat something, I'm starving and haven't eaten since breakfast." He smiles and gets up from the couch while she remains sitting.
"Alright, do you want Chinese?" She nods and gets the menu to call for delivery.
In, the next hour they sit, talk, watch TV and wait for the food to come but then they eat and relax for another couple of hours before she goes back to her apartment to break up with him like she should have done weeks ago.