Chapter 1: Pregnant
You're Pregnant, Aren't You?
Author's Note
Hey lovelies, I know I already reedited this not long ago but I needed to again. And for new readers, this takes place in 2010. Not 2011.
By: DawnBeforeTwilight
Edward and I were in my living room about to tell Charlie. I was scared, and so was Edward. We're only teenagers! What will Charlie say? What will my mom say? I, Bella Swan was pregnant at only 18. We were in the living room sitting quietly on the couch. I was holding Edward's hand so tightly that my knuckles were white. My other hand was on my stomach gently rubbing it.
It was still hard to believe that something was growing inside me. I never expected myself to become the pregnant teenager. Edward and I had always used some form of birth control….98% of the time. There were only two times that we didn't use one, prom night in the back of Edward's Volvo, and graduation night in Edward's bedroom. But according to how far along I was the baby was conceived on prom night in the back of Edward's Volvo, which makes me sound like a slut.
"Well, at least Charlie will know why I've been throwing up a lot. I'm pretty sure he thinks that I've become bulimic or something," I tried to say positively. I've been having morning sickness usually in midmorning after I eat my breakfast. Charlie's noticed a few times but I think he's beginning to believe that I have an eating disorder.
"Bella, we can do this. If we already told my parents, we can tell yours," Edward said looking at me. "We've kept this off for 2 weeks. We need to tell your dad." Edward's parents were the first people we told. We told them on June 12th, two days after we found out about the baby, and 3 days after graduation. Carlisle, Edward's dad, had run some blood tests and told us that the baby was conceived in late April, which when prom was. I was about 5 weeks when we told them about the pregnancy.
"I'm scared, what will Charlie say? I mean we haven't even told him about the wedding!" I started to cry a little bit. But who wouldn't? Edward changed his position on the couch so he was looking right at me. He gently took my face and cradled it in his hands. His thumbs wiped away my tears.
"We're in this together," he said as he looked me in the eyes. Edward had told me that he'd be there for me every step of the way, no matter what would happen. My heart stopped when I heard the engine outside. It meant that Charlie's home. I jolted in my seat and felt like my heart was going to beat out of my chest.
In was late June. Edward had just turned 19 a few days ago and we knew even then about the baby.
"Bella, it'll be ok. We can do this," Edward said. We heard the footsteps on the front porch and we braced ourselves. The front door opened and walked in Charlie. He smiled at us as he took off his jacket and hung his gun on its usual place.
"Hello Bella," he said. He then looked at Edward. "Edward," he said somber. He sat down in the chair across from the couch and looked at us. "What's up with you? You've been acting strange for the past few weeks. Is something wrong?"
"Dad, Edward and I have something to tell you actually." I said as he continued to look at us. I had a feeling that he knew what was going on. That he knew what Edward and I did, that he knew I was pregnant, that he knew we were getting married.
"What do you need to tell me, Bells?" I looked at Edward and into his green eyes. He nodded meaning that he was ready to tell my dad. I knew that what I was going to confess to him would be hard.
"Dad, please don't be mad at us but Edward and I are hav-,"
"You're pregnant, aren't you? That's what you're telling me." I looked at my dad with sad eyes. I knew that he wanted us to go to college and start a career long before I started a family.
"I'm sorry dad. We didn't mean for this to happen. But Edward and-" I was then cut off again.
"What about Edward," he looked at him and I swear I saw his hand twitch towards his gun on the hook, "What the hell did you do to my daughter to nasty punk. She was a sweet girl and then you came long and, and, and defiled her. I should have never let her go out with you!"
"Dad," I said trying to calm him down, "Edward didn't do anything that I didn't do. We both made the decision to have sex. And Dad, Edward and I are also getting," I took a big gulp, "married." I felt Edward's arm tighten around me. He then looked at Charlie.
"Charlie, I know that Bella and I are doing everything out of order but. We would like to have your blessing for the wedding," Edward spoke with confidence.
"There's not going to be a wedding! You are never to see Edward again Isabella. Do you have any idea that his baby is going to ruin both your lives?" He roared at us. "You're only teenagers! You can't have a baby! I forbid you to have his baby! You are going to get this thing taken care of!"
"What? Dad! I'm not having an abortion. You can't tell me what to do. I am a grown woman. I am 18 and I don't have to listen to you anymore. I'm legally an adult," I said to him, trying to calm him down and let him know that Edward and I are taking responsibility for our actions.
"Bella can make decisions by herself. She's a very smart and independent woman," Edward said to Charlie, trying to get through to him. But his attempts were bust.
"If Bella was so smart why did she have sex with you and if's she so independent she should be fine without you. And Bella, how the hell do you plan on telling Renee? She'll have a heart attack. Did you even think what your actions would do to your family? How far along are you with the thing anyway?" Charlie shot back.
"The baby is not a thing, Charlie, and I'm about 7 weeks along. And Edward and I plan on keeping the baby." I told him. Charlie directed his attention from me to Edward.
"7 WEEKS! How long have you known?" He demanded.
"We've known for about 2 weeks. We were going to tell you earlier but we knew you would get pissed off at us," I yelled at him. "I know you're mad at us but you have no right to treat me this way."
"You kept this from me for 2 weeks? Dammit Bella!" he yelled louder. His attention was now on Edward. "Edward, do your parents know? What was their reaction?" Edward looked at Charlie with a response.
"My parents already know. They were disappointed at first but now they're happy for us. And you should be, too. This is going to be your first grandchild. You should be happy. Not mad." Edward bravely said before kissing the top of my head. I felt safe there with Edward next to me.
"Get out. GET OUT! Grab your things and leave. I can't have some sort of whore in my house!" Charlie yelled at us. "I never want to see you again, you, Edward, and that abomination you call a baby mean nothing to me." Those words hit me a brick to the face. I stopped my almost tears and took a deep breath before I stood up.
"Fine then, come on Edward. Let's grab my things and we can go to your house." I said as I took his hand. We both went to my room. As soon as we closed my door I let the tears fall.
"Bella, it's going to be ok." Edward said as he hugged me. I cried into his shirt as he held me closer. How could Charlie say those things to me? He called me a whore and my baby an abomination.
"Edward I'm scared. What are we going to do?" I said as I broke from his embrace before grabbing a duffel bag from the closet and started packing. I opened my closet and grabbed and my clothes and took the hanger off and shoved then in the bag.
"I am too Bella, but we are going to get married and we'll have a beautiful baby with us. We'll be good parents. I'll be a doctor and you'll be a cook just like you always wanted." Edward reassured me as he grabbed my clothes from my dresser.
"What about college Edward. I'm due in February, middle of the school year. We'll need to find a place of our own and we'll need things for the baby," I said in full tears. I looked around the room. The closest and dresser were empty except for the occasional sock and belt. I had three bags full of my things. Clothes, shoes, and my laptop was the only thing I had. Edward and I finished and we soon were down stairs. "Goodbye Charlie, for good. You're a heartless bastard." I said as Edward and left the house for the last time.
We got into my truck that I picked Edward up in from his house. We sat there for only a minute before I was crying so badly that when I looked in the mirror my face was red and eyes were puffy. Why did this happen? Why is Charlie kicking me out of the house? He and Renee weren't that much older than me when they had me! He has no right to do that. He's being hypocritical.
Edward drove us back to his house. As we drove to his house I placed my hands on my stomach, "Our baby is not an abomination," I said, remembering Charlie's words. Edward's family had been happy that another life was entering the world. Even our friends, Alice Brandon, Jasper Whitlock, Rosalie Hale, and Emmett McCarty had at first uncomfortable with the idea that Edward I were going to be parents before we were 20 but soon decided that they were happy. But Charlie wasn't happy about a grandson or granddaughter.
"Charlie will regret this one day," Edward said as he placed a hand on my knee. "He just needs a few days to calm down and realize what he said. He'll be begging for an apology."
We soon drove out of the housed area of Forks until the house grew farther and farther apart. The houses also were getting bigger and bigger. We finally stopped in front of a large white house. There were three stories and a wraparound porch. The house was surrounded by flowers curiosity of Esme, Edward's mom. She loved flowers.
She was big on design. She had majored in interior design in the 80s when she had gone to college. Now she was running her own design company called Platt Designs. She had started in 1987, a year before she married Carlisle and became a Cullen and 4 years before Edward was born.
We got out of my truck and then grabbed my bags. Edward was one who really grabbed them. I just crossed my arms and tried not to have an emotional breakdown in the middle of his driveway.
"Bella, please don't look sad. It hurts me when you aren't happy," he said looking me in the eyes. He grabbed my hand and slowly walked us up to the front door. My hand went to the doorknob when it opened by itself.
"Bella, Edward, is everything ok?" Esme asked as she opened the door. I looked at her for a second. She was a little taller than my 5"4'. She had green eyes that she had given to Edward and caramel colored hair. She knew by the way Edward and I looked that Charlie wasn't happy about the news. "Oh Bella, it's ok."
"You are more than welcome to stay here." Carlisle said. They were like second parents to me, Esme being a loving mother figure and Carlisle being the wise and respective father figure.
"Thanks. But Edward and I need to find a place of our own. We wouldn't want to bother you with a crying baby each night and besides. We need a place closer to college. I still want to go." I said with a brave face.
"You are handling this better than I thought." Esme said. "You two must be tired, you should rest." Carlisle told Edward and me. We then went up to his bedroom. He carried my bags while I just crossed my arms as we walked up the three flights of stairs before we approached his bedroom. We lay down on the bed and Edward wrapped his arms around me. I buried my face into his chest for comfort.
All I remembered next was falling asleep and having a dream of when I found out I was going to be a mother and telling Edward.
"Edward, promise me, whatever the result is on the test, you will stay with me no matter what," I spoke with myself on the verge of tears. I wanted to know that Edward would be there for me. I didn't want my son or daughter to wonder who their father was.
Edward looked at me. "Bella, you have nothing to…" I cut him off.
"Promise me." I said with a worried tone in my voice.
"I promise." He said as he wrapped his strong arms around me. "It's been three minutes." He said as he looked at his watch.
I grabbed the stick off the bathroom counter and looked at the results. My hand shook as I raised it to my face. I saw the results and my world came crashing down. I turned to Edward who had the same expression on his face as mine. "Edward, I see two lines. I'm, I'm, pregnant. No this test is wrong. I am not pregnant. Edward, we are not pregnant." I said as I cried into his chest. "I need to take another test. This one is wrong."
"Bella its ok," He said as he rubbed my back.
"No, it's not ok. It's not ok at all. What are we going to do? I can't have a baby but I can't I have an abortion. I can't murder a baby. Edward, we're going to have a baby. I'm scared, how are we going to tell our parents?"
I then woke up from my dream. I was alone in my bed with Edward's blue comforter around me. I looked at the clock on Edward's bedside table. It was 7:30 in the evening. I looked outside to see the twilight. I was beautiful. The forest backdrop and the stars starting to appear in the sky made it seem like it was a painting. I heard some footsteps from the hallway and turned to see who it was.
"Hey," Edward said to me as he kissed me on the lips. "I brought you something to eat," He said as he handed me a bowl of chicken salad. "Thanks." He sat next to me and just stared.
"Give Charlie time to accept it. He'll soon be happy about the baby," he said. We were disturbed by Esme who was standing at the door.
"Rose, Emmett, Jasper, and Alice are here," she said in a sweet tone. Behind her were our four best friends. They smiled as they walked through the door. We had all been best friends since kindergarten. Well, Alice, Rose, Edward, Jasper and I really. Emmett moved to Forks in the second grade from Vermont. All of our friendships turned into romance. During 8th grade Alice and Jasper started to go out as did Rose and Emmett. Edward and I didn't start to go out until freshman year in high school.
"Hey Bella, how have you been? I heard that Charlie was less than thrilled to hear about the baby and the wedding," Alice said as she gave me a hug.
"Don't worry. We all know that you'll be kick ass parents." Emmett said as he gave me a hug that almost squeezed the breath out of me.
"Emmett. I. Can't. Breathe." I said.
"Oh sorry," He said releasing me from his death grip. One common misconception about Emmett is that he's a mean guy just because he's very big and muscular. But the truth is that he cried like a baby during Marley & Me.
"So, Edward, how's it been, you know, since you found out that you're going to be a dad?" Jasper asked.
I had never really asked Edward how he felt about the baby. But he did say that he already loves the little guy or gal as much as he loves me. I just can't wait until our baby is born so I can see Edward as a dad. I can tell he'll be a great daddy.
"It feels, strange. I really couldn't see myself having kids until after college but Bella and I are in this together." Edward said. "We have an ultrasound scheduled for next week. When we told my parents about the baby we told them we needed their help. So Carlisle scheduled us an ultrasound with Dr. Miles. She's supposed to be real nice." He added.
I took a bite of my salad and tasted it. I was a little off, too much dressing probably, but I didn't mind. I was hungry. Plus my taste buds have been acting different now.
"So, when are you going to look for places to live?" Rosalie said to us.
"Well, Edward and I talked about this before we told anyone about the baby but, we'll go looking for places after we get the ultrasound. We're looking for a place close to school and is in a nice neighborhood to raise the baby." I said to our friends. I placed my hand on my stomach. I wasn't even showing yet but I would in a few weeks. One of the baby books I got said that I would start to show around my third month or my fourth month at the latest.
"Do you want to do something? How about we all go see a movie?" Alice asked, trying to cheer me up.
"I don't really think that I'm in the mood to go anywhere at the moment. I mean my dad did just call me a whore and said that I'm making the biggest mistake of my life," I said as I started to cry.
"Bella, you are not a whore and we are NOT making a mistake," Edward said sternly as he looked me in the eyes. He wrapped his arms around me as I cried more. I didn't know whether I was being emotional or if it was my pregnancy hormones that were making me cry like this.
"We could stay here and see a movie. Bella, we want to cheer you up after all that has happened," Rosalie said.
"Bella, we don't like seeing you sad. We want you to cheer up," Emmett said.
"I'm not sure whether I want to do that either," I told them as I rested my head on my pillow and closed my eyes.
"We don't like seeing you upset. Please let us do something," Jasper begged.
"Fine. What do you want to do?" I asked.
"We can watch a movie in here on Edward's TV," Jasper suggested. Edward had a 45 inch plasma screen TV on his bedroom wall. He also had an entertainment system of a blu ray player and PS3. The guys loved to play video games.
"I don't want to watch a movie. I think I want to be alone right now," I said as I started to cry.
"Bella-," Alice started.
"I think that Bella just really wants to be alone right now," Edward said.
"Let's go then. Bella, call us when you feel better. We love you," Alice said as she and the others left. Edward and I were now alone. We just looked in each other's eyes for about a minute before Edward got into bed with me and took me in his arms. I cried harder than I have ever cried before, more than when my grandma died and more than when my parents divorced.
"Shhh Bella, it'll be ok," he said before he kissed my forehead. Edward would often kiss my forehead whenever I was sad. He started to hum an unfamiliar tune in my ear. It was relaxing and made me help a little happier.
The rest of the evening Edward and I just stayed in his bed. I cried some more and he was there to make me feel better. It is scary, being pregnant at only 18 and fresh out of high school. But I know that Edward and I can make it because anything is possible.