WAITING IN VAIN
(AoGA House Cup. Words: 391)
I have nowhere to go. Everybody thinks I'm already insane, as seeing a woman walking on the street with tears filled in her eyes. Every guy I meet, I've always mistaken to be someone. Someone I've never seen for a long time. Someone I love the most. Someone I will never give up looking even if it'll take me forever.
I run towards a man I ought to be the one I've been looking for, his back facing at me. 'It must have been him!' I thought. I place my hand slowly onto his shoulder, letting him turn around and face me. But only dismay fills my entirety at that moment for it isn't him again.
The guy asks with confusion, "Do I know you?" I lay my hands onto my sides and slightly shift my gaze beside him. "I'm so-sorry, mister. I thought you were someone I know." I shyly bow in front of him and run away.
For the nth time, it's still not him. I keep on walking wherever my feet lead me for the only thing inside my mind is to find him. I know he's here somewhere.
As I've reached a deserted place for which I can't seem to see any person passing by, I stop, kneel down and scream. "Stop fooling me around, Natsume! I know you're here! Please, I want to see you now!" Tears start to fall down once again. I cover my face with my hands and stare at the ground.
But… I suddenly hear footsteps behind. "Na-Natsume..?"
"Mikan…" The guy says. I can already distinguish his voice, it isn't him. "Mikan…" I stand up and start to walk again but the guy only grabs my arm tightly.
"What do you want? I'm still looking for Natsume. You might have just given up searching for him, but I don't." I venomously tell him, his blue eyes filled with worries gaze at me.
"Mikan… Natsume's dead for years! Why can't you accept that fact? Stop this! Please! He's gone." He pleads in front of me. "No… He's still alive. I know it for sure. He's not dead, okay?!" I pull my arm off his hand and start to walk away.
Everybody tells me Natsume is already dead. He is killed by his only alice. But I never believe that. For in my heart, I know he's still alive. Maybe he might have just been recovering, still not prepared to show himself. But I know, he's still alive. He told me before we part ways. He told me to wait for him. He told me he'll come back. And now, I'm still waiting. Waiting… Forever…