Tezuka took a glance at Fuji. His usually smiling face was now replaced by an almost crying tensai. Tezuka knew that their friendship will eventually lead to something more but refused to accept the unspoken fact. Tezuka loved Fuji and Fuji loved Tezuka but no one really made the first move to either prove or disprove it. The truth was, Tezuka was afraid, afraid that it will not work out, afraid that he'll cause Fuji more pain than what he's causing to him right now.

"Why?? Why do you need to go away from us? And from me?" Fuji said while fighting back his tears. "I mean I never said I love you but I thought you felt what I felt for you." Fuji added softly.

Yes, Tezuka knew very well that Fuji loved him. Tezuka also knew that Fuji deserved someone better, someone who will not hurt him as he would probably do to him. He knew that his parents will never approve of his love, especially since that relationship is frowned upon by society. Not that he won't fight for him, it's just that he knew his parents too well, they will do anything to get what they want and that includes blackmailing him. He doesn't like the idea of being blackmailed especially when it comes to anything about Fuji. So he decided to run away hoping that he'll soon find another life in London, a life without him.

Tezuka tried to ignore the tug at his heart when Fuji knelt down before him crying, begging for him not to leave him. Fuji never lets his guard down when it comes to his emotions. Usually he hides his real self within his mask. Tezuka was glad that he was able to break through his barrier and reveal his true emotions but it hurts him at the same time knowing that extreme pain's the reason, and it was him who caused him that pain.

Tezuka went down to him face-to-face not knowing what else to do. Suddenly azure eyes pierced through his hazel ones.

"I love you Tezuka , don't you love me too?"

"No, I don't." Tezuka said sharply deciding that it was easier this way, that it will be easier for Fuji to find someone when he doesn't know his feelings for him, and that it will be easier for the both of them to move on. It hurts him to lie especially to the one he loves. He just hopes that what he said had come out right and not a hint of hesitation could be seen on his face, he mastered the features of being an ice block after all, right?

"LIAR!" Fuji shouted then ran away, disappearing from Tezuka's sight. Tezuka was surprised from Fuji's outburst, he thought that he hid his true emotions very well but he was wrong after all. Maybe Fuji saw it in his eyes? He didn't know. Suddenly unnoticed tears came running down from Tezuka's eyes. He wanted to run after Fuji but stopped himself from it because he might not let go of him, defeating the very purpose of his departure.

"I love you Fuji, I really do, I love you so much that I'm willing to sacrifice my feelings for you. I love you" Tezuka said to no one in particular. "Goodbye" Tezuka whispered while walking to the plane, tears falling to the ground.

…oOo…

Fuji looked through his reflection on the mirror. His usually cheerful and sometimes sadistic aura was now replaced with ones that depict sadness and despair. A pair of azure eyes was now staring back at him, puffy and red from all the crying.

"Why are you staring at me like that?" Fuji asked his reflection sounding frustrated and crazy.

'Did you really think that he will love you back? Have you fallen too far for him to even think that he cares for you? You're so stupid!' Fuji thought to himself bitterly. 'No you shouldn't be like this you should go out there and wish him good luck. Maybe something's waiting for him there, something better. You should be happy for him.' Fuji convinced himself while trying to wash his face and preparing to put up his smiling mask as if there was nothing wrong.

…oOo…

"Tezuka" Fuji now cheerfully called as if he was back to normal. It's a wonder how he can change and hide his feelings quickly. Tezuka stopped from walking but never looked back. It hurts him that Fuji was once again hiding his feelings and he knew more than anyone else what it feels like.

Fuji walked closer to the back of Tezuka and started talking. "I'm sorry for my outburst a while ago, it's not like me to go berserk like that. It's just that I'm surprised. I should have respected your decision and be happy for you." Fuji now turned serious instead of the cheerful one just a while back.

A moment of silence passed and Fuji decided that this may be his first and last chance so he wrapped his arms around Tezuka from the back. He doesn't want to see Tezuka's face when he did this, afraid of what Tezuka's facial expressions will depict. Tezuka was grateful that he didn't have to look at Fuji because he might just lose his cool and claim him right then and there.

"I'm sorry Tezuka. Just…just please let me hold you like this." Fuji said as he felt Tezuka stiffen from the unfamiliar embrace. "Tezuka, I want you to be happy, I just want to say that I love you before you leave because I might never get have the chance to say it to you again." Fuji said tightening his hold to Tezuka.

"Tezuka, I love you.." Fuji said as he slowly let go of Tezuka. "Goodbye."

Tezuka dared not to look back to Fuji. Tezuka started to walk away, away from home, away from family, away from memories ad away from Fuji. Fuji felt like his heart was breaking piece by piece as he watch Tezuka's figure disappearing slowly. Fuji wanted to stop him once again but no he won't hold him back anymore, he would make him happy even if it cost him his own happiness.