Say You'll Remember Me.
AN; Just another one-shot to help pass the time until Thursday. I'm really happy with this season of tvd. Any thoughts?
P.s I won't mind turning this into more than a one shot if that's what you guys want.
Please let me know your thoughts. Reviews ;)
It's been a year since I lost him. A year since he was sucked into oblivion. Sometimes I still wonder about it. I'd like to think that Damon found peace before what ever happened... Happened.
I sometimes find myself trying to imagine what our lives would've been like had he not died. I picture common, human-y things. Like a little red house in the suburbs, with a white fence surrounding it and a blue and red swing set on the grass.
I can just picture him making some sarcastic comment about how stereotypical that is. God, how I would give anything to be annoyed by one of his snarky comments right now.
Occasionally, I still get nightmares about that night. It all starts out perfect. We're getting into his car and he's mad at me for not staying. He wants me to get out of the car but I refuse to listen. I tell him that we're running out of time so he starts driving. As we get closer to the grill. He grabs my hand and I look into his eyes. I don't even have to tell him what I'm thinking, he already knows it. I love him. Then just before the car hits the grill this white light appears and it burns my eyes so I turn my face. And when I look back Damon's gone. And I wake up to a tear soaked pillow.
I've been living in this apartment near Whitmore for about 3 months now. Caroline moved in with me about a week after. She says it's because she's feeling lonely. But I know she really wants to be here for me because every night when I wake up from those dreams she's sitting up in her bed. She'll come over to me and hold me tight telling me everything was going to be okay.
Stefan skipped town after the funeral. He's been checking up on me too. I think he's back in Chicago. He was really close to turning off his humanity for weeks after Damon died he refused to even look at anyone. But then one day he just got up and decided to leave. I think it was for the best though. He seems much more at peace now.
Jeremy has finally recovered. He'd been going back to his old habits. Drugs, drinking, and the wrong crowd. But last night he came over for dinner and he brought home this girl. I think her name was Maria. He said she'd got him off drugs and alcohol. And he said she was never going to replace Bonnie but he needs to try moving on.
I knew how much that must've hurt him. I know he and Bonnie had denied their connection for so long because they were worried I wouldn't approve. And then after they'd gotten back together there had been so many obstacles in the way for them and they were finally happy. They finally had each other. And then she was just gone.
Tonight when I woke up in the middle of the night it was different. I didn't feel broken or shattered. My pillow wasn't drowning in my tears. My heart didn't feel out of place. No. Tonight when I woke I knew everything was going to be okay but I still had so many questions. I close my eyes and put my dream on replay in my head so I can remember everything he said.
"Elena?" His voice was still the same. As he stepped closer I could still smell the bourbon on his breath. The idea of they is being some kind of weird supernatural bar wherever he was, made my mind laugh.
"Damon?! What are you doing here? This is just another hallucination isn't it?"
"No baby I'm here." He walked over to her and stroked the side of her face. " I came back for you."
"How-How are you here?" I said, reaching for his face. Just before my fingers touched his face, I closed my eyes praying to god that when I opened them he'd still be there. Thankfully he was. "Damon. Why can't I feel you?"
"Don't worry, baby. I can feel you and soon enough you'll be able to feel me."
"What are you talking about?"
"We'll talk about that soon." Suddenly we were in a ballroom. Damon was in a tux. "First I want to dance with my warrior princess."
"Damon, I need you to come back. "I begged for answers, but he didn't budge "There isn't even any music."
"We don't need any." He pulled me in and twirled me around making me smile. "I've got you now."
He placed his arm firmly around my back as mine locked around his neck. Our fingers interlaced, we started moving around the ballroom together. Safe and steady.
"I hate that I can't feel you." I sobbed after a few seconds.
"You don't have to." He smiled at me. "You know I'm here."
"Yeah but for how long." I tore my arms away. "Am I just supposed to dance with you until Caroline yells at me to get up."
"We'll see each other again."
"I don't want it to be in my dreams Damon. I want to feel you. I want to kiss you and feel you kiss me back." I yelled before bursting into tears and burrowing my head into his chest. He might've rubbed his hand on my back but I couldn't tell.
"Witchy and I found a way back." I raised my hand to my mouth in disbelief as his words sunk in."But we...I can't take it."
"Why the fuck not?" What the hell was he doing?
"It's complicated..." He paused "there'll be lots of consequences."
"What kind of consequences?"
He held my hand to his heart and I was swearing under my breath for not being able to touch him. "What kind of consequences, Damon?"
"Her powers and my vampirism... Will be striped from us."
"It's okay, Damon. Bonnie survived without her powers before and if you want I'll turn you so we can be together fore-"
"Elena, I'm not done." He kissed me on my cheeks repeatedly and I hated that I couldn't feel a single fucking thing." We could wake up anywhere. Here, Mexico, the Great Wall of China. There's no controlling where we'll be once we're conscious again."
"That's okay too, Damon. You'll find your way to me. You always do." This time it was my turn to plant a kiss on him. Still Nothing.
"I wish it were that simple, Elena. I won't remember anything. Neither will Bonnie. We'll be two strangers in the middle of nowhere. But the worst part is I won't even remember you or that I have to come to you."
"We'll survive it." I whispered. "We always survive. Our love is the only thing that makes it worth living. I'll find you Damon. Or you'll find me. Either way, we'll survive. Somehow."
"I can't handle not remembering you Elena."
"You will. Deep down you'll always know I'm there. It might just take awhile to find me or for me to find you... But we will."
"Elena-"
"Promise me you'll take it... The deal."
"Elena I-"
"Promise me!" I snapped" If you promise me this then I promise you that one way or another we will make it back to each other."
"I promise." He leaned in to kiss my forehead before whispering." I love you, Elena Gilbert."
"I love you too." I whispered but when I opened my eyes, the whole in my heart was back and he was gone.
'We always survive' I subconsciously told myself.
And slowly I started to drift asleep knowing that when I woke up I'd be one step closer to being in his arms again.
-—
1 Year Earlier
"Damon!" I moaned. "OH god...Oh! God, Damon!" I felt myself come as he made me reach my climax. He let out a deep breath and fell onto the bed beside me. "Is this ever going to not be so fucking good?"
"Probably not." He started laying a trail of kisses down my body. I grabbed his head with both my hands and pushed him off of me. "Way to be a party pooper!" He joked.
"Damon I don't think I can handle round two." My body can definitely not handle any more orgasms I thought but I chose not to say that so not to feed his ego.
"First of all, technically it's round twenty two..." He smirked and I tried (and failed miserably) to hold back my giggles. "And secondly, we have the house to ourselves shouldn't we have some sort of celebratory sex?" Again with the smirking.
"We did that already, remember?"
"Oh yeah I kind of lost track after you started doing that thing with your-" I cut him off before he said anything that made me die of embarrassment.
"Don't remind me!" I said, clutching my forehead. I got up and started heading towards the bathroom." I'm going to jump in the shower okay?"
"Is that an invitation?"
"You wish!" Now it was my turn to smirk. As I reached the bathroom door I turned around one last time as I heard him say my name.
"Lena?"
"Mm hm..."
"I love you." He said blowing me a kiss.
"I love you too." I said back as I pretended to catch it.
"Promise?"
"I promise." And I left the room, heading for the shower.
-–—_
I awoke to the sound of Caroline yelling into the phone. It was probably Stefan. They'd been having a few "disagreements" lately. Ever since Stefan left she's been different.
I'm not sure but I think that even before Damon and Bonnie died her and Stefan were something more. And hey I'm not one to judge I dated one brother after the other. Although I think Stefan and I both eventually figured out that my heart belongs to Damon. Besides, I had more important things to worry about than Stefan and Caroline's drama.
I had to find Damon. Make him remember. It would never be the same. But at least he'd be here. I need to find him. I got out of bed and walked straight to the showers.
I was ready. Ready to start my search for them. My search for him.
"We always survive..." I whispered to myself as I felt the hot water start to drip onto my skin.