Summery: Alternate Universes, general, mysterious, lust and love. This is Cloud/Kadaj/Cloud's Materia 50 drabbles. Things that are past, present, future and in between lays in here in depths of hell.

Warnings: This fanfiction contains Shounen-ai/Yaoi, some language and mild explicit sexual scenes. If you don't like it, then just kindly click the back button. If you do however, sit and relax and enjoy. Please no flaming, thanks.

Pairings: Cloud/Kadaj, Kadaj/Cloud centric. Didn't I put that in the title?

A/N: This is something on the side that I'm doing besides my pirate fanfic that I will be posting soon. I just need to get away from that fic for a minute and work on something else. Also, it didn't help any when I re-watched the movie ending where Cloud catches Kadaj. Then out from nowhere, little drabble bunnies came out my closet. And thus lead to this. Yep.

Disclaimer: I do not own Final Fantasy VII: Advent Children in such a way. I just abuse the bishies in it for my personal usage.

/.../ Flashbacks

Materia One:

E N D E

Cloud watched as he saw his enemy dispersed in black raven feathers, floating outwards into the painted orange sky. The sliver haired teen fell limp from the air, falling onto his knees, struggling to get up. The mako eyed man hosed his re newly built Buster Sword in an upwards position, getting ready for self defense. Kadaj propped himself up with his sword violently, taking one step at a time. Before Cloud could blink, the older teen thrust himself forward to attack, but alas, his legs couldn't carry out the mission.

Skip, skip, skip, each step took before falling into the arms of someone he least expect to catch him. Cloud. Why? Why did he do such thing? It didn't make sense to the boy. Nothing did. What he thought was paradise, turned out to be a lie, twisted in some sick passionate way.

"Brother..." He choked back. His breathing became horse and soft. It wasn't much longer until he shall pass to the Lifestream, to be forgotten by the people minds and hearts. The older male eyes soften on to the cat like green orbs. What's this feeling, he thought, in the depths of his mind. Was it regret? Or was it...

Rain. It started to rain the holy rain to curse away the planets pain. The cold water droplets fell a upon them, washing any darkness left in their hearts. Cloud's blue obsidian eyes watched as tears flowed down his fragile pale face and then his eyes focused on the gloved hand that reached towards the heavens. He stared at it. Not moving nor breathing. Cloud's raced as it felt like it was about to jump out his chest. He was fading. He was going to fade onto the Lifestream. His nerves began to quake, his palms became sweaty and his breathing pattern became unsteady. He wasn't about to lose another person that he couldn't save. Why must he be committed to another sin? Sin...

/ "Can a sin be forgiven?"/

/ "Don't know, haven't tried it..."/

/"Try it...try it...I'll try it."/

Kadaj green eyes shot open as he felt his body pulled into a embracing hug. Shocked. Ever so shocked was the boy. He did not know what do or say. He just stayed in an semiconscious state of mind.

"I'm...I'm sorry." Cloud said, speaking above a whisper. "I'm sorry that I..." he trailed off, "I couldn't save you..." The teen head turned his head to the crook of the older man's neck. Cloud could feel Kadaj's icy lips forming in a smile, a rare smile that he will never get to see again.

Lighter, lighter, lighter as the body got in Cloud's open arms. He felt a gentle hand brush across his rounded cheek as the boy faded into tiny green lights that surrounded him. He remained in that position. Unmoving..unchanging.

"Thank you."

Cloud stood slowly, looking at the serene clouds above him. He tilted his head back, eyes closed tightly. Lips curved slightly at the thought of the teen once again.

"...you're welcome..."

A/N: Yay. The first one is finished! Only 49 left to go. Please review? Please, please with sugar on top?