Trigger : mentions of past self harm and past suicidal thoughts . If it triggers , go back & read something else please . I don't want anyone having to go through things I've had to . Thank you guise (: "Hey Babe! Look what I fooound. My and your old journal from our younger years!" Blaine said jumping on the bed in his flannel pajamas and old warbler T-shirt waiting for his husband to emerge Kurt emerged in Blaine's old Dalton Hoodie "Alright sweetie, I'll read mine you read yours" kurt said plopping down next to blaine snuggling with him under the covers Kurt cleared his throat "Hello Journal . Sophomore year has been hell . I don't know if I can continue this anymore . Personally it gets me . I've been remembering my mother lately . But with that brings some brighter memories , of me crying a month after her death and Rachel , Quinn , Brit , and Santana finding me and we have been best friends since . Oh brit she seems dumb but she's so sweet to me . She's the only one who truly knows that I've cut .. And sometimes continue to . I have many scars hidden amongst my horrible body . Well I love her to death , and I realize I cannot take my life because I have to stay strong for my father and Brit .. Though I promise I will try not to think of the wonderful life everyone would live without me . My life is a failure . Nobody will ever love me " Kurt finished talking and tool deep breaths remembering when he wrote this passage how depressed and tired of living and faking "You are SO wrong Kurt . I love you . More than I could ever speak of . " Blaine said kissing him deeply "Ugh blaine . I'm reading !" Kurt said pushing Blaine off gently & taking another deep breath "This is from when I met you .. I'm in such a dark place . When Noah told me to go do something useful he made me remember things . I don't feel anything anymore . Except when I met a curly haired booooy . UHH so attractive and gay ! But who would wanna be with me ? I'm horrible . I'm ugly and fat . Brit stopped me from cutting when I wanted to . Thank her . Well goodbye journal until next Time '" "I love you more and more each and everyday " blaine said kissing different spots on his face "We'll let me continue boy ! Scoot Over " Until next time . If anyone's reading this . 5ever Dobber :)