Disclaimer: not mine only the story plot

It was a magical diary, not like the past one. No this one was special; he had bought it for me. He always knew that I didn't like to write. Hell I used quick quotes quills to write up homework.

This one was brilliant. I didn't even need to pick up a pen, all I had to do was think, and my words would come up on the page in shining green ink.

He asked me again, but I told him that I couldn't, that I wasn't reliable enough. I couldn't commit to anyone.

He knows that it hurts to do it, but I don't feel anymore. I've become emotionless. I don't need to feel….do i?

My life is just a selection of greys, the walls black and the torches white. He is the only colour that I see in my life a dark blue almost black but when the light shines he turns a shining blue, a beautiful blue.

The others keep on asking me whats wrong. What do they know? Nothing, that's it, no matter how many times I tell them I'm fine they just keep on going on and on and on, one day when I'm not here they'll be sorry, they'll wish that they stopped bugging me, let me live my life freely.

I was scared, what was I doing? Why was I here?

In the abandoned medical tower that hadn't been used for years. No one knows where it is, apart from maybe Dumbledore back then. He knew where everything and anything was. He was brilliant, just like Snape he understands me. I would sit in his potions room just mixing different potions together, I didn't think about the effects I would just do what I thought was right. Only twice did he have to revive me.

I became great by doing that he told me, just by going purely on instinct. No fancy books, no stupid recipes just pure undisturbed instinct. I got brilliant marks, the best for years I was told. But that isn't helping me now.

What am I doing…am I mad, no I can't be, but this is the only way…

Snape is going to be so ashamed of me. He told me not to do anything stupid, and here I am.

Draco, I know you are reading this. So please give him the letter enclosed and tell him sorry, I couldn't help it.

Keep this Draco, keep it safe, remember me and remember this…I love you, and I always have I'm sorry I'm not good enough for you, but I'm sure you'll find someone better who deserves you.

Draco sadly read the last entry of the diary he bought for her. How could she have chucked away her life like that? He had left Snape alone while he read his letter.

Dear Severus,

I'm sorry, so sorry to be doing this. But I couldn't carry on. You know how I feel and you know what I think.

You have been one of my closest friends I've ever had and for that I thank you. Don't feel bad that I'm dead. You've taught me so much during the times I spent with you and I shall treasure the memories forever.

I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me. To find me just follow the map on the last page of my diary that should be in Draco's possession.

Thank you for everything

Yours sincerely

Ginevra Weasley

I've only just realised that as my body floats to heaven…that I don't think that I want to die.

I want to live but I can't

…pity

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